The Fear That Was Given To Me 🛑🏃🏽‍♀️

Isaiah 41:10 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

Isaiah 41:10 Kjv

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At the age of 16 I got my first taste of anxiety. I remember laying in my bed after an unjust fight with my mother, and feeling a huge weight on my chest like an elephant sitting on me. Anxiety is basically worry on steroids’! That same feeling followed me into early adulthood up until now, the more I think about it fear used to always be a part of my life. I had fear when my mother would walk through the door. I had fear that I would never be accepted. I had fear that I would end up alone or dead in a ditch somewhere. I felt that heavy weight constantly, even now sometimes it creeps in every now and again.

Just the other day I was in the shower talking to Jesus about things that were basically causing me fear, and anxiety. I heard the Holy Spirit tell me, “I will help you, I will hold you up with my righteous right hand”. I felt a peace wash over me. I have to keep reminding myself that I need to believe and TRUST in The Most High God. That’s when I started to turn my attention to the fear that kept creeping up every time I figured I was “okay” that’s when I began to understand that the fear I had was basically handed down to me from my mother. It was pushed upon me, and crammed down my throat forcing me to live a stagnated life and that stagnation seeped into my Christian walk with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ (Yeshua Hamasiyach).

I had this unrealistic view of Christ what He represented, and who He was. It is stated that Fear not or Be not Afraid is used over 365 times in the Holy Bible the Most High never intended for us to live a stagnated Christian life or existence full of FEAR and doubt. I lived a life full of fear I had inadequacies that I focused on I also felt that Jesus would never love or use a broken girl like me I was full of fear and that opened the gateway to doubt and hopelessness amongst other things. I believe that our biggest problems as followers of Christ is that we don’t believe and trust Him as hard or as much as we ought to we let the cares of this life sweep us away from The Most High God. We our past, the news, our jobs, and relationships etc. take our minds off of Christ. The most major one of all the topics I named is our PAST.

A lot of the time we think we know it all. I know I personally thought I knew it all, and concerning my healing I forgot it was a EVERYDAY thing. As Believers we are instructed to cast down imaginations and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God. (2 Corinthians 10:5 kjv)

I understand now that He tells us to fear not because He loves us! He tells us not to be dismayed (loss of courage from fear) because He is with us and He will never forsake us. (Hebrews 13:5 kjv) He will strengthen us whenever we feel weak, and He will help us when we feel helpless! He will even uphold us with His righteous right hand! All we have to do is believe in a world full of fear, and uncertainty hold on to Jesus Christ! Have hope in Him because His promises and His Word never comes back void (Isaiah 55:11 kjv)

Remember you have a Savior who loves and cares for you! All you have to do is believe in Him. (John 14:1 kjv)

John 14:1 kjv- 14 Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me.

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Understand (like I had to) as survivors of abuse fear was given to us forcefully, and it’s something that you can reject and NOT ACCEPT!! Choose faith over fear ! May this Message give you comfort and strength in Christ Name I pray! Amen!!

The Reason You feel Guilty after Abuse 😥

Isaiah 61:3 -To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.

2 Corinthians 7:10 For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death.

Ecclesiasticus 4:21-22 For there is a shame that bringeth sin; and there is a shame which is glory and grace. 21 Accept no person against thy soul, and let not the reverence of any man cause thee to fall.”

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Guilt can manifest in many different ways. Guilt is defined as a feeling of responsibility or remorse for some offense, crime, or wrongdoing whether real or imagined. In this blog post I wanted to talk about why victims of abuse feel guilty after abuse in this post I will talk about reasons based off my personal experiences with abuse and trauma. Everyone is different, and we all process life and experiences differently I believe by sharing our outlook, and testimonies we can help others heal and motivate them to seek a meaningful relationship with Yeshua who is the ULTIMATE healer and deliverer. ❤

I recall in my childhood how I always felt guilty. I felt alone. I lacked confidence. I often felt ashamed. Going on four years of no contact I understand all too well the pains, and perils of feeling guilt if a child is not raised in a household that centers around Yahweh’s love and Words then the house will quickly become a den for demons. My guilt arose every time someone asked about my mother, and when I replied that we were estranged they would rise up quickly to dish out their semantics of how “life is too short”, and that “you only get one mother” and the famous line “Honor thy mother and father” people are quick to downplay the abuse that was inflicted and are more than willing to make you feel guilty even though they do not know you, or the abuser that they are taking up for.

Guilt would always come rushing in time, and time again I would let people who didn’t even know me and the horrors that I endured at the hands of my mother dictate how I should view the abusive relationship. Because after all it wasn’t abuse it was “love” that hurt it was “love” that left me in a former shell of myself hating not only myself, but also the abuser who inflicted the pain and torment upon me. As time went on after going no contact and forming my OWN relationship with Yahweh Rapha I had to reprogram the way I saw not only Him, but how I also looked at myself I grew to understand that people are quick to speak on topics that they have little or no knowledge on. As survivors of abuse we have to not let what others say get to us, after all it’s easy to speak on something when you don’t have first hand experience on the issue at hand.

I felt guilty because I left instead of staying. My guilt arose from not sticking it out maybe things were gonna get better surely my mother loved me she just had a demonic way of showing her love for me. Guilty that I wasn’t loved properly. Guilty that I couldn’t make my mother love me. Guilty that I didn’t even have a connection to my mother was something wrong with me? My guilt arose because I didn’t live up to societies standards of family, and how you should stick by them NO MATTER WHAT. My guilt arose because I chose to walk away from all of them rather than stay and keep silent on the suffering that I was experiencing if I would have stayed no doubt I would have been a ticking time bomb waiting to explode. I felt guilty because I didn’t wanna give my abusive mother the worship, and praise that she required of me I chose to give it to Christ My Adonai I felt disconnected from my mother and I felt like I had to work for her love rather than receive it naturally. I looked at her like my enemy rather than the one who nurtured, and cared for me my guilt came when I tried but nothing ever worked I tried to repair a burned bridge, but I felt like in order for that bridge to be built I would have to DIE for it to be repaired.

Jeremiah 12:6 For even thy brethren, and the house of thy father, even they have dealt treacherously with thee; yea, they have called a multitude after thee: believe them not, though they speak fair words unto thee.

My guilt left when I began to understand that Yahweh called me out of my broken family system for a reason. My purpose is to let others know that it is okay to cry, and that Yahweh sees what they have done to you. It is not your fault that you were born into a damaged family, you were only targeted because you are the strongest one in the family system. You are the truth teller, you are the one who will shine light in the midst of the darkness. Your guilt subsides once you take acceptance towards the situation. Accept that the abuse that was afflicted upon you was unnatural. The way the abuser treats you is unnatural (parents are supposed to love children not hurt them, and patronize them). What happened to you shouldn’t have happened, we can’t stay in the past if we are trying to move towards a better future with Christ.

Luke 9:62 62Jesus replied, “No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God.”

Everyone won’t understand, and that’s okay it doesn’t mean that they are bad people they just aren’t part of your tribe. You don’t need no one to validate that harm has been done to you. The Most High KNOWS all and SEES all. It takes a strong person to acknowledge that they had abusive and unloving parents and it takes an even stronger person to bow down before Christ and ask for healing, and deliverance because a situation like this requires Divine Intervention from The Most High God in Heaven.

It’s hurtful when the ones who are supposed to love you the most hurt you the most. It’s confusing, and troubling when the ones who are supposed to nurture you abandon you. Once you let go of false guilt (that comes from the devil) you will have no problem telling your testimony, and you won’t care if people believe you or not. Did I want to leave? No, but 4 years ago I felt that it was the only choice that I had and if I would have stayed would I be the same individual now? I highly doubt it.

Don’t worry Yeshua knows our struggles, and knows what you have been through. Don’t play limitations on His abilities. There is GLORY in your STORY. So tell it, share it, and most importantly bear it.

Love,

Dedee, A Victor in Christ and of Abuse. 🌹💪🏽

Be{Aware} of The Lack of Love 💔

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We are in the End Times. And we have a lack of love during these times, many people have waxed cold due to them not having a fear of the Most High God. They lack understanding, and they simply do not care that His wrath is coming.

What can we do? Be a light that shine amongst the darkness. Don’t let your past change you! Let Yah’s future claim you we are more than conquerors. I have learned that this world is full of darkness, but it’s how you choose to maneuver that gets you through it. Don’t let what others do to you change the way you feel about yourself. At the end of the day you will stand in judgement before El Shaddai not this world this world WON’T last, but His Word LASTES FORVER.

Many people are hollowed out vessels for the enemy. That’s why they can be used at will, and many times you are not even talking to the soul (person) that The Most High created but the demons that are holding the person captive.

I am learning a lot during these times. We must not let the small things sweat us. We MUST go to Christ to understand out true identity in Him and HIM only DO NOT let the world dictate you or captivate you and PLEASE DON’T let it change you.

We are set apart. We are called. We are Chosen. And we are loved more than we can possibly know and NO ONE CAN TAKE THAT FROM US. 🥰🥰🥰

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[Update] ❗❗💙Guard Your Light

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During the time I took a break. I was shown the true nature of people who I believed to be genuine. Often times abusers in the family dynamic pick the child who is empathetic, strong-willed, and sincerely pure to inflict their abuse on whether physical or emotional it gives the same damaging results.

This is often the case for strangers in the world also sadly we live in a toxic narcissistic world, and if one doesn’t guard their hearts their light can be consumed.

We as victims of childhood abuse (or shall I say SURVIVORS) need to guard our hearts especially in these end days.

Many people are vessels for darkness, and they are void of the truth of the knowledge of (Yeshua) Jesus Christ. They have a form of godliness, but alas they deny its power by their actions, words, and deeds.

They aim to rob others of their faith because sadly they have NO faith. They seek to steal Light because they have NO Light.

They seek out the empathetic. The strong-willed. The Pure for their own evil motives. They suck energy, and aim to snatch crowns.

Be on the look out for these types of people. They will talk about The Most High God in a way that makes Him appear as a abuser One who abandons His children. When He tells us He will never leave us nor forsaken us.

Be on the LOOKOUT! And stand guard over your Light, and hearts because this world is full of those who seek to abuse and use.

Victims of childhood abuse often deal with feelings of inadequacy, ostracization, and loneliness. Many times people affected from childhood abuse often feel as though they are not worthy of Yah’s love, and attention.

These feelings are merely satan’s tricks to get us to not trust in Yahweh. These lies are used to get us to abandon our faith in our loving Father.

DON’T FALL FOR IT! YAHWEH LOVES US VERY MUCH !!! I’M SPEAKING FROM FIRST HAND EXPERIENCE!! 💖💖🌼🌼🌻

Sabbath Songs: God’s Amazing Provision 👸🏽🌹🎉

I will survive this storm because You LORD GOD keeps me safe from harm.

Those who wait upon You shall renew their strength.

Walking with You the road isn’t bent, my pain is truly not in vain

If anything with You Lord God we have more to gain. Why my flesh do you deceive me?

Why does the world not please me? Lord God I believe You in the midst of these waves

I believe You in the midst of the the haze. I have been through worst and I escaped that hurt.

You are preparing a table for me, and I know that I will eat so bountifully.

New changes. New Horizons. Only YOU LORD will I set my eyes on.

You will never leave me nor forsaken me.

I write this song to You my King, because You always make me sing.

We do not need to fear, because You hold us all near and dear.

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May God Bless you and Keep you 💪🏽

[UPDATE #2] I am affected by Hurricane Laura💔💔 {pictures included)🥺

Hello my WordPress family I am here today to give a quick update on my situation. Since the last time I posted we have checked on the place that we used to stay, the trip unleashed an influx of emotions at the sight of our once beloved humble home. Considering the damage we will have to replace everything in our home. We didn’t have much but we were living comfortable within our means prayer is needed not only for us, but all those who are affected by Hurricane Laura. When we final went to the home to access the damages we were overcome with shock, and disbelief at how much was destroyed by this storm. Typing this I have tears in my eyes I am met with uncertainty, and a longing for a taste of normalcy we will have to relocate and honestly it leaves us with a feeling of edginess, and unpredictability. God tested many people in the Bible. He testes us all, and the Words that are written are ALIVE, and SHARP we must live these scriptures out day by day, hour by hour, and second by second. During this time I am also not working, and I also had to take a break from school due to my circumstances we are in the process of looking for a new home so that our baby will have a safe place to lay his head. Please Pray for all individuals affected to receive supernatural miracles and divine provision from God you never expect that something like this will happen to you until it happens. I will keep my head up, and keep a positive attitude, because surely my Redeemer lives and He is able to supply all my needs. (Job 19:25 For I know that my redeemer liveth, and that he shall stand at the latter day upon the earth:) 💖💝

Front of our used to be home.
It blocks the front of the house
this is blocking our carport
ceiling fell in the bedroom
we have no electricity in the house lanterns were used, also the bed has extensive water damage and has mold on it.
the ceiling fell in our kitchen
LOOK AT THE MOLD. We have extensive water damage in our home.
This is the backyard.

This is a time of faith. This is a time that people need to help those who need help. This also is a time to see the Hand Of God upon our lives. New beginnings, and a deeper intimacy with Yahweh.

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Yahweh’s Love & Redemptive Power[My Living Testimony]

Proverbs 29:25 kjv The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe

Growing up in the type of home I grew up in a lot of things were out of order.The way God was represented was out of order instead of Him being displayed as loving and caring He was used as a tool for my abusive, and narcissistic mother. Looking back on my childhood I thought that my mother was right, and in the back of my mind I felt that she knew what she was doing I figured that maybe God did hate me and I was doomed to perish. This thinking lead me to a life of confusion, and darkness quickly flooded in growing up I was robbed of my self-worth and my self-esteem this lead to fast-paced living. You see when I was 17 my mother in one of her fits kicked me out on the streets I ended up at a homeless shelter then I was living pillar to post.

I experienced a lot when I was homeless, and was exposed to a lot that I wasn’t ready for this includes: drug use, alcoholism, violence, and fast paced sex. You know all those things the world tells you is “okay” I did these things because I was looking for something or maybe someone to love me it really is true that a child is shaped by their environment, and how you affirm them either destroys them or builds them up. It leads them toward a path of destruction or a path of victory. The devil knew what he was doing I had been attacked since I was a small girl the first time my mother beat me the breaking process started, and it just kept going downhill ever since.

One thing I have learned about Yahweh is that He is merciful and He takes care of us even when we aren’t even aware of how much darkness we are in or apart of. Only Jesus Christ can RESTORE us. Jesus Christ has delivered me from a life of drug use, alcoholism, porn addiction, masturbation, homosexuality, lying, fornication, adultery. To be honest everything that Galatians 5:19-21 tells us is a WORK OF THE FLESH you see me DEDEE I am NOT PERFECT I HAVE SINNED and I will most likely sin again this is why we must repent daily because we all fall short of the glory of God. His Word says “There is no one righteous, not even one (Romans 3:10).

If you don’t trust in Jesus, then who is your trust in?

If you don’t have hope in God, then who do you hope in?

Did you know in 2017 862,320 babies were ABORTED? Do you know God will JUDGE this Abominable thing!!! DO YOU KNOW GOD HATES HANDS THAT SHED INNOCENT BLOOD?? DO YOU KNOW THESE BABIES BLOOD CRIES OUT FOR JUSTICE???!!! DID YOU KNOW 42.4 MILLION BABIES WERE KILLED BY ABORTION IN 2019??? WHERES THE OUTRAGE OVER THIS??!!!

Yes, COVID is here but is your house in order? Are you seeking God like you should? Who can restore you? JESUS CHRIST. Who can save us? JESUS CHRIST. Who can redeem us? JESUS CHRIST. That is who I am leaning on! Not Trump, not the government, not this fallen world I place My HOPE IN EL SHADDAI!

Proverbs 29:25 kjv The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe

Time is running out folks. If you haven’t accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior I suggest and highly recommend you too. Repent today, open your heart to Him. He is waiting for you with open arms He wants to be your strong tower He does not wish for any man to perish. He redeemed me and He can redeem you too. IF you LET Him. You do not want to be left unprotected during the tribulation May God have mercy on us all.

Happy 26th Birthday to Me 🥰🥰🥰👸🏽👑

Dear Yahweh,

Thank you for allowing me to see another year on this earth. I do not understand your plans for me but I do understand that if I am still here it is for a reason and for Your divine purposes. Life is hard and sometimes it is scary but I thank You Lord that I have You! You are a Good Shepherd and You look after and protects what’s Yours. Lord I pray that my life is filled with Your goodness and Your kindness and Divine Favor in Jesus Christ name I pray, Amen 🥰🥰😇👑👸🏽👰🏽

Happy 26th birthday Dedee ❤❤🥰👑👸🏽 Hallejuah 🥰🥰👰🏽

🕊️The Pain that comes with going No contact {Abuse Awareness}

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After three years of no contact I can honestly say that I feel the anointing of God’s healing power on me I can stand on my own two feet and I know it’s not my strength but Christ. Three years ago when I first went no contact I had just gotten out of a mental hospital undergoing demonic attacks I felt alone, scared, and I was tired of feeling the pain that came from me having my mother in my life. When I first cut communication it was like my mind was trying so desperately to manipulate me into believing that the abuse never happened, then I would have feelings of regret and loneliness. Instead of me acknowledging and accepting that I was abandoned, and abused by my family I would feel as though I was doing to them the very same things they had done to me. I would reverse it. It’s funny how we as humans can do that, it was like I was detoxing from a drug or coming down from a potent high.

Why do victims feel this way? How come after walking from an abusive situation, they feel the need to go back thinking things will change? The answer lies in our childhood one must acknowledge that the environment they grew up in was unnatural the only thing that would make sense is doing things that make no sense. Narcissistic parents train scapegoated children from a early age to cut ties with their original selves, they then mold them to be the physical manifestation of the pain, and anger that they feel on the inside.  When the picked party lashes out at the treatment that’s inflicted on them the whole family stares “in shock”, and amazement.  They are the only brave ones willing to fight on the battlefield this causes the narcissistic parent(abuser) to always seek out ways to keep the picked party “in their place” by using mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical abuse measures.

Things the Victim (Victor) should reflect upon while going no contact:

  • You have been brainwashed into believing that you are the reason why you are being abused and treated unfairly.
  • To not feel pain after going no contact the victor needs to understand that they need healing and to have successful healing they must leave the toxic environment completely.
  • If they cannot leave the toxic environment the victor must start renewing their minds with what the Word of God says about them, and who they are. They must also understand that the narcissistic parent is spiritually sick.
  • Realize that what the abuser says about you doesn’t define you, it just shows that the abuser is intimidated by you.

They will rise because they are HEALED BY GOD, they are victors leading other victims free! CALL ON YAHWEH RAPHA TO HEAL YOU!

FIND YOUR PASSION AFTER THE PAIN OF GOING NO CONTACT!

If the Son sets you free you will be free indeed.

John 8:36

Reflecting on me going no contact from my family: Reasons you should too. [My Testimony included]

This Spring made three years of me going no contact with my family that includes everyone in my family I remember that day in Spring in 2017 I had just gotten out of a psych ward (that my mother helped put me in) when we returned home my husband and I had no money, and little food I also lost my job during this time. I was left dealing with pieces of my broken, and unstable spirit I felt betrayed, alone, and unloved on many levels I also got the answer to the question that often plagued my mind my whole childhood “Does my mother love me?” I knew after this experience that if she didn’t truly hate me she sure acted the part that’s when reality sinked in.

Before going no contact I was on a roller-coaster trying to decipher truth from lies I was a smoker, and a marijuana addict who sometimes dabbled in alcoholism trying so hard to blend into a family that seemed to do me more harm than good. I was trying so hard to heal that broken, and abused girl in the best way I knew how with fleshly desires she had so much trauma that she figured God could never love her.

In 2017, I suffered a major demonic attack as I’m typing this message I’m sure you are facing something too, we all are but during this time in 2017 I seen demonic things, heard demonic things, and I seen the depth of how lost and demonically controlled my family was how much hatred my mother actually held for me and how much resentment she really had towards me (for no reason). I understand now that it was just a cover up for how jealous she was of me my family exploited me, abandoned me, had others laughing and mocking me. I even walked in on her calling the hospital to come get me and pick me up to take me away.

I felt scared, and confused my mother claimed she knew Jesus but after this experience I seen how far away from the truth she actually was. She had no truth her conscious was seared with a hot iron her and everyone else in my family they were like anchors keeping me under water not allowing me to float to the top in order to keep from drowning. Three years. The breaking point for me was when I got out of the mental institution( a hotbed for demonic activity different story, different day) my family never called, never checked up on me NO ONE CARED I felt so alone and ashamed going through the incident that I just experienced.

As I stated before we had nothing no money, no food, and I lost my job. So I did what any child would have done I called my mother to ask for help when she answered the phone I could hear the disgust and distain in her voice my heart was beating out of my chest (over 40.00 mind you). What started my no contact decision was when I went to go pick up the money that I wanted to borrow from her and I seen an awe inspiring look of demonic evil and hatred on her face it was like she hated the fact that she had to lend her mentally broken daughter a hand. It made me so upset how she acted like I done her something wrong in reality I was just breaking down from the years of abuse that she took me through a lot of things bubbled to the surface.

After that day in 2017 I left my family alone I changed my number shortly after I then started my journey towards Christ. I dealt with my own demons some that I let in and others that were passed to me through trauma. Going no contact has given me a feeling of liberation, and it has freed me from the chains of maternal narcissism (Jezebel family system) like many children who grow up in this type of environment you may carry around repressed anger. Little things may trigger you to go back into a child’s safe mode, self-hatred is normal for you and you will feel either resentment towards God or refuse His love on the account that you were never shown love properly or in a healthy way.

Deciding to walk away doesn’t mean your weak it just means you need to heal it just means you decide to honor Jesus correctly. Should you stay in a dysfunctional family system that is out of order and robs you of your God given purpose? A system that is against God? I am still on my healing journey I find myself some days feeling inadequate I rely on Jesus daily to take away my shame, and anger only HE can do that. This process doesn’t happen overnight but it does get better once you submit to His will over your life I deal with depression sometimes, but I praise God because NOW I know this is a trick and tool of the enemy to keep me distracted from my God given purpose, and calling the authority He gives me through Jesus Christ.

Many of us will come to this point in our spiritual walk (especially when dealing with toxic family member) that Jesus means more to you than your struggles and pain from abuse. Jesus says in Matthew 10:37-38 kjv

37 He that loveth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me: and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.

38 And he that taketh not his cross, and followeth after me, is not worthy of me.

Whats your cross? Only you know that. I deal with the feelings of not having a family that loved me, not having a mother to validate me. Other vices that sometimes permeates through. But I have an advocate His name is Jesus Christ (1 John 2:2 kjv) There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus we do not praise and worship Jesus Christ based off our righteousness but His.

God knows how many tears I have cried and he knows how many you have cried also.

Psalm 56:8 8Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book?

The world takes up for it’s own, but God protects what is His don’t stay around and in the cycle of abuse it will only leave you feeling empty and angry at God (I struggled with that Praise God for deliverance)

Just meditate on these scriptures

1 Peter 5:7 7Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you. [when you feel anxious]

Psalm 27:10 10When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up. [when you father and mother abandon you or they are abusers}

REMEMBER! The devil attacks the strongest in the bunch not the weakest