The Fear That Was Given To Me 🛑🏃🏽‍♀️

Isaiah 41:10 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

Isaiah 41:10 Kjv

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At the age of 16 I got my first taste of anxiety. I remember laying in my bed after an unjust fight with my mother, and feeling a huge weight on my chest like an elephant sitting on me. Anxiety is basically worry on steroids’! That same feeling followed me into early adulthood up until now, the more I think about it fear used to always be a part of my life. I had fear when my mother would walk through the door. I had fear that I would never be accepted. I had fear that I would end up alone or dead in a ditch somewhere. I felt that heavy weight constantly, even now sometimes it creeps in every now and again.

Just the other day I was in the shower talking to Jesus about things that were basically causing me fear, and anxiety. I heard the Holy Spirit tell me, “I will help you, I will hold you up with my righteous right hand”. I felt a peace wash over me. I have to keep reminding myself that I need to believe and TRUST in The Most High God. That’s when I started to turn my attention to the fear that kept creeping up every time I figured I was “okay” that’s when I began to understand that the fear I had was basically handed down to me from my mother. It was pushed upon me, and crammed down my throat forcing me to live a stagnated life and that stagnation seeped into my Christian walk with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ (Yeshua Hamasiyach).

I had this unrealistic view of Christ what He represented, and who He was. It is stated that Fear not or Be not Afraid is used over 365 times in the Holy Bible the Most High never intended for us to live a stagnated Christian life or existence full of FEAR and doubt. I lived a life full of fear I had inadequacies that I focused on I also felt that Jesus would never love or use a broken girl like me I was full of fear and that opened the gateway to doubt and hopelessness amongst other things. I believe that our biggest problems as followers of Christ is that we don’t believe and trust Him as hard or as much as we ought to we let the cares of this life sweep us away from The Most High God. We our past, the news, our jobs, and relationships etc. take our minds off of Christ. The most major one of all the topics I named is our PAST.

A lot of the time we think we know it all. I know I personally thought I knew it all, and concerning my healing I forgot it was a EVERYDAY thing. As Believers we are instructed to cast down imaginations and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God. (2 Corinthians 10:5 kjv)

I understand now that He tells us to fear not because He loves us! He tells us not to be dismayed (loss of courage from fear) because He is with us and He will never forsake us. (Hebrews 13:5 kjv) He will strengthen us whenever we feel weak, and He will help us when we feel helpless! He will even uphold us with His righteous right hand! All we have to do is believe in a world full of fear, and uncertainty hold on to Jesus Christ! Have hope in Him because His promises and His Word never comes back void (Isaiah 55:11 kjv)

Remember you have a Savior who loves and cares for you! All you have to do is believe in Him. (John 14:1 kjv)

John 14:1 kjv- 14 Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me.

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Understand (like I had to) as survivors of abuse fear was given to us forcefully, and it’s something that you can reject and NOT ACCEPT!! Choose faith over fear ! May this Message give you comfort and strength in Christ Name I pray! Amen!!

The Reason You feel Guilty after Abuse 😥

Isaiah 61:3 -To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.

2 Corinthians 7:10 For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death.

Ecclesiasticus 4:21-22 For there is a shame that bringeth sin; and there is a shame which is glory and grace. 21 Accept no person against thy soul, and let not the reverence of any man cause thee to fall.”

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Guilt can manifest in many different ways. Guilt is defined as a feeling of responsibility or remorse for some offense, crime, or wrongdoing whether real or imagined. In this blog post I wanted to talk about why victims of abuse feel guilty after abuse in this post I will talk about reasons based off my personal experiences with abuse and trauma. Everyone is different, and we all process life and experiences differently I believe by sharing our outlook, and testimonies we can help others heal and motivate them to seek a meaningful relationship with Yeshua who is the ULTIMATE healer and deliverer. ❤

I recall in my childhood how I always felt guilty. I felt alone. I lacked confidence. I often felt ashamed. Going on four years of no contact I understand all too well the pains, and perils of feeling guilt if a child is not raised in a household that centers around Yahweh’s love and Words then the house will quickly become a den for demons. My guilt arose every time someone asked about my mother, and when I replied that we were estranged they would rise up quickly to dish out their semantics of how “life is too short”, and that “you only get one mother” and the famous line “Honor thy mother and father” people are quick to downplay the abuse that was inflicted and are more than willing to make you feel guilty even though they do not know you, or the abuser that they are taking up for.

Guilt would always come rushing in time, and time again I would let people who didn’t even know me and the horrors that I endured at the hands of my mother dictate how I should view the abusive relationship. Because after all it wasn’t abuse it was “love” that hurt it was “love” that left me in a former shell of myself hating not only myself, but also the abuser who inflicted the pain and torment upon me. As time went on after going no contact and forming my OWN relationship with Yahweh Rapha I had to reprogram the way I saw not only Him, but how I also looked at myself I grew to understand that people are quick to speak on topics that they have little or no knowledge on. As survivors of abuse we have to not let what others say get to us, after all it’s easy to speak on something when you don’t have first hand experience on the issue at hand.

I felt guilty because I left instead of staying. My guilt arose from not sticking it out maybe things were gonna get better surely my mother loved me she just had a demonic way of showing her love for me. Guilty that I wasn’t loved properly. Guilty that I couldn’t make my mother love me. Guilty that I didn’t even have a connection to my mother was something wrong with me? My guilt arose because I didn’t live up to societies standards of family, and how you should stick by them NO MATTER WHAT. My guilt arose because I chose to walk away from all of them rather than stay and keep silent on the suffering that I was experiencing if I would have stayed no doubt I would have been a ticking time bomb waiting to explode. I felt guilty because I didn’t wanna give my abusive mother the worship, and praise that she required of me I chose to give it to Christ My Adonai I felt disconnected from my mother and I felt like I had to work for her love rather than receive it naturally. I looked at her like my enemy rather than the one who nurtured, and cared for me my guilt came when I tried but nothing ever worked I tried to repair a burned bridge, but I felt like in order for that bridge to be built I would have to DIE for it to be repaired.

Jeremiah 12:6 For even thy brethren, and the house of thy father, even they have dealt treacherously with thee; yea, they have called a multitude after thee: believe them not, though they speak fair words unto thee.

My guilt left when I began to understand that Yahweh called me out of my broken family system for a reason. My purpose is to let others know that it is okay to cry, and that Yahweh sees what they have done to you. It is not your fault that you were born into a damaged family, you were only targeted because you are the strongest one in the family system. You are the truth teller, you are the one who will shine light in the midst of the darkness. Your guilt subsides once you take acceptance towards the situation. Accept that the abuse that was afflicted upon you was unnatural. The way the abuser treats you is unnatural (parents are supposed to love children not hurt them, and patronize them). What happened to you shouldn’t have happened, we can’t stay in the past if we are trying to move towards a better future with Christ.

Luke 9:62 62Jesus replied, “No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God.”

Everyone won’t understand, and that’s okay it doesn’t mean that they are bad people they just aren’t part of your tribe. You don’t need no one to validate that harm has been done to you. The Most High KNOWS all and SEES all. It takes a strong person to acknowledge that they had abusive and unloving parents and it takes an even stronger person to bow down before Christ and ask for healing, and deliverance because a situation like this requires Divine Intervention from The Most High God in Heaven.

It’s hurtful when the ones who are supposed to love you the most hurt you the most. It’s confusing, and troubling when the ones who are supposed to nurture you abandon you. Once you let go of false guilt (that comes from the devil) you will have no problem telling your testimony, and you won’t care if people believe you or not. Did I want to leave? No, but 4 years ago I felt that it was the only choice that I had and if I would have stayed would I be the same individual now? I highly doubt it.

Don’t worry Yeshua knows our struggles, and knows what you have been through. Don’t play limitations on His abilities. There is GLORY in your STORY. So tell it, share it, and most importantly bear it.

Love,

Dedee, A Victor in Christ and of Abuse. 🌹💪🏽

The Dangers of A Toxic Childhood ✋🏽☣☢

Ecclesiastes 7:7 Surely oppression maketh a wise man mad; and a gift destroyeth the heart.

Ecclesiastes 7:7 kjv.

Unacknowledged childhood trauma leads to problems in a person’s adulthood if left unchecked and not properly healed. By the time an individual understands that they were raised in toxicity they will either keep the cycle of abuse going (they will go on to abuse their children, coworkers, friends, spouse etc.) or withdraw from themselves taking residence in the sunken place not knowing who they are, or understanding what’s going on around them.

I personally believe (I am speaking from experience) that childhood abuse/trauma damages the way a child sees The Most High God if trauma is left unresolved and not healed this can leave a person feeling inadequate and can cause them to run from God (rather than to Him) fearing that He will abandon and neglect them like their toxic family did.

The Bible says to train up a child in the way that he should go (Proverbs 22:6). What happens when a child is trained up in toxicity? Molded in resentment, and lacking healthy qualities given to them when they are nurtured in a safe environment. The effects can be very detrimental to a individuals growth spiritually, mentally, and emotionally matter of fact, it warps not only how they view themselves but how they also view God. Once the individual gets healthy healing (yes there are unhealthy ways to heal) they will start to understand that love is an action word rather than a word said to use, and abuse a person at will causing confusion and turmoil through means of manipulation, and deception.

As we get older, we need to learn to distance ourselves from those who radiate, or even entertain negativity. The Bible says that those who cause divisions manipulate those who entertain it by smooth talk (manipulation) and flattery (deception) they deceive the hearts of the simple.

Romans 16:17-18 17Now I beseech you, brethren, mark them which cause divisions and offences contrary to the doctrine which ye have learned; and avoid them. 18For they that are such serve not our LORD Jesus Christ, but their own belly; and by good words and fair speeches deceive the hearts of the simple.

A simple-minded person (in this case) is someone who rather “go along to get along”. They are the people in this type of dynamic who cannot understand or grasp the insight that they are being deceived and manipulated. They either participate willingly or they do not understand that their abuser is an ABUSER in my experience they are enablers and will turn on you in order to maintain a false sense of peace.

God is NOT the author of confusion (1 CORINTHIANS 14:33) but of peace. Just know where envying and strife is there is confusion and every evil work (James 3:16) and this can go on ANYWHERE! Toxic environments are riddled with demons and you must know that if your getting attacked or you feel shaken in this environment then The Most High has chosen to call you out of darkness and into His marvelous Light (1 Peter 2:9)

The child that was/is abused must realize that God is not like man better yet that Yahweh’s love does not come with sorrow but we must realize that any godly sorrow will come with repentance (2 CORINTHIANS 7:10) that will lead us to a closer relationship with Abba Yah. Any sorrow from this world leads to death. If someone is giving you love that comes with sorrow then this is NOT LOVE. We must not be afraid to give Yahweh our hearts He alone can heal us, He alone can deliver us, and He alone can redeem us. We must serve Him know that at the end everyone will have to give account of every idle word(Matthew 12:36), and evil deed that they have done to others.

And that is the most beautiful part of this whole story what people fail to realize is that they will give account to their actions they will have to answer to El Shaddai for EVERYTHING they have done. The pain they caused, the lives that they ruined that’s why its best to leave it in God’s hands because after all He did say “Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord. (Romans 12:19 kjv).

Just Remember Healing is a EVERYDAY THING, not a once in a lifetime event.

Love,

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Are You a Living Stone💎, Or Just Dead Weight??? 🤔

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1 Peter 2:5 (kjv)- Ye also, as lively stones, are built up a spiritual house, an holy priesthood, to offer spiritual sacrifices, acceptable to God by Jesus Christ.

So many times during my life I have often questioned why I felt different, and why I just felt as though I didn’t belong even when I was a little girl I felt as though I was homesick, and my childhood home was just a place of temporary residency. It wasn’t until recently that I came upon the knowledge of who I actually was, so many times people call those who believe in Jesus Christ (Yeshua) “Chosen”, but what does that actually mean?

As followers of Christ we are LIVING STONES we are all of the following:

  • Resilient
  • Strong
  • Adaptable
  • Able to stand firm during the trials of life

We are like a tree planted by the waters that spreads out its roots by the river (Jeremiah 17:8 KJV). We are not bothered when the heat (trials) comes, and we always bear fruit (spreading the gospel of Jesus Christ) never anxious in the year of a drought (when speaking about the Word is not considered cool). We tell our testimony, that is one of the greatest weapons against the enemy (Rev. 12:11 kjv) We proclaim God’s goodness, and we live off of His Mercy His Mercy endures forever (Psalms 136). 

We are Chosen by Jesus to bear fruit for God (John 15:16 kjv)

John 15:16 Ye have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that ye should go and bring forth fruit, and that your fruit should remain: that whatsoever ye shall ask of the Father in my name, he may give it you.

We are called and chosen to be a HOLY and SET APART people to God. Proclaiming His coming and letting out light shine before men so that they can glorify Him which is in Heaven. (Matthew 5:16)

To the world we are a stumbling blocks, but to the Church we are living steppingstones being used by Christ to help others go deeper in God. We are walking, living, breathing stones. STRONG. HUMBLE. BEAUTIFUL. A masterpiece created in the image of Jesus Christ (Eph. 2:10)

Ephesians 2:10 (kjv) – For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.

Or, are you just dead weight? Are you bringing forth fruit? Do you witness to those who aren’t believers? Do you spread your love for God or do you hide your light? Jesus says in Matthew 5:14-16 14 “You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that[a] they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.

Sin causes you to be DEAD WEIGHT. When a person is dead weight they are operating in darkness and the only works they can produce are dead works.

 Romans 8:6 For the mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace,

Many times, when a person becomes born again, those who are perishing mock, and ridicule them they often trivialize the persons walk and they make God into an image of an corruptible God. Men love darkness rather than light because their deeds are hid in the dark.

 John 1:5 kjv And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not.

Being alive is hard but dying is easy. What are you doing with the life that God has given you? Are you helping or hurting? Do you have others in your life that is causing you more harm than help? If so, CUT THEM OUT OF YOUR LIFE they are just dead weight. Dead weight puts a heavy burden upon your shoulders if a person is not building you up, they are only keeping you down.

In Hebrews 12:1 Paul tells us “Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us”.

So, analyze yourself… Are you becoming a Living Stone, or are you just dead weight? Do you have dead weights around you, if so LAY IT ASIDE. Get rid of everything, and everyone who does not uplift you. Stay away from things that can easily beset you. Now is the time that we must seek God while He can be found, now is the time to witness to people who do not know Jesus! Share your testimony you never know who you will pull out the fire. Thank you for reading may Yahweh Bless You and Keep you on your journey of truth and righteousness.

Jude 1:23

“And others save with fear, pulling them out of the fire; hating even the garment spotted by the flesh.”

Yahweh’s Love & Redemptive Power[My Living Testimony]

Proverbs 29:25 kjv The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe

Growing up in the type of home I grew up in a lot of things were out of order.The way God was represented was out of order instead of Him being displayed as loving and caring He was used as a tool for my abusive, and narcissistic mother. Looking back on my childhood I thought that my mother was right, and in the back of my mind I felt that she knew what she was doing I figured that maybe God did hate me and I was doomed to perish. This thinking lead me to a life of confusion, and darkness quickly flooded in growing up I was robbed of my self-worth and my self-esteem this lead to fast-paced living. You see when I was 17 my mother in one of her fits kicked me out on the streets I ended up at a homeless shelter then I was living pillar to post.

I experienced a lot when I was homeless, and was exposed to a lot that I wasn’t ready for this includes: drug use, alcoholism, violence, and fast paced sex. You know all those things the world tells you is “okay” I did these things because I was looking for something or maybe someone to love me it really is true that a child is shaped by their environment, and how you affirm them either destroys them or builds them up. It leads them toward a path of destruction or a path of victory. The devil knew what he was doing I had been attacked since I was a small girl the first time my mother beat me the breaking process started, and it just kept going downhill ever since.

One thing I have learned about Yahweh is that He is merciful and He takes care of us even when we aren’t even aware of how much darkness we are in or apart of. Only Jesus Christ can RESTORE us. Jesus Christ has delivered me from a life of drug use, alcoholism, porn addiction, masturbation, homosexuality, lying, fornication, adultery. To be honest everything that Galatians 5:19-21 tells us is a WORK OF THE FLESH you see me DEDEE I am NOT PERFECT I HAVE SINNED and I will most likely sin again this is why we must repent daily because we all fall short of the glory of God. His Word says “There is no one righteous, not even one (Romans 3:10).

If you don’t trust in Jesus, then who is your trust in?

If you don’t have hope in God, then who do you hope in?

Did you know in 2017 862,320 babies were ABORTED? Do you know God will JUDGE this Abominable thing!!! DO YOU KNOW GOD HATES HANDS THAT SHED INNOCENT BLOOD?? DO YOU KNOW THESE BABIES BLOOD CRIES OUT FOR JUSTICE???!!! DID YOU KNOW 42.4 MILLION BABIES WERE KILLED BY ABORTION IN 2019??? WHERES THE OUTRAGE OVER THIS??!!!

Yes, COVID is here but is your house in order? Are you seeking God like you should? Who can restore you? JESUS CHRIST. Who can save us? JESUS CHRIST. Who can redeem us? JESUS CHRIST. That is who I am leaning on! Not Trump, not the government, not this fallen world I place My HOPE IN EL SHADDAI!

Proverbs 29:25 kjv The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe

Time is running out folks. If you haven’t accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior I suggest and highly recommend you too. Repent today, open your heart to Him. He is waiting for you with open arms He wants to be your strong tower He does not wish for any man to perish. He redeemed me and He can redeem you too. IF you LET Him. You do not want to be left unprotected during the tribulation May God have mercy on us all.

Witness Wednesday: A Tool for the Demonic🧰

1 Corinthians 3:3 kjv – For ye are yet carnal: for where as there is among you envying, and strife, and divisions are ye not carnal, and walk as men.

We are children of the Light, as children of the Light we are called to be Holy as God is Holy (1 Peter 1:16 kjv). As time winds down for the return of Jesus Christ our Savior, the love of many shall wax cold. We are living in dark times evil is on the rise, and many people call evil good, and good evil (Isaiah 5:20) lots of people are under the influence of demonic powers without even realizing it, the Bible says in James 3:16 “For where envying and strife is, there is confusion and every evil work”.

This is so true I am left in shock, and utter amazement at how much the Bible is on point with everything that is happening now. As darkness gets thicker we that are called to be a light to this world (Matthew 5:14) must let our lights shine BRIGHTER not worrying about what those in darkness think or how they may feel when they cannot overcome us. We must not compromise because of persecutions or love our lives even when faced with death laying down our lives for Christ knowing we will have a much greater reward.

It’s okay. Everything will be okay. We are not worldly, we have been called out of the world to live a Holy, and set apart lifestyle those who keep strife going, and people who let envy be their driving force do not even know that they are under the influence of dark powers. And that is very scary because these people think that they are right, or that the demonic thoughts that they think are theirs. They do not see the error in their wicked ways this is why Jesus instructed us to pray for those who do wrong to us (Matthew 5:44 KJV) .

Please remember Church (I am talking to myself also) that we are in a spiritual war! Greater is He that is in me, than he that is in the world.

You can think this is funny. You will have a rude awakening shortly. I’m positive about that.

Witness Wednesday: We Are Not Forsaken 👸🏽

2 Corinthians 4:8-9 kjv- 8 We are troubled on every side yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; 9 Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed.

This Bible verse was so beautiful I ask Jesus to minister to me something to help me through this trial I am facing right now. I pray this gives you hope also.

Written on 06/30/2020- I haven’t did my witness Wednesday in a while, but I feel that this Wed this message needs to get to someone. Comment and tell me what you think.

This scripture, I never knew existed in the Bible until yesterday (funny how much you discover about the Bible when you start reading it). I asked the Lord to give me a Word that I can meditate on, something to put in the chambers of my heart to give me strength during this trial I am facing. Once I read this scripture I immediately fell in love with God all over again. Yahweh is so AMAZING! He is BREATHTAKING the love He has for us is so UNREAL its SURREAL. What is a man that He is so mindful of him? I been though some hard times abused and mistreated by family, abandoned by my family, placed in a mental ward, had demons talk to me through people. I was laugh at, mocked, and ridiculed and the list goes on and on.

As followers and believers of Christ we must always remember that God will never leave us nor forsaken us. We have so much going on around us that we must remember that greater is HE that is in US than he that is in the world. It is so easy to get lost in this world. Trouble on the job, dealing with family issues, and insecurities amongst other things but through it all The Most High God is with us and He is making a way so we must FOCUS on what’s not seen verses what’s seen.

Keeping your lamp full of oil is a must, and blocking out all distractions is necessary if you want to hear the call of the bridegroom. Praise the Lord! For His mercy and His might Amen.

🕊️The Pain that comes with going No contact {Abuse Awareness}

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After three years of no contact I can honestly say that I feel the anointing of God’s healing power on me I can stand on my own two feet and I know it’s not my strength but Christ. Three years ago when I first went no contact I had just gotten out of a mental hospital undergoing demonic attacks I felt alone, scared, and I was tired of feeling the pain that came from me having my mother in my life. When I first cut communication it was like my mind was trying so desperately to manipulate me into believing that the abuse never happened, then I would have feelings of regret and loneliness. Instead of me acknowledging and accepting that I was abandoned, and abused by my family I would feel as though I was doing to them the very same things they had done to me. I would reverse it. It’s funny how we as humans can do that, it was like I was detoxing from a drug or coming down from a potent high.

Why do victims feel this way? How come after walking from an abusive situation, they feel the need to go back thinking things will change? The answer lies in our childhood one must acknowledge that the environment they grew up in was unnatural the only thing that would make sense is doing things that make no sense. Narcissistic parents train scapegoated children from a early age to cut ties with their original selves, they then mold them to be the physical manifestation of the pain, and anger that they feel on the inside.  When the picked party lashes out at the treatment that’s inflicted on them the whole family stares “in shock”, and amazement.  They are the only brave ones willing to fight on the battlefield this causes the narcissistic parent(abuser) to always seek out ways to keep the picked party “in their place” by using mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical abuse measures.

Things the Victim (Victor) should reflect upon while going no contact:

  • You have been brainwashed into believing that you are the reason why you are being abused and treated unfairly.
  • To not feel pain after going no contact the victor needs to understand that they need healing and to have successful healing they must leave the toxic environment completely.
  • If they cannot leave the toxic environment the victor must start renewing their minds with what the Word of God says about them, and who they are. They must also understand that the narcissistic parent is spiritually sick.
  • Realize that what the abuser says about you doesn’t define you, it just shows that the abuser is intimidated by you.

They will rise because they are HEALED BY GOD, they are victors leading other victims free! CALL ON YAHWEH RAPHA TO HEAL YOU!

FIND YOUR PASSION AFTER THE PAIN OF GOING NO CONTACT!

If the Son sets you free you will be free indeed.

John 8:36

Unforgiveness is Rooted Bitterness 🌱🌱😞

Hebrews 12:15-17 kjv

Hebrews 12:15 KJV Looking diligently lest any man fail of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you, and thereby many be defiled;


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As a child who grew up in a abusive household I developed many unhealthy spiritual habits, and one MAJOR thing that I struggled with was unforgiveness it infected me like a cancer and I felt that I didn’t need to forgive my mother because after all she never acknowledged her wrongs. The older I got, the more I experienced hurt at the hands of my family and also others that I met I felt as though if my mother didn’t love me how can God love me? Was forgiveness necessary for me to walk with Christ? Was the hardest decision in my life actually more easier than my flesh made it feel?

I can attest that in order to have a successful relationship with Jesus Christ you MUST forgive EVERYONE even when it HURTS. Unforgiveness is actually a work of the flesh (Galatians 5:19-21 kjv) it leads to hatred and gives you a ticket straight to hell.

Our relationship with God, is built on forgiveness when we repent of our sins we are also asking for forgiveness in order to have a relationship with God. Jesus tells us in Mark 11:26: But if ye do not forgive, neither will your Father which is in heaven forgive your trespasses kjv.

In order to experience true freedom and healing from the shackles of abuse and spiritual defeat one must be willing to forgive wrongdoings that was done to them NO MATTER how much it hurts. I know it hurts but love covers a multitude of sins (1 Peter 4:8 kjv) I love Jesus Christ more than I love my pain and hurt He frees us from the bondage of bitterness.

The longer I held on to the past the more bitter I got. We have two choices in our healing process to get bitter or better.

Sit and reflect on these things:

  • Is holding in hurt and resentment worth your eternal soul in Hell? Are you justifying reasons you shouldn’t forgive someone who has wronged you, are you letting your flesh get in the way of TRUE deliverance?
  • Is your relationship with God based on an actual relationship of true love, and repentance? Are you just covering up your bitterness with empty praises and clinging to unforgiveness while slowly sinking into anger (works of the flesh)?

Bitterness is a seed that gets planted at a early age and it springs up slowly and by the time you realize that you have a problem you are in hell regretting and wishing that you would have came to Christ for healing. Most bitter people do not realize they are bitter, they are cynical they are deep rooted in the flesh and many of these people think that they are Christians. As true followers of Christ we must deny ourselves (Matthew 16:24 Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.)

Abuse is my cross and denying myself means that I put anger and resentment(bitterness) far from me. I will follow Christ because only He can give me deliverance, healing, and most of all LOVE. I choose not to walk in the flesh, but I will walk in the Spirit (Galatians 5:16 kjv This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh.)

Repent for the kingdom of God draws near! Whatever wrong that was done to you please give it to Jesus He will handle it. True freedom come from forgiveness because it allows you to place your FULL Faith (trust) in God it leaves justice to Him (Romans 12:19 Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the LORD.)

Unforgivness puts up a wall between you and Jesus a wall so high that you wont be able to experience His love, and the freedom that comes with it.

FORGIVE, REPENT, AND BE SET FREE!

God is Healing 🕊️

I almost had a relapse today. I thought about all the things I went through in my childhood and how abuse made me feel so dissociated with reality. I knew this was an attack from the enemy I must be close to something that God has in store for me, and that’s my healing. People who grow up in abuse or those who become entangled in abuse often struggle with identity crisis, and most if not all tend to think that God has forgotten about them. Today I was honest with Jesus, and I told Him how I felt. How long does it take to heal? Is healing a everyday process? I am starting to believe it is everyday I must seek to be renewed and not conformed to the world, and also not letting my past dictate me.

I will stand on His Word, I will be unafraid. I’m tired of being flaky I understand now that my flakiness is a result of the trauma that I went through in my childhood. It causes me not to trust easily, it causes me to run from everyone including my Creator it leaves me with permanent fig leaves that I want removed. I’m tired of hiding. I’m tired of hurting. I just want You Lord to Heal me I just want to be grounded in You and Your Love. Please Lord be my Yahweh Rapha, I know you will only be if I allow you too. Remove these fig leaves from me. Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening.{♥}

I chose to stand on this, In Jesus Christ name AMEN!