Deliverance From Dysfunction {💌} Testimony included **

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Until recently I was not honest with myself. I lied to God and I also lied to myself. I decided to investigate the mirror, and I accepted that the abuse afflicted on me left me with scars. Deep scars that turned into major issues. Issues that permeated to the top every now and again. You see I reached a crossroad where I could not let nor afford to let my past keep me prisoner, I did not want to be a hostage to pain anymore. I figured I was okay, and the damage caused was not that serious. I have come to realize that being alive is more than just breathing. God wants us to experience Him in many ways and to see how much love He really has for us in ways that we have not known. I was broken, disheveled, and I lost my sense of self. Who was I? Where was I going? Does God love me? What exactly is love?

I reached a major point in my relationship with Jesus and I couldn’t bear it anymore I told him how I felt I told Him how I was scared, how hurt I was, and how I wanted Him close but I was anxious. You see, I was never honest with Him about how I truly felt about my mother I just pushed all my feelings down so far that when they did resurface I would shut down and become flaky, flighty, and apathetic towards everyone including myself and towards my Savior and Redeemer Jesus. It was revealed to me that I developed a hatred for my mother, a resentment towards my childhood and a strong distain towards people who dismissed my feelings as mere imaginations and something that I should just get over.

My hurt led to hatred, which resulted in bitterness which resulted in me hating myself and doing things that not only affected others in my surroundings but also myself. The best thing I ever did was accept it I accepted the fact that I was abused I was done wrong, and that people who haven’t went through what I went through will not empathize with me nor give me the sympathy that I so desperately crave. Only Jesus can do that, and only God will allow that. On that beautiful day when I came under attack from not only the enemy but also my former self, I decided to pick up my CROSS.

When I think of my mother, and others who also have similar stories what is the end result? Will we as survivors or victims keep the cycle going, or will we deny ourselves? Jesus suffered and died on the cross for nothing He did wrong. So, who are we? I learned on that faithful day that life isn’t fair, and interestingly it isn’t supposed to be if it was fair or “perfect” we wouldn’t need Jesus, now would we?

You have two options, but one choice. You can be a victim who turns into a victimizer, or you can be a victor who leads others to victory and that is Gods plan for us. You see, I just recently (like a week ago) understood how much Yahweh loves me. Jesus knew how I felt towards my mother (and family) He was waiting for me to be honest with Him, and to tell Him how I truly felt, and I won’t lie when I told Him how I truly felt I felt a HUGE burden get lifted off my spirit.

That is when I felt our relationship began to blossom into something deeper. When I began to open my heart to Him.

As His Word says, “Casting all your care upon Him; for He careth for you”. {1 Peter 5:7 kjv}

Jesus Christ knows everything we have been through, and He also understands how we feel. “For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are- yet he did not sin”. {Hebrews 4:15 KJV}

The point of me telling (writing) my testimony is this: Tell Jesus the truth, your soul depends on it.

May God bless you and keep you on your healing journey. DanYah “Dedee” ❤

🦋Jesus Christ Changes You

We all are going through transformations. Are you going towards the Light or the Darkness? Time is running out. Seek the Lord while He can be found.

Seek ye the LORD while he may be found, call ye upon him while he is near: Isaiah 55:6 KJV

God is working on me, and He is working on you

I know it hurts, but its the truth

Always seek the Lord in your youth

With Christ I gain, when pain comes I stay sane

He holds my umbrella while I’m in the rain

I don’t get this life, how sometimes it’s not right

But you my Lord did a major sacrifice

You died for me, so that I may have mercy

Lord! I sing to thee, because I love thee

Lord, I love You. My Lord I choose You.

Life is hard. The world isn’t free

But I praise My King Jesus! Because He has SET ME FREE 🌼

Hallelujah !!!

Come! Let us praise the King for eternity 🌼

🌼 A Beautiful Reminder 🌼

One of the things that I have learned from my abuse is that abuse makes your forget who you are as an individual. You have to throw away everything that your abuser said you were. Rely on Christ to help you figure out who you are! Your past doesn’t define you! Think of it as a refining period that The Most High used to make you BETTER, STRONGER, and WISER. You never know who your STORY will help. Sometimes running doesn’t mean your weak sometimes you have to leave a toxic situation to see the true manifestation of God’s Divine Healing come into play. I have more blog post coming soon. May God Bless you and Keep you in Jesus Christ name I pray !

Apart from Christ…. I’m Nothing💍

What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him? (Psalms 8:4 kjv)

The older I got the less I knew about myself. Abuse, life, drugs, and this world had took its toll on me I felt misunderstood and misplaced in a big world with no identity to call my own. I seen how my past affected the way I looked at Jesus (He revealed it to me in a dream) how I viewed Him as an image of a corruptible man the more I seeked the less I knew, the less I knew the more realized that I needed Jesus. Not the cookie cutter Jesus that so many referred to because it looked good on paper no I wanted the REAL thing I had to have the REAL thing.

What are we? That God loves us so much. He is so mindful of us and the thoughts He thinks towards us is good and not evil. He is our Creator, and He holds each and every one of us in the palm of His hand I am truly blessed to be chosen by God to be saved by way of Jesus Christ. How beautiful is our great God!! And how His mercy endures, how when we were still sinners Christ died for us isn’t that such a heart warming thing? We reject love a lot of times because we DON’T know love the world has conditioned us with a water down version on what love should be. Materialism, vanity, pride, lust, the list goes on and on…….

We are in the end of days. Time is drawing close for Christ to return! Don’t be left in the dark. The trumpets are starting to blow, many will be left behind and many don’t believe(just like in the days of Noah). My hope is that whoever is reading this blog post repents and seeks Jesus Christ all it takes is this:

Acknowledge that you are a sinner

Repent for your sins and Ask God for Forgiveness

Ask Jesus to be your Lord and Savior. Ask the Lord to come into your heart as Lord of your life. 

Believe that He died and He rose & Get in the Word & Stay Connected to God.

I hope this Message finds you well. May God bless you and Keep you!

Philipians 5:17-19 says, ” Pray without ceasing. In everything give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. Quench not the spirit.”

Sabbath Songs: Beauty in the Rain ☔🌈

Glory! Glory to ye Christ!

Praise the Savior, He is nigh

I have so much love for my King

So much love that He makes my soul sing

Yes! There is beauty in the rain

So much beauty in your pain

As someone once said “, No pain. no gain”.

After the rain, comes a rainbow gain

A beautiful rainbow comes from the clouds

Shout Hallelujah! And shout in loud

This my darling surely is true, in Christ these is neither greek or jew

Why my Lord do you dry my tears?

Why my Lord do you wipe away my fears?

I’ve done so much wrong to thee, I praise You Yah for Your mercy.

So much beauty in my rain, So much of Your glory in my pain.

“My Glory in your story”, He whispers to me.

Beauty in the rain, there’s no more pain

Trust in Me my love and I will set thee free

Like a bird from a cage no longer will you be a prisoner during the end of days

“Real rainbow that I seen” Praise God!

Only put your hope in Christ! He hasn’t failed you once or twice.

Sabbath Songs: Songs to Sing on Sabbath

🌈Embrace your beauty in the rain. Always Praise Him through the pain.🌈

Selah 🌈

Sabbath Songs: God be Merciful, To Dedee A Sinner.🙇🏽‍♀️

Lord, the world doesn’t believe Your real

It doesn’t matter because I can feel

Change my soul, please make me whole

I want my name in the Book of Life, I long for the days where we will be without strife

Sometimes it looks so grim, somedays I feel as though I won’t win

I look to Christ , and I acknowledge His SACRIFICE what He did on the Cross

How He kept my soul from being lost

The world laughs, the world mocks a lot of people will surely rock

Every knee shall bow and every tongue shall confess

I will put my trust in You because that’s BEST

Glorious King! You shall come, Let us all praise The Risen One (Christ)

Please Be Merciful to Dedee A Sinner, I trust that You Lord will make her a winner.

She will tell her story, because it’s drenched in Your glory.

Thank You Lord for Loving Me!

Praise You Christ, for staying near me.

Selah 🌸

Sabbath Songs: Volume 3 Songs to sing to Yahweh on the Sabbath

Sabbath Songs: Yahweh Rapha 🌈🎁

The Elohim Who Heals

He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.

He takes old things and makes them new.

The Lord is my buckler, and He is my shield so I shall have no fear.

He is close to those whom He holds dear.

My soul cries out because it misses You dry my eyes Lord, I need You.

Your eyes are upon those that love You.

Your grace wraps around those that trust You.

Why fear man? When the Great I AM has a plan!

He parted the Red Sea. He came down and died for me.

So, I will dance for the Lord because He keeps me safe from harm.

Great is His power! Great is His Love! Great is the Most High God above!

Help us Lord finish the fight until the end. Strengthen us El Shaddai to understand that we win

Heal me Lord, thou art my praise! I will praise Thee until the end of my days.

  • Selah

Sabbath Songs Vol: 2 Song to sing on the Sabbath. May Christ Keep you warm. ❤