WE ARE IN THE END!!!!!!!!! A strong delusion is HERE!
I know it has been a while since I posted anything, but I have been going through another phase of my journey in Christ. I want to be free! I want to be free from the burdens of my past. I need Jesus I’m tired of us as believers getting caught up on names, religions, race, sex and the list goes on and on. It saddens me that as the body of Christ it has gotten to this point. At this point of my life the only thing I want is to be SAVED! I want to be saved by the power and blood of Christ. I have realized that all that this world has to offer is vanity and LIES!
Read my message and read it clearly! Read it SOBERLY!! The Most High GOD is not to be played with! He is not a MAN that HE should LIE neither the son of man that He hath to repent – Numbers 23:19
It hurts my heart how people just don’t care, or maybe it’s because they have rejected The Most High.
I will be honest with you as I type this. I came from an abusive home. I didn’t even think that I was going to make it past 18 I thought I was going to kill myself. But by the GRACE OF GOD!! I am still here I am beginning to understand that Yahweh loves me!! He does not want anyone to perish it is hard walking on the narrow road! It is hard letting go of family and friends because they rather take the V than believe in God. It hurts.. Having faith is so hard but at the same time it really is the easiest thing we can do.
My prayer is that you open your heart to Jesus. Please repent! Please turn to The Most High GOD so that you can be saved from all the terrors that will come on this earth.
Do not take the Vax!!! It is the Mark of the beast!
We are in the end of days… we are in the end. I believe we are. Have faith in Christ. We have to turn from our wicked ways and SEEK Him while He can be found. Its coming a time where the only thing will matter is if we have Christ. No matter how much food you have stocked up, no matter how much resources you have, no matter how much money is saved if you do not have CHRIST then NONE OF IT MATTERS!!!
Those feelings of CONDEMNATION ARE FROM THE ENEMY!! God loves us.. and He whispers to us always we just need to allow ourselves to be open to Him be receptive to His will. I’m not only talking to you, but also myself.
I LOVE YOU ALL! AND I WILL BE POSTING MORE POST SOON!!
Isaiah 61:3 -To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.
2 Corinthians 7:10 For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death.
Ecclesiasticus 4:21-22 For there is a shame that bringeth sin; and there is a shame which is glory and grace. 21 Accept no person against thy soul, and let not the reverence of any man cause thee to fall.”
Guilt can manifest in many different ways. Guilt is defined as a feeling of responsibility or remorse for some offense, crime, or wrongdoing whether real or imagined. In this blog post I wanted to talk about why victims of abuse feel guilty after abuse in this post I will talk about reasons based off my personal experiences with abuse and trauma. Everyone is different, and we all process life and experiences differently I believe by sharing our outlook, and testimonies we can help others heal and motivate them to seek a meaningful relationship with Yeshua who is the ULTIMATE healer and deliverer. ❤
I recall in my childhood how I always felt guilty. I felt alone. I lacked confidence. I often felt ashamed. Going on four years of no contact I understand all too well the pains, and perils of feeling guilt if a child is not raised in a household that centers around Yahweh’s love and Words then the house will quickly become a den for demons. My guilt arose every time someone asked about my mother, and when I replied that we were estranged they would rise up quickly to dish out their semantics of how “life is too short”, and that “you only get one mother” and the famous line “Honor thy mother and father” people are quick to downplay the abuse that was inflicted and are more than willing to make you feel guilty even though they do not know you, or the abuser that they are taking up for.
Guilt would always come rushing in time, and time again I would let people who didn’t even know me and the horrors that I endured at the hands of my mother dictate how I should view the abusive relationship. Because after all it wasn’t abuse it was “love” that hurt it was “love” that left me in a former shell of myself hating not only myself, but also the abuser who inflicted the pain and torment upon me. As time went on after going no contact and forming my OWN relationship with Yahweh Rapha I had to reprogram the way I saw not only Him, but how I also looked at myself I grew to understand that people are quick to speak on topics that they have little or no knowledge on. As survivors of abuse we have to not let what others say get to us, after all it’s easy to speak on something when you don’t have first hand experience on the issue at hand.
I felt guilty because I left instead of staying. My guilt arose from not sticking it out maybe things were gonna get better surely my mother loved me she just had a demonic way of showing her love for me. Guilty that I wasn’t loved properly. Guilty that I couldn’t make my mother love me. Guilty that I didn’t even have a connection to my mother was something wrong with me? My guilt arose because I didn’t live up to societies standards of family, and how you should stick by them NO MATTER WHAT. My guilt arose because I chose to walk away from all of them rather than stay and keep silent on the suffering that I was experiencing if I would have stayed no doubt I would have been a ticking time bomb waiting to explode. I felt guilty because I didn’t wanna give my abusive mother the worship, and praise that she required of me I chose to give it to Christ My Adonai I felt disconnected from my mother and I felt like I had to work for her love rather than receive it naturally. I looked at her like my enemy rather than the one who nurtured, and cared for me my guilt came when I tried but nothing ever worked I tried to repair a burned bridge, but I felt like in order for that bridge to be built I would have to DIE for it to be repaired.
Jeremiah 12:6 For even thy brethren, and the house of thy father, even they have dealt treacherously with thee; yea, they have called a multitude after thee: believe them not, though they speak fair words unto thee.
My guilt left when I began to understand that Yahweh called me out of my broken family system for a reason. My purpose is to let others know that it is okay to cry, and that Yahweh sees what they have done to you. It is not your fault that you were born into a damaged family, you were only targeted because you are the strongest one in the family system. You are the truth teller, you are the one who will shine light in the midst of the darkness. Your guilt subsides once you take acceptance towards the situation. Accept that the abuse that was afflicted upon you was unnatural. The way the abuser treats you is unnatural (parents are supposed to love children not hurt them, and patronize them). What happened to you shouldn’t have happened, we can’t stay in the past if we are trying to move towards a better future with Christ.
Luke 9:6262Jesus replied, “No one who puts a hand to theplow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God.”
Everyone won’t understand, and that’s okay it doesn’t mean that they are bad people they just aren’t part of your tribe. You don’t need no one to validate that harm has been done to you. The Most High KNOWS all and SEES all.It takes a strong person to acknowledge that they had abusive and unloving parents and it takes an even stronger person to bow down before Christ and ask for healing, and deliverance because a situation like this requires Divine Intervention from The Most High God in Heaven.
It’s hurtful when the ones who are supposed to love you the most hurt you the most. It’s confusing, and troubling when the ones who are supposed to nurture you abandon you. Once you let go of false guilt (that comes from the devil) you will have no problem telling your testimony, and you won’t care if people believe you or not. Did I want to leave? No, but 4 years ago I felt that it was the only choice that I had and if I would have stayed would I be the same individual now? I highly doubt it.
Don’t worry Yeshua knows our struggles, and knows what you have been through. Don’t play limitations on His abilities. There is GLORY in your STORY. So tell it, share it, and most importantly bear it.
Feeling inadequate can be a result of a lot of factors for some it is the type of clothes they wear, the type of house they have, or maybe the type of job title they hold. During early development, a child is learning so much, and during this time a child starts to form an opinion on how they view themselves and others. In fact, feelings of inadequacy can take root during a person’s childhood when a child receives negative messages about themselves indirectly, and directly. These negative messages about themselves can be from parents, teachers, or others whom the child sees as significant.
In my case the feelings of inadequacy weren’t so complex I wish it could have been because of materialistic lack, but I knew that my feelings of lack stemmed from my childhood upbringing. Imagine my horror when I realized that the feelings of inadequacy still followed me into my early and late adult hood. I felt unworthy of God’s love, and attention I changed the image of Yah into my abusive mother and enabling family members. I would cringe at the thought of Him loving me I felt as though I was a burden, maybe I was a mistake? Getting in the way of His will. So many teachings, so many men who I perceived were closer to The Most High more than I could ever be. I could feel myself becoming a bit legalistic scared of Him not love, but a fear that made me feel unworthy to even send Him a prayer.
The Bible is full of people who felt just like me. Inadequate. Moses, Gideon, Jeremiah, Peter the list goes on, and on. I look at Peter, and some of his characteristics remind me of myself matter of fact I look at Luke 5: 8- When Simon Peter saw it, he fell down at Jesus’ knees, saying, Depart from me; for I am a sinful man, O LORD. With a display of supernatural power this gave Peter proof of the Father’s omniscience and omnipotence through The Lord Jesus the Christ. With it comes Peter’s realization of his own inadequacy, which he conveys by falling “down at Jesus’ knees, saying, ‘Depart from me, for I am a sinful man, O Lord!‘” Peter realizes that he had been faithless, and just like Peter I myself (and I’m sure you too) can relate to this verse.
Jesus then goes on to tell His newfound disciple to “Fear not; from henceforth thou shalt catch men.”(Luke 5:10 kjv) He affirms Peters and lets him know to fear not and from that moment on he will become a fisher of men, a worker of righteousness. In spite of Peter’s inadequacy God chose him. He looked past his inadequacies and seen Peter’s potential because when God sees us He doesn’t see our inadequacies, but He sees how we are adequate for His plan, and how we can be used for His PURPOSE. Despite our past, despite our failures The Most High sees the untapped potential that is trapped inside of us waiting to get out how does He know it is there? Because HE PUT IT THERE!
In my experience the first step to overcoming feelings of inadequacy is admitting that you are fearful and realizing that you are broken and that you need Yahweh’s healing touch upon your life. Yahweh Rapha the Lord who Heals you, who restores you. What was I fearful of? I was fearful of rejection not just from man but also from The Highest. Apparently, the cuts from my childhood cut me deep so deep that I developed strong feelings of inadequacy I would always feel like I wasn’t good enough condemning myself to hell for any little mistake that I made I caused a lot of pain to not only others but also myself before I realized that I was a product of childhood abuse and trauma.
This is not the last time where we see Jesus telling us to fear not matter of fact Jesus tells us in Matthew 10:31– Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows.
We are of so much value to God that we cannot even fathom the things that He has in store for us once we begin this journey. He does not want us feeling inadequate that is why He gives us grace because His power is made perfect in our weaknesses (2 Corinthians 12:9). Truth is God was never looking for perfect people He is looking for those who will perfect His will, a willing vessel who will go against the grain to walk the narrow path of righteousness. So why feel inadequate? Why feel as though you are not good enough? He knows your condition that’s why you were chosen.
He makes all things new, and when your in Christ you are a new creation besides all have sinned and come short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23). Not some, but ALL.
Besides, I am realizing that it is not my strength that I need to operate off of but Christ’s strength. I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me, and this includes overcoming my feelings of inadequacy, and throwing away the lies of my childhood and destroying the works of the enemy. I will serve God despite my insecurities and inadequacies truth be told no one is perfect, and I have come to respect the fact that I will never be, but Yahweh loves me even though I am not perfect. This is due to the mercy that He has available to me and His mercy endures forever. He cannot go against His character and I don’t expect Him to because He changes not. Everyday we are learning, and everyday we are changing some for the better and some for the worst at the end of the day it’s up to you to chose sweetness over bitterness.
Thank you for reading! Get past feeling inadequate it doesn’t get you nowhere! May God Bless, keep, and Heal You in Christ Jesus Forever ❤
Observe the circumstances that are happening to you (You must notice that the relationship is abusive and toxic to your health)
Beware of evil (Be Aware of the evil around you. Be cautious and alert of those you surround yourself with KNOW YOUR ENEMIES)
Do not be ashamed if something concerns your soul. (If something worries you; makes you anxious especially if you have a reasonable reason as to why you feel the way you do don’t dismiss those feelings.)
For these is a shame that bringeth sin; and there is a shame which is glory and grace. (A person’s shame can lead them down a path of sin which can turn into varies addictions to mask the pain of the shame that they feel. Or the shame that they feel can lead them to turn to Christ and taking up their cross shedding their old man and going against everything that they were taught.)
Someone who has been abused knows what it’s like to want to run away. Wanting to run away from the toxicity. Wanting to leave the toxic environment to escape the pain that they feel.
In the beginning an individual often runs from the shame of the abuse they suffered. I know I used to run I lived in denial, and I felt that maybe my mother did love me but just in her own “special” way. When you run from shame you will look towards other things to soothe your pain (drugs, alcohol, sex, food etc.)
But when you run towards Yahweh with your shame, He will give you beauty for your ashes. Only He can give you glory and grace working in us and making us a new creature that turns pain into praise because He will never leave us nor forsaken us.
(Isaiah 61:3 – To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.)
And once this happens you will become a living and breathing testimony of deliverance for El Shaddai. Your pain will be transformed into praise. Your pain will become power that can and will be used against your enemies.
That is where the enemy knows the real power of redemption lies in our testimonies of YAHWEHS FAITHFULLNESS AND LOVINGKINDNESS. We are the proof of His love and His healing. Therefore, the enemy aims to keep you shame-faced and downtrodden. Shame can either bring you defeat, or you can use it to your advantage to move forward to have a deeper and loving relationship with The Highest.
The more your around toxic people the less you see El Shaddai’s plan for your life. The less you see His plan for your life the more you lean on outside forces that contribute to you adding more shame to the shame you already feel. Losing sight of your true purpose in this life. What Yah has called you to do.
This is why our Savior told us in John 10:10- The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.
Yahweh wants us to have life, and to have it more abundantly. We must realize that the abuse inflicted on us was not our fault the environment we were in was sick in order for one to properly heal they must leave the environment where they first became sick. Shedding off the old man, and becoming a new creation in Christ.
Asking Christ to be your Lord and Savior takes away the shame of the abuse that was afflicted on you along with the weight and burdens of the pain you feel. Repentance plays a HUGE role in healing. The closer we get to Christ the more that we realize that He alone is our saving grace, and that nothing can separate us from His love and that when our mother and father forsaken us He will take us in. Only Yahweh can turn a broken person whole! Ask me how I know? Listen to my testimony on surviving abuse. Tell me if you can relate. 🙇🏽♀️
We have to use righteous judgement in whether we should give someone the benefit of the doubt or if we are just tolerating EVIL. Growing up in an abusive household warps our sense of judgement, and makes it difficult in separating good from evil.
Forgiveness of sins should NOT BE CONFUSED with tolerating evil.
You can forgive someone and not engage with that person. There is a proper way to do ALL things.
Start your healing today call on Jesus Christ to heal your broken heart! You do not have to be a VICTIM! BECOME A VICTOR!!!
He is near to those of a broken heart and a contrite spirit. Psalms 34:18
During the time I took a break. I was shown the true nature of people who I believed to be genuine. Often times abusers in the family dynamic pick the child who is empathetic, strong-willed, and sincerely pure to inflict their abuse on whether physical or emotional it gives the same damaging results.
This is often the case for strangers in the world also sadly we live in a toxic narcissistic world, and if one doesn’t guard their hearts their light can be consumed.
We as victims of childhood abuse (or shall I say SURVIVORS) need to guard our hearts especially in these end days.
Many people are vessels for darkness, and they are void of the truth of the knowledge of (Yeshua) Jesus Christ. They have a form of godliness, but alas they deny its power by their actions, words, and deeds.
They aim to rob others of their faith because sadly they have NO faith. They seek to steal Light because they have NO Light.
They seek out the empathetic. The strong-willed. The Pure for their own evil motives. They suck energy, and aim to snatch crowns.
Be on the look out for these types of people. They will talk about The Most High God in a way that makes Him appear as a abuser One who abandons His children. When He tells us He will never leave us nor forsaken us.
Be on the LOOKOUT! And stand guard over your Light, and hearts because this world is full of those who seek to abuse and use.
Victims of childhood abuse often deal with feelings of inadequacy, ostracization, and loneliness. Many times people affected from childhood abuse often feel as though they are not worthy of Yah’s love, and attention.
These feelings are merely satan’s tricks to get us to not trust in Yahweh. These lies are used to get us to abandon our faith in our loving Father.
DON’T FALL FOR IT! YAHWEH LOVES US VERY MUCH !!! I’M SPEAKING FROM FIRST HAND EXPERIENCE!! 💖💖🌼🌼🌻
2 Timothy 3:5-7 kjv 5Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away.6For of this sort are they which creep into houses, and lead captive silly women laden with sins, led away with divers lusts,7Ever learning, and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth.
I would have to say that 95% of the people in the world are entangled in bitterness. Bitterness is described as anger and disappointment at being treated unfairly i.e resentment. Anger and bitterness goes hand in hand along with unforgiveness, and many other works of the flesh (Galatians 5:19-22) our society is dominated by bitterness, and narcissism is often praised. Society pumps up over sexualization of humans, gossip, rebellion, and toxicity. Women who are bitter are often revered and pushed forth as an example for how women should be, and a lot of these women profess to know Christ but there heart is far from Him. Abusers, backstabbers, and unrighteous we as followers of Christ MUST be able to judge a tree by it’s fruit even though a person may claim to believe in Jesus does the person’s actions follow? ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.
The Bible warns that these types of women are silly women who are taken into captivity (weighed down by the burden of their sins) and lead away by evil temptations. Always learning, and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth. The Bible tells us to stay away from these types of people. The Book of Proverbs which was written by Solomon a book of perceived truth based on common sense and experience in life talks a lot about these wicked women, and how we as righteous people should avoid them at ALL costs.
In Proverbs 5:6 it tells us that her ways are movable (crooked) she will never be straight up with you because she does not think seriously about the path of life, and thou canst not know them meaning hanging with her you never know where the path leads or what trouble is around the corner. There is always drama, and confusion in her midst she is a roaring lion seeking whom she can devour her feet go to death, and her steps take hold of hell.
The bitter woman always preys on the strong the weak are merely used as pawns to get her will done to help her cultivate her wickedness (flying monkeys ring a bell?). They are intimidated by the confidence that a strong individuals wields, and the beauty that their pure soul radiates. They make it a goal to dominate, disintegrate, and to dissimilate the character of an individual that is walking in the Light the freedom that we display terrifies, and vexes their spirit.
Proverbs 14:1 says ” A wise woman builds her home, but a foolish woman tears it down with her own hands”
Women like this are normally their own worst enemy , yet they do not know it they tear down their own spouses, children, and friends (if they have any) co workers she then blames them when they get as far away from her as possible, and accountability is nowhere in her actions saying sorry is never on her lips.
She comes across as sweet with her slick manipulations, but in the end she is as bitter as poison and as dangerous as a double-edged sword. ( Proverbs 5:4) The bitter woman cannot be TRUSTED she isn’t even loyal to herself you can tell by her actions, and the words she speaks of others. Histrionic, and cruel. Cold, and disheveled is the bitter woman. She has a form of godliness (religion), but denies His power by the evil works she puts forth.
Gossip is a big hallmark for these bitter women they are always in someone’s business, or fishing for yours. It tells us in the Bible to not be deceived evil communications corrupt good manners. (1 Corinthians 15:33)
By the grace of God, and His GIFT of discernment I can easily spot the signs of a woman who needs deliverance, and those women who are in bondage. Growing up in an abusive household has also given me some leverage. The facial expressions always give them away they barely smile and their expressions is left in a twisted countenance of hatred. They are often times loud, and simple knowing nothing (Proverbs 9:13).
ECCLESIASTICUS 25:17 KJV “The wickedness of a woman changeth her face, and darkeneth her countenance like sackcloth.
God says they are counted as dogs (Ecc 26:25).
A bitter woman marks a woman ruled by disappointment, and defeat. She has ALOT of emotional baggage that must be given to God in order for her to become whole. A broken woman seeks to break others, and they seek to rob others of their peace, joy, and security in the Lord.
Jesus tells us in Mark 12:31 Love your neighbor as yourself. No other commandment is greater than these.
People only treat you, how they treat themselves you shouldn’t be surprised that many people do not love themselves. If they have no love for themselves how can they love another? How can they claim to love Yahweh when they don’t display love to others or themselves? Out of a mans heart flows the issues of life. Jesus shows us a full representation of what love truly is, and He didn’t say it. HE DISPLAYED IT through acts.
So, the next time you run into a bitter woman remember to remain in the Light and to be an example of God’s goodness and display His love to these individuals. Bitter people can’t be happy for you because they are disgusted with themselves. Bitterness is the mark of one who feels that God has “forgotten” them. So pray for them, don’t get ugly with them after all we all were once bitter before Christ redeemed us.
1 Peter 2:5 (kjv)- Ye also, as lively stones, are built up a spiritual house, an holy priesthood, to offer spiritual sacrifices, acceptable to God by Jesus Christ.
So many times during my life I have often questioned why I felt different, and why I just felt as though I didn’t belong even when I was a little girl I felt as though I was homesick, and my childhood home was just a place of temporary residency. It wasn’t until recently that I came upon the knowledge of who I actually was, so many times people call those who believe in Jesus Christ (Yeshua) “Chosen”, but what does that actually mean?
As followers of Christ we are LIVING STONES we are all of the following:
Able to stand firm during the trials of life
We are like a tree planted by the waters that spreads out its roots by the river (Jeremiah 17:8 KJV). We are not bothered when the heat (trials) comes, and we always bear fruit (spreading the gospel of Jesus Christ) never anxious in the year of a drought (when speaking about the Word is not considered cool). We tell our testimony, that is one of the greatest weapons against the enemy (Rev. 12:11 kjv) We proclaim God’s goodness, and we live off of His Mercy His Mercy endures forever (Psalms 136).
We are Chosen by Jesus to bear fruit for God (John 15:16 kjv)
John 15:16 Ye have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that ye should go and bring forth fruit, and that your fruit should remain: that whatsoever ye shall ask of the Father in my name, he may give it you.
We are called and chosen to be a HOLY and SET APART people to God. Proclaiming His coming and letting out light shine before men so that they can glorify Him which is in Heaven. (Matthew 5:16)
To the world we are a stumbling blocks, but to the Church we are living steppingstones being used by Christ to help others go deeper in God. We are walking, living, breathing stones. STRONG. HUMBLE. BEAUTIFUL. A masterpiece created in the image of Jesus Christ (Eph. 2:10)
Ephesians 2:10 (kjv) – For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.
Or, are you just dead weight? Are you bringing forth fruit? Do you witness to those who aren’t believers? Do you spread your love for God or do you hide your light? Jesus says in Matthew 5:14-16 14 “You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that[a] they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.
Sin causes you to be DEAD WEIGHT. When a person is dead weight they are operating in darkness and the only works they can produce are dead works.
Romans 8:6 For the mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace,
Many times, when a person becomes born again, those who are perishing mock, and ridicule them they often trivialize the persons walk and they make God into an image of an corruptible God. Men love darkness rather than light because their deeds are hid in the dark.
John 1:5 kjv And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not.
Being alive is hard but dying is easy. What are you doing with the life that God has given you? Are you helping or hurting? Do you have others in your life that is causing you more harm than help? If so, CUT THEM OUT OF YOUR LIFE they are just dead weight. Dead weight puts a heavy burden upon your shoulders if a person is not building you up, they are only keeping you down.
In Hebrews 12:1 Paul tells us “Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us”.
So, analyze yourself… Are you becoming a Living Stone, or are you just dead weight? Do you have dead weights around you, if so LAY IT ASIDE. Get rid of everything, and everyone who does not uplift you. Stay away from things that can easily beset you. Now is the time that we must seek God while He can be found, now is the time to witness to people who do not know Jesus! Share your testimony you never know who you will pull out the fire. Thank you for reading may Yahweh Bless You and Keep you on your journey of truth and righteousness.
“And others save with fear, pulling them out of the fire; hating even the garment spotted by the flesh.”
Proverbs 29:25 kjvThefearofman bringeth asnare: but whoso putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe
Growing up in the type of home I grew up in a lot of things were out of order.The way God was represented was out of order instead of Him being displayed as loving and caring He was used as a tool for my abusive, and narcissistic mother. Looking back on my childhood I thought that my mother was right, and in the back of my mind I felt that she knew what she was doing I figured that maybe God did hate me and I was doomed to perish. This thinking lead me to a life of confusion, and darkness quickly flooded in growing up I was robbed of my self-worth and my self-esteem this lead to fast-paced living. You see when I was 17 my mother in one of her fits kicked me out on the streets I ended up at a homeless shelter then I was living pillar to post.
I experienced a lot when I was homeless, and was exposed to a lot that I wasn’t ready for this includes: drug use, alcoholism, violence, and fast paced sex. You know all those things the world tells you is “okay” I did these things because I was looking for something or maybe someone to love me it really is true that a child is shaped by their environment, and how you affirm them either destroys them or builds them up. It leads them toward a path of destruction or a path of victory. The devil knew what he was doing I had been attacked since I was a small girl the first time my mother beat me the breaking process started, and it just kept going downhill ever since.
One thing I have learned about Yahweh is that He is merciful and He takes care of us even when we aren’t even aware of how much darkness we are in or apart of. Only Jesus Christ can RESTORE us. Jesus Christ has delivered me from a life of drug use, alcoholism, porn addiction, masturbation, homosexuality, lying, fornication, adultery. To be honest everything that Galatians 5:19-21 tells us is a WORK OF THE FLESH you see me DEDEE I am NOT PERFECT I HAVE SINNED and I will most likely sin again this is why we must repent daily because we all fall short of the glory of God. His Word says “There is no one righteous, not even one (Romans 3:10).
If you don’t trust in Jesus, then who is your trust in?
If you don’t have hope in God, then who do you hope in?
Did you know in 2017 862,320 babies were ABORTED? Do you know God will JUDGE this Abominable thing!!! DO YOU KNOW GOD HATES HANDS THAT SHED INNOCENT BLOOD?? DO YOU KNOW THESE BABIES BLOOD CRIES OUT FOR JUSTICE???!!! DID YOU KNOW 42.4 MILLION BABIES WERE KILLED BY ABORTION IN 2019??? WHERES THE OUTRAGE OVER THIS??!!!
Yes, COVID is here but is your house in order? Are you seeking God like you should? Who can restore you? JESUS CHRIST. Who can save us? JESUS CHRIST. Who can redeem us? JESUS CHRIST. That is who I am leaning on! Not Trump, not the government, not this fallen world I place My HOPE IN EL SHADDAI!
Proverbs 29:25 kjv Thefearofman bringeth asnare: but whoso putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe
Time is running out folks. If you haven’t accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior I suggest and highly recommend you too. Repent today, open your heart to Him. He is waiting for you with open arms He wants to be your strong tower He does not wish for any man to perish. He redeemed me and He can redeem you too. IF you LET Him. You do not want to be left unprotected during the tribulation May God have mercy on us all.