Witness Wednesday: Faith Vs. Fear🛡

Proverbs 14:8

There is so much hype going on in the world right now with the COVID-19 many people are panicking and many people think that it’s not that serious. Grocery stores are flooded, lots of people are on edge lots of people are out of work not knowing if they have a job to go back to, after this “blows over”. So much going on it makes me wonder what has happened to man that leads them not to have faith in God? What makes them put faith in a job, or a government system? Does anybody believe that El Shaddai is bigger than a virus? Why are people so worried? Why are people panicking? Shouldn’t this be a time to build up faith rather than fear that is what the enemy wants a world full of FEAR so that he can maneuver silently without being stopped or hindered.

By faith Noah, being warned of God of things not seen as yet, moved with fear, prepared an ark to the saving of his house; by the which he condemned the world, and became heir of the righteousness which is by faith. (Hebrews 11:7 kjv)

Fear can be healthy, or it can be UNHEALTHY. Healthy fear keeps you dependent on God no matter what circumstances you face, no matter how many people are reported to have the virus. It protects believers from pride and being over self-sufficient (especially in a time like this), it causes us to not become selfish but to instead focus on others so that we can be a light amongst the darkness giving hope to those who feel as though they have no hope in a dark world plagued by COVID-19. Healthy fear makes us stand on God’s promises and His word it also causes us to know that He is in CONTROL no matter what goes on around us or what fiery darts the enemy throws at us as believers we must understand that “Greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world” (1 John 4:4 kjv).

Why panic? Why worry? Why have fear? NONE of these are of God! They are tools that come from the devil and his minions. Unhealthy fear leads into mistrust, anxiety, dread, panic, worry, and the worst of it all DISBELIEF it causes you not to believe in El Shaddai but yourself, and your own strength it causes you to put yourself in the position of God(which is impossible). “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.( 2 Timothy 1:7 kjv). Everything is beyond our control. So why not put our faith in the One who controls it all? Why not praise Him while everyone is panicking. WE ARE NOT OF THE WORLD! Children of the world have no HOPE but we have HOPE our blessed hope is in Christ Jesus who died on the cross for our sins. Fear comes from the enemy, but faith moves mountains it stops the enemy’s reign of terror and puts out the fiery darts that he throws at you instead it leads to us as believers holding up our shield of FAITH stopping the devil right in his tracks.

Stand strong my beloved, and strengthen those who feel fear with the Word of God! Instill hope in them through Jesus Christ standing on His Word, and looking to God’s promises. Rejoice not in darkness but rebel in truth take heed during these times that NO MAN or devil deceives you HOLD UP YOUR SHIELD OF FAITH AND TAKE BACK YOUR MIND. Just think for a minute my beautiful people during this time while you are home with your loved ones get a piece of paper out and write down all the blessings that God has given you, and all the vices he has DELIVERED you from the more you write the more you should let it sink in that with man it is impossible, but with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.

Have a beautiful blessed day. I love you All! God is way bigger than we can ascertain I’m sure of this. ❤

Don’t Be Afraid, God’s Shaping You 💪🏽

I am currently in the middle of a spiritual transition. I am shedding the old, and making way for the new things that El Shaddai(God) has in store for me. Leaving behind these old thoughts that has haunted me since childhood, and replacing them with the unchanging Word of the Living Most High God in Heaven. I am scared, but isn’t being fearful a part of human life? It just depends on how rational or irrational your fear is and how you allow it to channel into your life. Stressing over what people think(that’s irrational) panicking over this coronavirus(that’s irrational) Fearing The Most High God and walking in His grace and begging for His mercy to endure upon you (that’s rational). There is so much going on in the world, so much that takes our minds off Christ that leads us to sink into the water rather than walking on the water towards Him.

We are all going through a transformation this new year. Are you striving to have a deeper relationship with Christ resulting in your moment to walk on the water with Him, or are you letting the obstacles and doubt of this world make you sink deeper into the waters of life stripping your mind of the Prince of Peace?

Maybe you don’t believe, and your looking for a sign so you can also experience Divine transformation well here it is:

Being born of the Spirit can’t be explained ONLY experienced Hallelujah!!

May The Most High God give you strength on your journey He’s shaping you.🌼

Narcissistic Mother: Can God Love Me?

My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth. – 1 John 3:18 Kjv

Love. What is love? Can love be taught, or does it come naturally to people? Growing up in my abusive narcissistic household I figured love was more of a superficial thing meaning words don’t have to match actions. If I got hit accept it because I love you, if I berate you deal with it because I love you after all I’m your mother and I know what’s “best” for you. As it says in the Word “Honour thy father and mother; (which is the first commandment with promise). Love. What is it? Can someone explain it to me? When I was younger I at times felt a lot of guilt because I didn’t have love towards my narcissistic mother I felt ashamed at the fact that I actually resented her, and at one point I actually hated her.

I was never really shown love properly I was shown dysfunction and treated with extreme toxicity to the point that I forgot who I was before I actually knew who I was. I was more or less shown destructive treatment over trivial things that children sometimes did resulting in me sinking deeper, and deeper into myself to hide how hurt and angry I was. Beaten with belt buckles, stripped down to be beaten with extension cords, woken up to be made to sleep outside, and slapped down in front of family at family functions the list of toxicity goes on and on. As I write this tears flood my eyes, as victims of abuse we often question, and ask if God could ever love us. Can The Most High really wipe away the hurt and pain that we feel? Or is God just like my abuser? I mean what is love? Does it even exist?

I actually felt like if His love was anything like my mother’s love then I didn’t want it. When Jesus Christ was upon the earth He never told His disciples that He loved them He let His actions show that He loved them, as the old saying goes “actions speak louder than words”. Going no contact helped me understand that His love isn’t like the cheap superficial love that we get from the world. He also helped me understand that my mother had a lot of hurt in her heart, a lot of pain that she was withholding and instead of going to Christ for healing she chose to push all that pain unto a child that reminded her of herself, and that child was me. I decided that I’m not going to look at myself through the eyes of my mother anymore I am leaving that part of me in the past because being in Christ I am a new creation.

Just think about it.. How can your abuser give you something that wasn’t given to them? How can you receive comfort from someone who was only given chaos? That’s like breaking a doves wing and expecting it to fly… it’s not gonna happen. Hurt people only know how to hurt people it’s not your fault they were hurt the only hurt you can take care of is your own and the only One who can help is Christ. Can the Most High love you? Certainly! Can the Most High wash away those feeling of shame and guilt? Most definitely only if YOU LET HIM! He can love You more than your human mind can fathom, matter of fact He is the embodiment of LOVE. He even tells us how love is, and how it should be “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 kjv

Trust Me, God Understands and He knows how you feel. No need to feel guilt and shame that isn’t even yours to begin with. May He comfort you on your healing journey as you walk this narrow path. Amen

Poem to My Love💍👰🏽 🤵🏽 🤞🏽

Ready or not Christ is coming for His bride. Are you ready?

Dear Most High,

Oh My! How time flies.

Just yesterday I was seven now I’m wishing I was in Heaven

I want to go back home, and be in Your Holy zone

Oh how I wish I could call You on my phone

When I think of You I don’t feel alone

When I think of You I know I belong

I belong to You I can trust in You

A Hope? A Future? Truly I have that with Thee

Because I know the Most High God wont leave me

Nor would He ever Deceive me

Praise The Lord His Mercy Endures

Praise The Lord For His Power and His Might

Praise The Lord Because He has won this Fight

I love You Christ Thank you for Redeeming Me

Thank You my Elohim for your tremendous mercies

Hold me Lord, Keep Me Safe

Take my Heart and wrap it up Safe.

Oh! Isn’t the Lord Good, in all His Mercy He is victorious

Dedee has His Glory in her story

Dedee wants to be in God’s House

So daily she will cry out

Cry to the Lord! He shall Redeem

Because I know over me He sings.

Praise The Lord for the Blood He shed! Amen

📔✍🏽 Let Me Give You Some Encouragement🕊 👰🏽

Hope, without it a man will perish the same also goes for faith without it too surely a man will be lost. I pay tribute to the One who loves me unconditionally, the One who healed my heart, the One who gives me light amid the darkness. The One who many people seem to neglect, the One who many people get frustrated at, the One who many people seem to misunderstand and misconstrue. He wipes away my tears, He renews my spirit, and only in Him can I renew my strength. Believing comes natural to all of us, but it depends on what you choose to believe in it also depends on what you decide to set your hope on, and if you don’t know who I’m talking about in this speech let me enlighten you.

            I’m talking about Christ. His words give me healing, His words give me life they provide me with the strength to believe that through Him I can do all things that strengthen me. I know where my strength comes from, and it gives me not only a peace of mind, but also gives me a perfect peace an inward peace that radiates on the outside. Peace that’s upon me always and in all events of my life, I am paying tribute to my Creator that not only provides me with an everlasting peace but also loves me with a love that is unconditional, and beyond my understanding.

            He’s my counselor, and with Him I don’t need to lean on my own understanding because with Him there is perfect understanding. He heals my broken heart and He makes it so when I’m weak I can proclaim that I am strong I know in my heart that I haven’t made it on this Earth this long because I am cool, or popular, or even because I’m in “control” this is why I choose to wholeheartedly pay tribute to the One who is in control, the One who freed me from bondage, to not only my Redeemer but also my best friend. This my dear friends is Jesus Christ.

📜🙏🏽Lesson #1:Stay Humble & Sincere🕊️👰

One thing I have learned from my walk in Christ is that I must stay humble no matter what circumstances are placed in front of my course. Even if my past is thrown in my face by people who think they “know” me. I will stay humble. People who laugh at me, or mock me I will stay humble. I am starting to understand that no one can change how God sees me I shall remain humble. I used to be hurt over my past hurts and traumas, but NOW I will remain humble. Lord please allow whoever is reading this post remain humble. Lord Jesus please let us stay humble. Some days we may feel like running on this narrow road, some days we feel like walking but let us remain humble in your steadfast love. One thing you must remember in your walk with Christ is that carrying your cross doesn’t mean you should be bitter over your past, but it means that in whatever struggles you endured always remember that in your story there is God’s Glory. Stay Humble, Stay Sincere the Lord uses our pain so that when we push through we can show proof of His power. We must Love each other. We must Help each other. We must be Humble and Sincere with each other. As Jesus Christ, the Son of the True and Living God has done for us we must also do for each other. Amen

“One must ask themselves, Where will they spend their eternity Heaven or Hell?”

Disclaimer: I say this to the one who is reading this and hasn’t accepted Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior. Please think of the Blood that he shed for your sins. When he died on the cross He died for your sins. Without Him you can not go to the Father. So ask yourself this if Jesus isn’t your Savior who is? Who is gonna save your soul from eternal flames?? Because Jesus Christ is the only way you will enter heaven, or is your pride stopping you from receiving His gospel?. He is the ONLY savior we have you must REPENT and TURN from your evil ways. Do you really think you can make it to heaven on your own merits? Or are you so blinded to actually deceive yourself into thinking its all fairytales and make believe. I challenge you to test Him you will not be ashamed or disappointment. May Christ Call you, and God Bless you. In Jesus Christ Name.

There is only two choices Jesus Or Satan. Good vs Evil

📜I Am Learning…🎓

“Praise God for His Healing”

As a abuse survivor I have learned these two things: 1.) That healing is a journey that no one can help you with except Christ, and YOU ALONE must venture on this journey ALONE (with Christ of course.) and 2.)That if you do not get healing from your abuse it can lead you to be filled with bitterness, and resentment not only for your abuser, but you will also resent others who when you tell them your story they quickly shut you out and tell you to get over your abuse without them trying to understand why you feel the way you feel. So what does this mean, and why should healing be important to a abuse victim/survivor? It is important to point out that The Most High God in Heaven never intended for children to be abused let alone abused by their own parents. This creates confusion in the child from a early age it creates a root of bitterness that can last well into adulthood if it is not healed properly. The victim must be willing to walk on this path alone carrying the cross that seems heavy at first, but over time provides them with power of understanding that they do have the strength to overcome through Christ Jesus.

When the Holy Spirit hit me I was in shock, I cried like the little girl I once was when He touched my heart to understand it all started to make sense. That’s when the memories came flooding back into my mind they came rushing like water that pours down from the sky on a rainy day, you know that rain that doesn’t seem to go away but somehow you get comfort in hearing it fall from the sky? Yeah, that’s what I started to experience as I asked God to reveal to me the error in not only my mother’s ways but also the error in my ways there is a scripture in the word that says”, With thy getting get understanding“.

My mother was a woman who was also abused by her mother, she was also grew up without her father or without ever knowing who he was. She was also battling the hurt of her inner child, my mother was like so many other women who come out of these childhood settings. They translate their weaknesses onto their children leaving them feeling shame and bitterness that was first felt by the original abuser the children who get a taste of the anguish never really escape the feelings that was transmitted onto them until they heal. She actually emulated to us what had been done to her the same hurts, and agonies that plagued her she simply passed them on instead of her voicing her hurt or calling out to Christ for healing she tried to pretend so desperately that everything was okay.

In Jesus Christ Name Amen

I hurt, and I cry a lot not only for me and not only for my mother but for all the victims of abuse that also go through this. The effects that it leaves in a victims heart leaves them plagued with loneliness, and desolation and that is just what the enemy wants for you to feel. Loneliness and traumatized without fully understanding that Christ can truly fill the void in your heart. His word says that he will give you a new heart, and that when you are in Christ you are a new creation and that is something that the enemy doesn’t want you to partake in. He doesn’t want you having the strength that God Himself ordained you to have as His Word states, “I Can Do All Things Through Christ That Strengths Me”(Philippians 4:13) and that includes having the strength to understand. One must be willing to allow the Holy Spirit to overflow in them so proper healing and mending can take place, I had to let him open my heart to gain understanding in why my mother was so abusive without feeling anger, and hurt. So the questions I have to the abuse survivor is this, Do you think that your problems are too big for Yahweh to solve? That your hurts are to great for Him to heal? Regardless of what anyone tells you the most important decision you can make as a abuse victim is to let Jesus Christ come into your heart so that proper healing can take place.

Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.(Matthew 16:24)

Pick one of these for yourself: Victor Vs. Victim, Pain vs. Power, Life Vs. Death, Good vs. Evil. Healing Vs Hurting. Righteousness vs. Wickness.

Forgiveness sets you free from keeping the cycle of abuse going.

Choose this day what garbage you will let fill up your home. I chose to let Jesus Christ Heal my Heart, and Mind from the abuse that plagued me. He made me a Victor of childhood abuse, He broke the chains so that I will not keep the cycle going but instead I will prevent it. I am healing from not only my childhood abuse but also my mothers childhood abuse. I have forgiven because I know that I have God’s Glory in my story and with that I will say Amen.

Have A Blessed Day

God Mercy Endures [♥] Poem

Psalms 136

I pray for His Mercy

His mercy is new every morning

Come let us praise Him for His Mercy!

I need His mercy to make it through

I’m so thankful to get to know You

Come let us praise our King!

Let the righteous prayers ring

Ring to the Heavens sound a alarm

Because with the Most High God we are safe from harm

Yes they call us crazy but its because they are lazy

They don’t know Him they haven’t experience Him

With the Lord I have made sacrifices

But they only keep track of my vices

Oh! Lord take away my hurt take it far from me remove it from the Earth

His MERCY! Yeah His Mercy Endures I praise Him constantly because I’m misunderstood

But understood by Him I’m thankful to Him I’m a Gem.

And when you become His Gem you understand that there’s no one like Him.

Selah 💙