🕊️The Pain that comes with going No contact {Abuse Awareness}

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After three years of no contact I can honestly say that I feel the anointing of God’s healing power on me I can stand on my own two feet and I know it’s not my strength but Christ. Three years ago when I first went no contact I had just gotten out of a mental hospital undergoing demonic attacks I felt alone, scared, and I was tired of feeling the pain that came from me having my mother in my life. When I first cut communication it was like my mind was trying so desperately to manipulate me into believing that the abuse never happened, then I would have feelings of regret and loneliness. Instead of me acknowledging and accepting that I was abandoned, and abused by my family I would feel as though I was doing to them the very same things they had done to me. I would reverse it. It’s funny how we as humans can do that, it was like I was detoxing from a drug or coming down from a potent high.

Why do victims feel this way? How come after walking from an abusive situation, they feel the need to go back thinking things will change? The answer lies in our childhood one must acknowledge that the environment they grew up in was unnatural the only thing that would make sense is doing things that make no sense. Narcissistic parents train scapegoated children from a early age to cut ties with their original selves, they then mold them to be the physical manifestation of the pain, and anger that they feel on the inside.  When the picked party lashes out at the treatment that’s inflicted on them the whole family stares “in shock”, and amazement.  They are the only brave ones willing to fight on the battlefield this causes the narcissistic parent(abuser) to always seek out ways to keep the picked party “in their place” by using mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical abuse measures.

Things the Victim (Victor) should reflect upon while going no contact:

  • You have been brainwashed into believing that you are the reason why you are being abused and treated unfairly.
  • To not feel pain after going no contact the victor needs to understand that they need healing and to have successful healing they must leave the toxic environment completely.
  • If they cannot leave the toxic environment the victor must start renewing their minds with what the Word of God says about them, and who they are. They must also understand that the narcissistic parent is spiritually sick.
  • Realize that what the abuser says about you doesn’t define you, it just shows that the abuser is intimidated by you.

They will rise because they are HEALED BY GOD, they are victors leading other victims free! CALL ON YAHWEH RAPHA TO HEAL YOU!

FIND YOUR PASSION AFTER THE PAIN OF GOING NO CONTACT!

If the Son sets you free you will be free indeed.

John 8:36

I will give praise to You forever 🙌🏽🥰

My Lord, My God! I will give praise to You forever!

You heal my heart, I am Your work of art

A masterpiece made for the King, when I get in your presence I will always sing

I need You Jesus, can you save me from this place

Let me follow you Lord because You make me feel so safe

Keep me honest Lord. Keep me clean

I pray that I can be Your queen. I stand in awe of Your glory and Your might

Please Lord don’t let me be out of your sight. Let me not leave Your hand

I am so blessed that You have a plan. Selah

I Love You El Shaddai ♥

Unforgiveness is Rooted Bitterness 🌱🌱😞

Hebrews 12:15-17 kjv

Hebrews 12:15 KJV Looking diligently lest any man fail of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you, and thereby many be defiled;


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As a child who grew up in a abusive household I developed many unhealthy spiritual habits, and one MAJOR thing that I struggled with was unforgiveness it infected me like a cancer and I felt that I didn’t need to forgive my mother because after all she never acknowledged her wrongs. The older I got, the more I experienced hurt at the hands of my family and also others that I met I felt as though if my mother didn’t love me how can God love me? Was forgiveness necessary for me to walk with Christ? Was the hardest decision in my life actually more easier than my flesh made it feel?

I can attest that in order to have a successful relationship with Jesus Christ you MUST forgive EVERYONE even when it HURTS. Unforgiveness is actually a work of the flesh (Galatians 5:19-21 kjv) it leads to hatred and gives you a ticket straight to hell.

Our relationship with God, is built on forgiveness when we repent of our sins we are also asking for forgiveness in order to have a relationship with God. Jesus tells us in Mark 11:26: But if ye do not forgive, neither will your Father which is in heaven forgive your trespasses kjv.

In order to experience true freedom and healing from the shackles of abuse and spiritual defeat one must be willing to forgive wrongdoings that was done to them NO MATTER how much it hurts. I know it hurts but love covers a multitude of sins (1 Peter 4:8 kjv) I love Jesus Christ more than I love my pain and hurt He frees us from the bondage of bitterness.

The longer I held on to the past the more bitter I got. We have two choices in our healing process to get bitter or better.

Sit and reflect on these things:

  • Is holding in hurt and resentment worth your eternal soul in Hell? Are you justifying reasons you shouldn’t forgive someone who has wronged you, are you letting your flesh get in the way of TRUE deliverance?
  • Is your relationship with God based on an actual relationship of true love, and repentance? Are you just covering up your bitterness with empty praises and clinging to unforgiveness while slowly sinking into anger (works of the flesh)?

Bitterness is a seed that gets planted at a early age and it springs up slowly and by the time you realize that you have a problem you are in hell regretting and wishing that you would have came to Christ for healing. Most bitter people do not realize they are bitter, they are cynical they are deep rooted in the flesh and many of these people think that they are Christians. As true followers of Christ we must deny ourselves (Matthew 16:24 Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.)

Abuse is my cross and denying myself means that I put anger and resentment(bitterness) far from me. I will follow Christ because only He can give me deliverance, healing, and most of all LOVE. I choose not to walk in the flesh, but I will walk in the Spirit (Galatians 5:16 kjv This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh.)

Repent for the kingdom of God draws near! Whatever wrong that was done to you please give it to Jesus He will handle it. True freedom come from forgiveness because it allows you to place your FULL Faith (trust) in God it leaves justice to Him (Romans 12:19 Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the LORD.)

Unforgivness puts up a wall between you and Jesus a wall so high that you wont be able to experience His love, and the freedom that comes with it.

FORGIVE, REPENT, AND BE SET FREE!

Sabbath Songs: Deliver Me 📦👰🏽💞

Save me Lord. Can you please deliver me?

I beseech thee Lord for all your tender mercies.

Can You restore to me what the enemy has stolen?

Can you make free my soul and get me out of this hole and

I call on You My God, and my King.

I will always praise You because You make my heart sing.

Deliver me Jesus! Save my soul from hell

Help me Jesus, please Lord let me drink from Your well.

I long to be free. I long to be okay.

I long to be in Your arms on that faithful day.

Lord, Your blood cleanses us. Lord Your love also preserves us.

Deliver me Lord. Heal me King. I am thankful for all your mercies.

Selah [♥]

Deliverance From Dysfunction {💌} Testimony included **

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Until recently I was not honest with myself. I lied to God and I also lied to myself. I decided to investigate the mirror, and I accepted that the abuse afflicted on me left me with scars. Deep scars that turned into major issues. Issues that permeated to the top every now and again. You see I reached a crossroad where I could not let nor afford to let my past keep me prisoner, I did not want to be a hostage to pain anymore. I figured I was okay, and the damage caused was not that serious. I have come to realize that being alive is more than just breathing. God wants us to experience Him in many ways and to see how much love He really has for us in ways that we have not known. I was broken, disheveled, and I lost my sense of self. Who was I? Where was I going? Does God love me? What exactly is love?

I reached a major point in my relationship with Jesus and I couldn’t bear it anymore I told him how I felt I told Him how I was scared, how hurt I was, and how I wanted Him close but I was anxious. You see, I was never honest with Him about how I truly felt about my mother I just pushed all my feelings down so far that when they did resurface I would shut down and become flaky, flighty, and apathetic towards everyone including myself and towards my Savior and Redeemer Jesus. It was revealed to me that I developed a hatred for my mother, a resentment towards my childhood and a strong distain towards people who dismissed my feelings as mere imaginations and something that I should just get over.

My hurt led to hatred, which resulted in bitterness which resulted in me hating myself and doing things that not only affected others in my surroundings but also myself. The best thing I ever did was accept it I accepted the fact that I was abused I was done wrong, and that people who haven’t went through what I went through will not empathize with me nor give me the sympathy that I so desperately crave. Only Jesus can do that, and only God will allow that. On that beautiful day when I came under attack from not only the enemy but also my former self, I decided to pick up my CROSS.

When I think of my mother, and others who also have similar stories what is the end result? Will we as survivors or victims keep the cycle going, or will we deny ourselves? Jesus suffered and died on the cross for nothing He did wrong. So, who are we? I learned on that faithful day that life isn’t fair, and interestingly it isn’t supposed to be if it was fair or “perfect” we wouldn’t need Jesus, now would we?

You have two options, but one choice. You can be a victim who turns into a victimizer, or you can be a victor who leads others to victory and that is Gods plan for us. You see, I just recently (like a week ago) understood how much Yahweh loves me. Jesus knew how I felt towards my mother (and family) He was waiting for me to be honest with Him, and to tell Him how I truly felt, and I won’t lie when I told Him how I truly felt I felt a HUGE burden get lifted off my spirit.

That is when I felt our relationship began to blossom into something deeper. When I began to open my heart to Him.

As His Word says, “Casting all your care upon Him; for He careth for you”. {1 Peter 5:7 kjv}

Jesus Christ knows everything we have been through, and He also understands how we feel. “For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are- yet he did not sin”. {Hebrews 4:15 KJV}

The point of me telling (writing) my testimony is this: Tell Jesus the truth, your soul depends on it.

May God bless you and keep you on your healing journey. DanYah “Dedee” ❤

Sabbath Songs: First Fruits🍇

Let’s praise the name of our Lord!

Let’s give glory to the King. He is the First of the Fruits!

Praise Him for His glory and His might

Praise Him for His great sacrifice

Oh Lord! I have fallen in love with thee

I shall praise You for all eternity

As I write these words to You, I pray that they shall remain true

Holy! Holy! Is my God, Hallelujah! Praise Abba Yah<3

I sit and think of thee, Oh my Lord my soul longs for thee

I pray I see You soon, I pray for Your Holy commune

The bride needs you Christ, while the world isn’t suffice

You my Lord holds us in Your hands, even though we cannot see how much of your grace is in this plan

YOU! are my ONLY source, You are my shield let me always remember to remain still

You are my Savior and Yah’s begotten Son, I shall always recite Psalms 91

You are the only One that keeps me safe, Please Lord give us grace.

Thank You Jesus for The price you paid at Calvary. As we sit and reflect on You during this Holy week. Lord I love You and I praise You. No one amounts to You and no one is like YOU! I love You Christ Thank You for being a Good Shepard over Us. Hallelujah

Feast of the First Fruits!!!! Praise El Shaddai!

Witness Wednesday: Faith Vs. Fear🛡

Proverbs 14:8

There is so much hype going on in the world right now with the COVID-19 many people are panicking and many people think that it’s not that serious. Grocery stores are flooded, lots of people are on edge lots of people are out of work not knowing if they have a job to go back to, after this “blows over”. So much going on it makes me wonder what has happened to man that leads them not to have faith in God? What makes them put faith in a job, or a government system? Does anybody believe that El Shaddai is bigger than a virus? Why are people so worried? Why are people panicking? Shouldn’t this be a time to build up faith rather than fear that is what the enemy wants a world full of FEAR so that he can maneuver silently without being stopped or hindered.

By faith Noah, being warned of God of things not seen as yet, moved with fear, prepared an ark to the saving of his house; by the which he condemned the world, and became heir of the righteousness which is by faith. (Hebrews 11:7 kjv)

Fear can be healthy, or it can be UNHEALTHY. Healthy fear keeps you dependent on God no matter what circumstances you face, no matter how many people are reported to have the virus. It protects believers from pride and being over self-sufficient (especially in a time like this), it causes us to not become selfish but to instead focus on others so that we can be a light amongst the darkness giving hope to those who feel as though they have no hope in a dark world plagued by COVID-19. Healthy fear makes us stand on God’s promises and His word it also causes us to know that He is in CONTROL no matter what goes on around us or what fiery darts the enemy throws at us as believers we must understand that “Greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world” (1 John 4:4 kjv).

Why panic? Why worry? Why have fear? NONE of these are of God! They are tools that come from the devil and his minions. Unhealthy fear leads into mistrust, anxiety, dread, panic, worry, and the worst of it all DISBELIEF it causes you not to believe in El Shaddai but yourself, and your own strength it causes you to put yourself in the position of God(which is impossible). “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.( 2 Timothy 1:7 kjv). Everything is beyond our control. So why not put our faith in the One who controls it all? Why not praise Him while everyone is panicking. WE ARE NOT OF THE WORLD! Children of the world have no HOPE but we have HOPE our blessed hope is in Christ Jesus who died on the cross for our sins. Fear comes from the enemy, but faith moves mountains it stops the enemy’s reign of terror and puts out the fiery darts that he throws at you instead it leads to us as believers holding up our shield of FAITH stopping the devil right in his tracks.

Stand strong my beloved, and strengthen those who feel fear with the Word of God! Instill hope in them through Jesus Christ standing on His Word, and looking to God’s promises. Rejoice not in darkness but rebel in truth take heed during these times that NO MAN or devil deceives you HOLD UP YOUR SHIELD OF FAITH AND TAKE BACK YOUR MIND. Just think for a minute my beautiful people during this time while you are home with your loved ones get a piece of paper out and write down all the blessings that God has given you, and all the vices he has DELIVERED you from the more you write the more you should let it sink in that with man it is impossible, but with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.

Have a beautiful blessed day. I love you All! God is way bigger than we can ascertain I’m sure of this. ❤

Sabbath Songs: Christ Crisis 🛐

“So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.” Hebrew 13:6 kjv

Praise the Lord for this wonderful gift

Praise the Lord for His tremendous gifts

Lord, I love You I need You close

Most High God, Your our only hope

I write these words out to thee, it’s the least I can do for all your mercy

Lord, so many people are thirsty they want a drink from Your endless banks

The world is in a panic that’s causing major damage

One thing we as your children should consider, that You my Lord are always near us

You make us feel so loved, I am thankful I am covered under Your blood

No sickness shall come nigh my dwelling, no plague or pestilence shall beset it

You set me up on high, I praise You my great El Shaddai

You heal me. You hold me. But most of all you LOVE me

What greater gift can I get? Than the One who was sent!

Thank You Lord for being so mindful of me, I cannot wait to hug thee.

So many are full of fear, but Your word says not to fear but hear.

Selah ❤

✏️I Appreciate Being Different🌈🙇🏽‍♀️{Poem}

I’m different. I can tell. I can tell by the way I view this world.

I can tell by the way I see Earth.

I always figured that someday I would find a place where I would want to stay.

Sometimes I get anxious and sometimes I just want to go home I used to feel bad, and all alone.

I felt different but now I just embrace it, we all are different but how many of us truly embrace it?

Who are we? How many of us truly reach to Yahweh to see His way?

I am on a journey in this life I want to make sure I make the right sacrifice.

I want to make sure that when I stand in front of Yahweh He is proud of me, I want to make sure that I have no shame on me.

I want to make sure to give Him my best, and everything I have left.

No I made of my mind I don’t want to be like the rest, I want to make sure to be the best.

Not conformed to this world, but transformed by the renewing of my mind so that I can be in the presence of the Great Divine. Selah 🌈

Thank You Yahweh for Everything you do for me and my family. Barakatha

Lesson #2: Guard Your Heart💝

“Proverbs 4:23 Kjv”

Disclaimer: Please READ!!!! Luke 21:26-28 I plead the blood of Jesus Christ over this message I bind and rebuke any demonic spirits and principalities in the name of Jesus Christ that try to stop this word from going forth. Praise the true living God Yahweh!

We are living in the end of days, and if you don’t know it I don’t know what to tell you its time to wake up and really see the truth the truth of the light in the midst of the darkness that is around us. Demonic attacks are on the rise, and many people are walking around thinking they are better than God, or like He doesn’t exist many people put themselves before Him often thinking that their careers or their ambitions are better than The Most High’s calling on their life. We are in perilous times what’s evil is good, and what’s good is evil if your one who seeks truth like I seek truth you will find that the devil doesn’t play fair, and he uses people whose minds are already warped from this wicked society. He uses these people to attack you people will rise up against you and the devil will speak through them I have seen it, I am seeing it I have heard it I hear it, and I look at these infected people with sorrow, and amazement at how the enemy can use them so blatantly, and these individuals don’t even know.

We are living in dark times, and this scriptures is in full effect at you job, at school, at home, even at CHURCH.

The scary part is, they think they are doing the right thing, and its very horrific because we are nearing to the end the veil will be lifted, and they will ultimately see how deceived they were by the enemy and how the ones they attacked were just trying to warn them from their ultimate fate. As Christians, we must guard our hearts and rest on the Lord, we must guard our hearts from the deceived, from those who think they know Christ, but haven’t given him their heart fully(Lukewarm). This goes for family, as I stated earlier we are in perilous times take heed that NO MAN DECIEVES YOU. When Jesus came to the earth He came not to bring peace but a sword this battle is VERY real, demons are real they are among us they are aiming to take your soul, and they operate through family, co workers and so called “friends”. They choose those who already operate in darkness because they are a open portal for them to use, they use those whose minds are already in a reprobated state. You don’t think that darkness knows light? Trust me, the enemy knows who Gods people are, and he aims to kill, steal, and destroy.

It’s not a cake walk, it is written in Matthew 7:14-15

14 Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.

15 Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves.

Meaning, that many people won’t find this road, and many people won’t make it they rather go the broad way because they are deceived into thinking the ways of this world and Luke warmness is the way to go. Many have become warped, and some choose to outright live in darkness with a seared conscious, what must we do as followers of Christ? Be an example to this dark world, to our families to people at work to all those around you, the enemy attacks and when he attacks he attacks hard it is written, When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the LORD shall lift up a standard against him. Isaiah 59:19. He attacks all at once hoping that you in the midst of your frail human emotions do something that you later regret because you forgot that you have a mighty God that fights your battles for you.

2 Corinthians 10:4

The Lord is MIGHTY! He is POWERFUL He is worthy of all PRAISE! He gave us the power to pull down strongholds with His word. How wonderful and reassuring is that? The enemy has many people on his team but the Lord has quality over quantity, think of the people who rose against you, pray for them love them and forgive them. Is the servant greater than the master? Never. Walk in peace towards all men.The people who come against you are walking vessels used by satan, and the scary part my brethren is these people don’t even know they are being used.

This gives me Hope and Faith in Jesus Christ I must be like Him in all my ways

Guard your heart! Guard it because out of it comes the issues of life, guard it from the debased, guard it from the double-minded, guard it from those who walk in darkness and chose to blaspheme the true Living God. We guard our hearts by letting Christ have full reign in our hearts, and minds. One last thing that Father wants me to let you know” Be wise as Serpents and harmless as doves”(Matthew 10:16 kjv) We are in the midst of wolves, they are everywhere in your family on your jobs, in your churches EVERYWHERE. Remember brethren that the Lord will raise a standard for His beloved children no matter who the enemy gets to rise up against you remember that God is on His chosen’s side. Praise the Lord, May Christ bless you and keep you I pray you gained edification from this Mighty word sent forth from Him. Amen ❤ His word wont return back void.

I plead the blood of Jesus Christ over this message.
The choice is yours, time is drawing for Christ return.