🤲🏽Ten Things I Learned while Healing from Childhood Abuse.🔟

Healing takes time, and despite what many people would like you to believe it only up to YOU to understand and conquer your own healing process. Effects from childhood trauma/abuse stays with the recipient long after the abuse was administered. Well anyways here is my list of “Ten things I learned while healing from Childhood Abuse”. May Yahweh Bless you on your healing journey.

  1. The best things in life are Christ. (He makes you free)
  2. Resting on Christ’s word is the ULTIMATE therapy in gaining healing from abuse.
  3. Being the bigger person isn’t easy but it’s worth it in the end Yahweh will only judge you based off your actions not the actions of another person.
  4. Many people won’t understand you (don’t expect them to) Yahweh understands you and that’s the only thing that matters
  5. It’s up to YOU to either break the cycle of abuse, or to keep the cycle going.
  6. Don’t let abuse make you bitter, instead opt for BETTER.
  7. Abuse makes you more aware of how truly toxic people can be and it sharpens your discernment skills as well.
  8. What people say or think about you doesn’t even matter, people who are quick to make warped judgements DO NOT KNOW YOU they certainly don’t know the struggles you have overcome.
  9. While they label, LAUGH you are STRONGER than you appear, and WISER than you seem.
  10. Good days and bad days (everyone had them) it’s up to you to push through with a smile or a frown.

This is a list that I have complied of ten things that I have learned while healing from my childhood abuse. Life happens, and it happens HARD sometimes. I found that crying out to The Most High Yahweh helps me tremendously, He gives me profound strength in this hard world. I pray my list motivates you and encourage you to see the rainbow in the sky, because after all in order to see the rainbow you must first get through the rain. ❤ May Christ comfort you all. Danyah. ❤

This is a real rainbow I seen outside my apartment.

Abuse.. Makes You or Breaks You..

I ran across a Chinese proverb it said,” After all, harming others means you first harm yourself”, when I read this it struck a cord with me because I am a vict(or)im of abuse. I am going on three years no contact with my family, and at this point in my journey I am on a path of understanding, and discarding all the negative memories that are embedded into me. Some days are okay, but a lot of days are great they are great because I am discovering the person I was before the abuse began. If you ever met anyone who was open enough to tell you about their abusive childhood they will tell you that the abused robbed them physically, mentally, emotional, and SPIRITUALLY.

My purpose wasn’t made clear to me. My abuser didn’t have a purpose that she was aware of hell, it was stripped from her so why not strip it from someone who isn’t capable to perceive what was actually going on around them? Make your victim a dumping ground for all the anger that you refuse to acknowledge is there also make them the main source of supply, because instead of getting proper healing they will instead choose to pass the baton of wickedness known as abuse. She robbed me of years but going no contact helped me see how toxic my mother was, and how demonically controlled my family is and how she really berated me to the point that I lost sight of who I was before I even became whole.

It takes some victims of abuse years before they see the light at the end of the tunnel, and decades before they leave the tunnel. I didn’t start healing until I left completely and many victims never see results in healing until they leave the toxic situations. Some days I feel lost, and other days I feel strong one thing I have learned on this path of healing is you shouldn’t judge yourself based off of how your abuser treated you. Your not dumb, your not stupid, your not evil but you were abused and it’s not your fault you won’t be held accountable for what your abuser did to you but you will be held accountable for how you let it make you. For the longest time after I stopped associating myself with my family I was bitter, I felt lost it wasn’t until I actually separated the abused me from the real me that I seen that I am loved, I am wanted, and I am adored. I didn’t need my mothers approval because she didn’t even know how to approve herself the only approval that I need to obtain is Yahweh The Most High God.

You are a survivor of abuse. You will be a conqueror of abuse. I choose to let my past strengthen me. I choose not to let the abuse that I suffered in my childhood change me as a person. I will still love. I will still encourage. I will still push forward. I will still reach for The Most High Yahweh. And I will still receive the healing that Christ gives me. Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world. 1 John 4:4

Until Next Time

Danyah ❤

🦁Discovering Who You Are…2020🕊️🤲🏽

I’m not a big fan of New Year Resolutions, I feel that a lot of it is just regurgitated slangs that have been passed down from generation to generation. That’s just how I feel about it, and no DISRESPECT to anyone who believes DEEPLY in them that’s just how I feel.

Now, lets get to the topic at hand of which what I’m writing about. I am on a journey to “find” well actually discover myself I am excited, scared, nervous,and happy. Yes I understand that this is a lot of emotions but how can you blame me? I am in the process of eliminating a lot of useless things from my flesh the feelings of anger, bitterness, and the perpetual nonsense of “competing” with the daily gossips that happen to come up in the workplace. I am at a point in my life where I want to scream, laugh, and cry at the same damn time and if you have been on an awakening journey please reach through the screen and say, “DANYAH!!! I know EXACTLY how you FEEL”. I am at the point where I am understanding that life is more than what they have conditioned us to believe and happiness isn’t in a car, or gaining a promotion at a job where your working in an environment with people who can give a damn whether you live or die.

You don’t think it’s funny do you? Well I’ll be honest with you sweetheart I think it is, what if everything that you thought you knew was all lame lies that were passed down from generation to generation. Everyone is going in one direction, and many are running in that same direction but the question I want to ask everyone is “Who are You?”, where are you going? How do you perceive life? Are the ideologies your carrying around yours, or are they perceptions that have been spewed upon you? I find a lot of people so disconnected with what’s going on around us, a lot of people are more worried about a JOB, CAR, CLUB, and (insert lame thing here).

I feel that we limit The Most High God to a human statue, and I find that this is very ridiculous on our part. I try to talk to people, but is it just me or is the people getting more, and more vague? I mean have you talked to the people nowadays? The conversations are missing something people are lacking a soul connection to the Creator, if you ask me then again you probably wouldn’t ask me you would probably just pull out your phone and ask Google. A lot of things don’t matter anymore, everything that was presented to me bores me working a 9 to 5 terrifies me and being around people who aren’t like- minded horrifies me.

You should understand that The Most High didn’t intend for us to become, mindless zombies running like machines for these jobs that don’t even provide us with spiritual nourishment. By the time we get off from work we don’t even have time for Yahweh let alone our families. Isn’t life made for us to live, and to enjoy? Those people who proclaim that they are mad at El Shaddai, are they really mad at Him or the way the system is set up? Are they mad at Christ or the luciferian agenda that is plaguing mankind?

Well…. it’s not up to me to try to figure people out. I’m actually on a journey to discover who Yahweh created me to be. Thank you for reading please know that Christ loves us very much, and He loves us more than our brains can actually comprehend. Maybe you should discover who He made you to be, and not who “they” told you to be. Or maybe I’m full of it like the “they” I speak of.

Much Love Always, Dan “Discovering Myself” Yah (Danyah ♥)

“I will have myself a dose of that thank you!”

✏️I Appreciate Being Different🌈🙇🏽‍♀️{Poem}

I’m different. I can tell. I can tell by the way I view this world.

I can tell by the way I see Earth.

I always figured that someday I would find a place where I would want to stay.

Sometimes I get anxious and sometimes I just want to go home I used to feel bad, and all alone.

I felt different but now I just embrace it, we all are different but how many of us truly embrace it?

Who are we? How many of us truly reach to Yahweh to see His way?

I am on a journey in this life I want to make sure I make the right sacrifice.

I want to make sure that when I stand in front of Yahweh He is proud of me, I want to make sure that I have no shame on me.

I want to make sure to give Him my best, and everything I have left.

No I made of my mind I don’t want to be like the rest, I want to make sure to be the best.

Not conformed to this world, but transformed by the renewing of my mind so that I can be in the presence of the Great Divine. Selah 🌈

Thank You Yahweh for Everything you do for me and my family. Barakatha

The Presence Of Disappearance — THE MIND OF RD REVILO

They Say, There’s A Dark Side Of the moon, No one’s ever seen Can’t say they lied Does the unseen hide With technology We can see What we can’t see With eyes We trust, don’t tell lies Can’t say they’re lying Now can the seen be can hiding So when people disappear We don’t use […]

The Presence Of Disappearance — THE MIND OF RD REVILO

📔✍🏽 Let Me Give You Some Encouragement🕊 👰🏽

Hope, without it a man will perish the same also goes for faith without it too surely a man will be lost. I pay tribute to the One who loves me unconditionally, the One who healed my heart, the One who gives me light amid the darkness. The One who many people seem to neglect, the One who many people get frustrated at, the One who many people seem to misunderstand and misconstrue. He wipes away my tears, He renews my spirit, and only in Him can I renew my strength. Believing comes natural to all of us, but it depends on what you choose to believe in it also depends on what you decide to set your hope on, and if you don’t know who I’m talking about in this speech let me enlighten you.

            I’m talking about Christ. His words give me healing, His words give me life they provide me with the strength to believe that through Him I can do all things that strengthen me. I know where my strength comes from, and it gives me not only a peace of mind, but also gives me a perfect peace an inward peace that radiates on the outside. Peace that’s upon me always and in all events of my life, I am paying tribute to my Creator that not only provides me with an everlasting peace but also loves me with a love that is unconditional, and beyond my understanding.

            He’s my counselor, and with Him I don’t need to lean on my own understanding because with Him there is perfect understanding. He heals my broken heart and He makes it so when I’m weak I can proclaim that I am strong I know in my heart that I haven’t made it on this Earth this long because I am cool, or popular, or even because I’m in “control” this is why I choose to wholeheartedly pay tribute to the One who is in control, the One who freed me from bondage, to not only my Redeemer but also my best friend. This my dear friends is Jesus Christ.

📜🙏🏽Lesson #1:Stay Humble & Sincere🕊️👰

One thing I have learned from my walk in Christ is that I must stay humble no matter what circumstances are placed in front of my course. Even if my past is thrown in my face by people who think they “know” me. I will stay humble. People who laugh at me, or mock me I will stay humble. I am starting to understand that no one can change how God sees me I shall remain humble. I used to be hurt over my past hurts and traumas, but NOW I will remain humble. Lord please allow whoever is reading this post remain humble. Lord Jesus please let us stay humble. Some days we may feel like running on this narrow road, some days we feel like walking but let us remain humble in your steadfast love. One thing you must remember in your walk with Christ is that carrying your cross doesn’t mean you should be bitter over your past, but it means that in whatever struggles you endured always remember that in your story there is God’s Glory. Stay Humble, Stay Sincere the Lord uses our pain so that when we push through we can show proof of His power. We must Love each other. We must Help each other. We must be Humble and Sincere with each other. As Jesus Christ, the Son of the True and Living God has done for us we must also do for each other. Amen

“One must ask themselves, Where will they spend their eternity Heaven or Hell?”

Disclaimer: I say this to the one who is reading this and hasn’t accepted Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior. Please think of the Blood that he shed for your sins. When he died on the cross He died for your sins. Without Him you can not go to the Father. So ask yourself this if Jesus isn’t your Savior who is? Who is gonna save your soul from eternal flames?? Because Jesus Christ is the only way you will enter heaven, or is your pride stopping you from receiving His gospel?. He is the ONLY savior we have you must REPENT and TURN from your evil ways. Do you really think you can make it to heaven on your own merits? Or are you so blinded to actually deceive yourself into thinking its all fairytales and make believe. I challenge you to test Him you will not be ashamed or disappointment. May Christ Call you, and God Bless you. In Jesus Christ Name.

There is only two choices Jesus Or Satan. Good vs Evil

📜I Am Learning…🎓

“Praise God for His Healing”

As a abuse survivor I have learned these two things: 1.) That healing is a journey that no one can help you with except Christ, and YOU ALONE must venture on this journey ALONE (with Christ of course.) and 2.)That if you do not get healing from your abuse it can lead you to be filled with bitterness, and resentment not only for your abuser, but you will also resent others who when you tell them your story they quickly shut you out and tell you to get over your abuse without them trying to understand why you feel the way you feel. So what does this mean, and why should healing be important to a abuse victim/survivor? It is important to point out that The Most High God in Heaven never intended for children to be abused let alone abused by their own parents. This creates confusion in the child from a early age it creates a root of bitterness that can last well into adulthood if it is not healed properly. The victim must be willing to walk on this path alone carrying the cross that seems heavy at first, but over time provides them with power of understanding that they do have the strength to overcome through Christ Jesus.

When the Holy Spirit hit me I was in shock, I cried like the little girl I once was when He touched my heart to understand it all started to make sense. That’s when the memories came flooding back into my mind they came rushing like water that pours down from the sky on a rainy day, you know that rain that doesn’t seem to go away but somehow you get comfort in hearing it fall from the sky? Yeah, that’s what I started to experience as I asked God to reveal to me the error in not only my mother’s ways but also the error in my ways there is a scripture in the word that says”, With thy getting get understanding“.

My mother was a woman who was also abused by her mother, she was also grew up without her father or without ever knowing who he was. She was also battling the hurt of her inner child, my mother was like so many other women who come out of these childhood settings. They translate their weaknesses onto their children leaving them feeling shame and bitterness that was first felt by the original abuser the children who get a taste of the anguish never really escape the feelings that was transmitted onto them until they heal. She actually emulated to us what had been done to her the same hurts, and agonies that plagued her she simply passed them on instead of her voicing her hurt or calling out to Christ for healing she tried to pretend so desperately that everything was okay.

In Jesus Christ Name Amen

I hurt, and I cry a lot not only for me and not only for my mother but for all the victims of abuse that also go through this. The effects that it leaves in a victims heart leaves them plagued with loneliness, and desolation and that is just what the enemy wants for you to feel. Loneliness and traumatized without fully understanding that Christ can truly fill the void in your heart. His word says that he will give you a new heart, and that when you are in Christ you are a new creation and that is something that the enemy doesn’t want you to partake in. He doesn’t want you having the strength that God Himself ordained you to have as His Word states, “I Can Do All Things Through Christ That Strengths Me”(Philippians 4:13) and that includes having the strength to understand. One must be willing to allow the Holy Spirit to overflow in them so proper healing and mending can take place, I had to let him open my heart to gain understanding in why my mother was so abusive without feeling anger, and hurt. So the questions I have to the abuse survivor is this, Do you think that your problems are too big for Yahweh to solve? That your hurts are to great for Him to heal? Regardless of what anyone tells you the most important decision you can make as a abuse victim is to let Jesus Christ come into your heart so that proper healing can take place.

Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.(Matthew 16:24)

Pick one of these for yourself: Victor Vs. Victim, Pain vs. Power, Life Vs. Death, Good vs. Evil. Healing Vs Hurting. Righteousness vs. Wickness.

Forgiveness sets you free from keeping the cycle of abuse going.

Choose this day what garbage you will let fill up your home. I chose to let Jesus Christ Heal my Heart, and Mind from the abuse that plagued me. He made me a Victor of childhood abuse, He broke the chains so that I will not keep the cycle going but instead I will prevent it. I am healing from not only my childhood abuse but also my mothers childhood abuse. I have forgiven because I know that I have God’s Glory in my story and with that I will say Amen.

Have A Blessed Day

🕊️The Art of Forgiveness🏹🏹

I never really considered how beautiful forgiveness can be, it never crossed my mind because with me being a victim of abuse I could never see how God could make me become a victor and survivor with more to gain from carrying my cross of abuse, neglect, and rejection. I always wanted to see my abuser get their “just deserts”, but what good would come of that? I came to a point in my life that I wanted to mature not only as a person but also with Christ Jesus. I had to really look at myself in the mirror, and examine my own heart, and mind forgiveness is something The Most High God gives me so why not give it to people who done me wrong especially my abusive mother and family members?

I had harbored unforgiveness, and anger in my heart like a dog who hoards dried up bones that he acquires from his owner. When I was a abuse sufferer I always longed to be free, but I never knew in order for me to be free I had to carry my cross of abuse, and pain. Not only carry it but also crucify myself on it, and if I wasn’t willing to get on the cross freely the Most High God would eventually lead me back to a place where I had no other choice but to go on the cross. I found out recently that I had to deny what my flesh desired and that was to see my abusive mother get what she “deserved“, to see the ones who laughed and mocked me get the same treatment they gave me.

The Lord fought me so long on this topic, I wont lie to you I was against it completely until he led me to a verse well a parable, and if you ever have time I suggest you read it one day because honestly I didn’t know this was in the bible.

Matthew 18:21-35

Its funny I felt like I was justified in carrying around the hatred, and resentment that I had in my heart. I wanted to keep it because a part of me felt comfortable re-singing the same old song over, and over I loved my pity party and I loved being in the middle of the dance floor. It actually became to big of a burden for me to carry around as I went no contact and the Lord gave me ample time and opportunity to think I felt like the baggage of my past became suffocating to me. I’m woman enough to say that it was mandatory for me to forgive them in order for me to go into the next level with Christ in order for me to experience The Most High God in ways that I can ascertain.

One thing that Yahweh-Shalom taught me on this journey of healing, and finding myself and building a closer relationship with Christ is that the best medicine for any abuse survivor is understanding. Understanding not only allows you to have empathy for others, but it also allows you to love and have empathy for your abuser because God has love and empathy for you. Ask Jesus Christ He has the prescription for all the pain, and hurts that you too also experience. 🛐😇

Understanding Makes Life Easier to Live, and prayer more addicting

❥ – Thank you for reading. Have a Blessed Day and Forgive it will be the BEST decision you ever made it was the best decision I made and I Praise The Most High God for it. Love Always, Danyah

😷Detoxing from A Drug Called (Parental) Abuse 💉💊

Growing up in this type of household the child that experiences this type of abuse never feels good enough no matter what they do, no matter what achievements sit on their mantle. When you go around your narcissistic parent you are never comfortable you will always feel as though you are walking on eggshells, you also feel as though you are on a witness stand and everything you say is constantly being examined. Normally children who come from this setting always feel that they need their mother(or fathers) approval(if they go no contact they can turn into people pleasers, or they are always looking for attention from their spouse, friends, or even in the work environment). They need constant validation from their surroundings and if the person does not get it they slowly sink into a feeling of isolation, and emotional abandonment with a extreme backlash of social anxiety.

“Fathers can also make you feel like this”

Victims of abuse always feel the need to over appreciate things that people may do for them the victim always has an urge to over apologize if they make a simple mistake because the narc has programmed their victim to take blame for problems that the narcissist actually caused (in steps scapegoat). The victim also has the tendency to place people on a remarkably high pedestal and when people tend to let them down(as humans do because alas we are only human) the victim can shift into a self analytical picking at their flaws, and blaming themselves for the fickle behavior that the other party displayed. They have strong trust issues, and they tend to not show their true self to others out of fear of being ridiculed, and rejected they have learned not to tell others about their abuse because the abuser gets defended as being a caring parent, and the victim as an ungrateful child who should just,” bury the hatchet, or your being overdramatic”.

The narcissist rewrites old memories always making you out to be the bad guy all the while minimizing their involvement, and their actions to make you feel sorry for the things the narc actually inherently did wrong(shifting blame to an innocent victim). The narc may broadcast how good he/she is a person to outsiders, and puts on a grandiose behavior on how much she/he helps people. Strangely enough when you call the narc for help they twist it around to make you feel worthless, and like an extreme burden of a failure the narc from this type of family dynamic always makes you feel guilty when your around them(like I said before about old memories). These evil people have a way of pulling a story back from 10 years ago to throw it in your face(my mother would tell me how when I was in her womb I didn’t move and when I came out my eyes were red so I was evil). They make you feel guilty for being you, and not thinking like them or agreeing to their dictative structures the victim typically rebels at a early age because they can sense the sinister energy from the abuser. The victim heart beats extremely fast when the narc’s name appears on their caller ID unsure of how the narc will approach them in conversation.

The narc loves to remind you that you will always “need” them (they will push the scripture, “Honor thy Mother and Father”) all the while they act in a dishonorable way inducing fear, and turmoil in the victims life forcing them without a shadow of doubt to feel as though they do not belong causing them to question The Most High, and also their morality because of the abuse that happens in this toxic environment. Victims when they grow older, and start to live, and work in the world can’t accept corrective criticism (even if it comes from a loving source) they typically develop severe anxiety and they shut down because all they can hear is the abuser yelling, and belittling them. The abuser normally calls the truthteller(scapegoat) crazy they systematically over the years program everyone in the family to see the truthteller(scapegoat) as nothing more than a crazy, downtrodden psychopath they do this to the point that they make the victim question their own mind. The abuser is crafty in doing this type of warfare because it breaks down the victim they see as a “problem” because they know that with this child there is a risk of exposure to the abuse that they administer.

Is there hope? The only hope that a victim that suffers from this traumatic abuse has is to go NO CONTACT once the abused leave this toxic environment they will then gain clarity once they research, and venture out they will start to understand slowly and surely that the abuser has, and will always be the PROBLEM! Save yourself many years of pain, and TROUBLE by DETOXING FROM ABUSE TODAY! May the Most High Yahweh Heal your heart on this path of healing like He is doing mines. Have a Blessed Detox, and always remember treat yourself good because no one else will(well Christ will) ❤ Adieu 💚

Stay Blessed, Stay Strong Hope Filled && Yah Willed Until Next time on “Talks with Danyah”🕊️🌸