It’s not that Hard 😇🙏🏽

“El Shaddai, My Strength and My Redeemer. Thank You Jesus!

Praising God… It’s not that Hard

Praying to God…. It’s not that Hard

Trusting God…. It’s not that Hard

Pleasing God….. It’s not that Hard

Waiting on God….. It’s not that Hard

Loving God…… It’s not that Hard

Seeking God…. It’s not that Hard

Listening to God… It’s not that Hard

Don’t Harden your heart… He loves you.

Praise You Lord Jesus Christ [Yeshua Hamashiach], Thank you for redeeming me and saving me I love you.🔥❤️️

* If you don’t trust in God, Who do you trust in?

*If you don’t believe in God, Who do you believe in?

*If you don’t have hope in God, Who is your hope in?

** Good luck with that**

As For Me And My House We Will Serve the Lord. Joshua 24:15.

We need you now more than ever Jesus.

Dedee 🌺

Apart from Christ…. I’m Nothing💍

What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him? (Psalms 8:4 kjv)

The older I got the less I knew about myself. Abuse, life, drugs, and this world had took its toll on me I felt misunderstood and misplaced in a big world with no identity to call my own. I seen how my past affected the way I looked at Jesus (He revealed it to me in a dream) how I viewed Him as an image of a corruptible man the more I seeked the less I knew, the less I knew the more realized that I needed Jesus. Not the cookie cutter Jesus that so many referred to because it looked good on paper no I wanted the REAL thing I had to have the REAL thing.

What are we? That God loves us so much. He is so mindful of us and the thoughts He thinks towards us is good and not evil. He is our Creator, and He holds each and every one of us in the palm of His hand I am truly blessed to be chosen by God to be saved by way of Jesus Christ. How beautiful is our great God!! And how His mercy endures, how when we were still sinners Christ died for us isn’t that such a heart warming thing? We reject love a lot of times because we DON’T know love the world has conditioned us with a water down version on what love should be. Materialism, vanity, pride, lust, the list goes on and on…….

We are in the end of days. Time is drawing close for Christ to return! Don’t be left in the dark. The trumpets are starting to blow, many will be left behind and many don’t believe(just like in the days of Noah). My hope is that whoever is reading this blog post repents and seeks Jesus Christ all it takes is this:

Acknowledge that you are a sinner

Repent for your sins and Ask God for Forgiveness

Ask Jesus to be your Lord and Savior. Ask the Lord to come into your heart as Lord of your life. 

Believe that He died and He rose & Get in the Word & Stay Connected to God.

I hope this Message finds you well. May God bless you and Keep you!

Philipians 5:17-19 says, ” Pray without ceasing. In everything give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. Quench not the spirit.”

Witness Wednesday: Faith Vs. Fear🛡

Proverbs 14:8

There is so much hype going on in the world right now with the COVID-19 many people are panicking and many people think that it’s not that serious. Grocery stores are flooded, lots of people are on edge lots of people are out of work not knowing if they have a job to go back to, after this “blows over”. So much going on it makes me wonder what has happened to man that leads them not to have faith in God? What makes them put faith in a job, or a government system? Does anybody believe that El Shaddai is bigger than a virus? Why are people so worried? Why are people panicking? Shouldn’t this be a time to build up faith rather than fear that is what the enemy wants a world full of FEAR so that he can maneuver silently without being stopped or hindered.

By faith Noah, being warned of God of things not seen as yet, moved with fear, prepared an ark to the saving of his house; by the which he condemned the world, and became heir of the righteousness which is by faith. (Hebrews 11:7 kjv)

Fear can be healthy, or it can be UNHEALTHY. Healthy fear keeps you dependent on God no matter what circumstances you face, no matter how many people are reported to have the virus. It protects believers from pride and being over self-sufficient (especially in a time like this), it causes us to not become selfish but to instead focus on others so that we can be a light amongst the darkness giving hope to those who feel as though they have no hope in a dark world plagued by COVID-19. Healthy fear makes us stand on God’s promises and His word it also causes us to know that He is in CONTROL no matter what goes on around us or what fiery darts the enemy throws at us as believers we must understand that “Greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world” (1 John 4:4 kjv).

Why panic? Why worry? Why have fear? NONE of these are of God! They are tools that come from the devil and his minions. Unhealthy fear leads into mistrust, anxiety, dread, panic, worry, and the worst of it all DISBELIEF it causes you not to believe in El Shaddai but yourself, and your own strength it causes you to put yourself in the position of God(which is impossible). “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.( 2 Timothy 1:7 kjv). Everything is beyond our control. So why not put our faith in the One who controls it all? Why not praise Him while everyone is panicking. WE ARE NOT OF THE WORLD! Children of the world have no HOPE but we have HOPE our blessed hope is in Christ Jesus who died on the cross for our sins. Fear comes from the enemy, but faith moves mountains it stops the enemy’s reign of terror and puts out the fiery darts that he throws at you instead it leads to us as believers holding up our shield of FAITH stopping the devil right in his tracks.

Stand strong my beloved, and strengthen those who feel fear with the Word of God! Instill hope in them through Jesus Christ standing on His Word, and looking to God’s promises. Rejoice not in darkness but rebel in truth take heed during these times that NO MAN or devil deceives you HOLD UP YOUR SHIELD OF FAITH AND TAKE BACK YOUR MIND. Just think for a minute my beautiful people during this time while you are home with your loved ones get a piece of paper out and write down all the blessings that God has given you, and all the vices he has DELIVERED you from the more you write the more you should let it sink in that with man it is impossible, but with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.

Have a beautiful blessed day. I love you All! God is way bigger than we can ascertain I’m sure of this. ❤

Sabbath Songs: Christ Crisis 🛐

“So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.” Hebrew 13:6 kjv

Praise the Lord for this wonderful gift

Praise the Lord for His tremendous gifts

Lord, I love You I need You close

Most High God, Your our only hope

I write these words out to thee, it’s the least I can do for all your mercy

Lord, so many people are thirsty they want a drink from Your endless banks

The world is in a panic that’s causing major damage

One thing we as your children should consider, that You my Lord are always near us

You make us feel so loved, I am thankful I am covered under Your blood

No sickness shall come nigh my dwelling, no plague or pestilence shall beset it

You set me up on high, I praise You my great El Shaddai

You heal me. You hold me. But most of all you LOVE me

What greater gift can I get? Than the One who was sent!

Thank You Lord for being so mindful of me, I cannot wait to hug thee.

So many are full of fear, but Your word says not to fear but hear.

Selah ❤

Sabbath Songs: Renew Me 🦅

Renew me Lord and teach me thy ways

Give us strength because we are in the last days

Everything leaves me in haze, so much going on that I’m left in a daze

But You my Lord are my King; I can’t deny the fact that You make my soul sing!

I’m tired of feeling so depressed, I’m tired of feeling as though I have no rest

Those who wait upon You renew strength, those who wait upon You know You’re at arm’s length

Fear not Beloved”, You whisper to my soul my dear Adonai You make me feel whole

You give me Your peace my dearest Lord only You can renew me

I love You so much Lord that I cry, I hate that I always question why

I shall praise You through my tears, I shall keep You close even though sometimes I fear

Lord! I sing this song to You; Lord I believe Your words to be true

Lord let’s go deeper together; I believe You will keep me safe under Your feathers

Please my Adonai can you renew me too? Your word says “You make all things new

I believe this to be true, therefore I place my hope solely in You.

I love You Yahweh, faith shall get me through.

I cannot wait to see You. 🌻

Selah 🌻

I praise You Jesus Christ, Thank you for Your matchless sacrifice 🌻

Sabbath songs: Songs to sing on the Sabbath Vol 3

Sabbath Songs: God be Merciful, To Dedee A Sinner.🙇🏽‍♀️

Lord, the world doesn’t believe Your real

It doesn’t matter because I can feel

Change my soul, please make me whole

I want my name in the Book of Life, I long for the days where we will be without strife

Sometimes it looks so grim, somedays I feel as though I won’t win

I look to Christ , and I acknowledge His SACRIFICE what He did on the Cross

How He kept my soul from being lost

The world laughs, the world mocks a lot of people will surely rock

Every knee shall bow and every tongue shall confess

I will put my trust in You because that’s BEST

Glorious King! You shall come, Let us all praise The Risen One (Christ)

Please Be Merciful to Dedee A Sinner, I trust that You Lord will make her a winner.

She will tell her story, because it’s drenched in Your glory.

Thank You Lord for Loving Me!

Praise You Christ, for staying near me.

Selah 🌸

Sabbath Songs: Volume 3 Songs to sing to Yahweh on the Sabbath

Witness Wednesday: Self Hatred

Recovering from my childhood trauma has taught me many things, but one thing that has stuck with me is that it was better for me to go to Christ when I was broken rather than going to Him when I figured I was “whole”. For a long time I struggled, and some days I still struggle with feelings of inadequacy I often have self-hatred come in to try to take me captive the more I dealt with these feelings the more I realized that I changed God into this same image that I projected onto myself.

Why do we as humans do this? Why do we anker Christ onto feelings that we feel about ourselves? Resulting in us burning bridges before they are built. Will we ever be good enough? That depends what is your definition of “good”? Have you defined good as a state of perfection that cannot be made manifested in a fallen society? Are you willing to accept that Christ loves us unconditional no matter what, and despite the fact we weren’t good enough He still died for us. Resulting in you accepting His offer by changing how you see Him seeing His sacrifice as a reason on why you should be good rather than why you need to be good.

Everyone deserves to be loved, it’s the hallmark of a humans existence what more can a person ask for? Question is, Do you allow God to love you? Or do you push Him away with your own feelings of self-hatred? When people speak of God do you imagine hatred or do you see love manifested on the cross?

Hebrews 4:15 kjv

Maybe you think I’m foolish because I believe in Christ. Honestly I don’t care what you think, but I will tell you this I’m a BORN again sinner whose in a battle just like you. I’m tired of fighting with my own carnal devices I’m choosing to stick to a Savior who understands my weaknesses and that my fellow reader is where I get my strength from.

We all fall short, it just depends on what you do once you get up……

Witness Wednesday: Volume 1

Narcissistic Mother: Can God Love Me?

My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth. – 1 John 3:18 Kjv

Love. What is love? Can love be taught, or does it come naturally to people? Growing up in my abusive narcissistic household I figured love was more of a superficial thing meaning words don’t have to match actions. If I got hit accept it because I love you, if I berate you deal with it because I love you after all I’m your mother and I know what’s “best” for you. As it says in the Word “Honour thy father and mother; (which is the first commandment with promise). Love. What is it? Can someone explain it to me? When I was younger I at times felt a lot of guilt because I didn’t have love towards my narcissistic mother I felt ashamed at the fact that I actually resented her, and at one point I actually hated her.

I was never really shown love properly I was shown dysfunction and treated with extreme toxicity to the point that I forgot who I was before I actually knew who I was. I was more or less shown destructive treatment over trivial things that children sometimes did resulting in me sinking deeper, and deeper into myself to hide how hurt and angry I was. Beaten with belt buckles, stripped down to be beaten with extension cords, woken up to be made to sleep outside, and slapped down in front of family at family functions the list of toxicity goes on and on. As I write this tears flood my eyes, as victims of abuse we often question, and ask if God could ever love us. Can The Most High really wipe away the hurt and pain that we feel? Or is God just like my abuser? I mean what is love? Does it even exist?

I actually felt like if His love was anything like my mother’s love then I didn’t want it. When Jesus Christ was upon the earth He never told His disciples that He loved them He let His actions show that He loved them, as the old saying goes “actions speak louder than words”. Going no contact helped me understand that His love isn’t like the cheap superficial love that we get from the world. He also helped me understand that my mother had a lot of hurt in her heart, a lot of pain that she was withholding and instead of going to Christ for healing she chose to push all that pain unto a child that reminded her of herself, and that child was me. I decided that I’m not going to look at myself through the eyes of my mother anymore I am leaving that part of me in the past because being in Christ I am a new creation.

Just think about it.. How can your abuser give you something that wasn’t given to them? How can you receive comfort from someone who was only given chaos? That’s like breaking a doves wing and expecting it to fly… it’s not gonna happen. Hurt people only know how to hurt people it’s not your fault they were hurt the only hurt you can take care of is your own and the only One who can help is Christ. Can the Most High love you? Certainly! Can the Most High wash away those feeling of shame and guilt? Most definitely only if YOU LET HIM! He can love You more than your human mind can fathom, matter of fact He is the embodiment of LOVE. He even tells us how love is, and how it should be “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 kjv

Trust Me, God Understands and He knows how you feel. No need to feel guilt and shame that isn’t even yours to begin with. May He comfort you on your healing journey as you walk this narrow path. Amen

🤲🏽Ten Things I Learned while Healing from Childhood Abuse.🔟

Healing takes time, and despite what many people would like you to believe it only up to YOU to understand and conquer your own healing process. Effects from childhood trauma/abuse stays with the recipient long after the abuse was administered. Well anyways here is my list of “Ten things I learned while healing from Childhood Abuse”. May Yahweh Bless you on your healing journey.

  1. The best things in life are Christ. (He makes you free)
  2. Resting on Christ’s word is the ULTIMATE therapy in gaining healing from abuse.
  3. Being the bigger person isn’t easy but it’s worth it in the end Yahweh will only judge you based off your actions not the actions of another person.
  4. Many people won’t understand you (don’t expect them to) Yahweh understands you and that’s the only thing that matters
  5. It’s up to YOU to either break the cycle of abuse, or to keep the cycle going.
  6. Don’t let abuse make you bitter, instead opt for BETTER.
  7. Abuse makes you more aware of how truly toxic people can be and it sharpens your discernment skills as well.
  8. What people say or think about you doesn’t even matter, people who are quick to make warped judgements DO NOT KNOW YOU they certainly don’t know the struggles you have overcome.
  9. While they label, LAUGH you are STRONGER than you appear, and WISER than you seem.
  10. Good days and bad days (everyone had them) it’s up to you to push through with a smile or a frown.

This is a list that I have complied of ten things that I have learned while healing from my childhood abuse. Life happens, and it happens HARD sometimes. I found that crying out to The Most High Yahweh helps me tremendously, He gives me profound strength in this hard world. I pray my list motivates you and encourage you to see the rainbow in the sky, because after all in order to see the rainbow you must first get through the rain. ❤ May Christ comfort you all. Danyah. ❤

This is a real rainbow I seen outside my apartment.

Abuse.. Makes You or Breaks You..

I ran across a Chinese proverb it said,” After all, harming others means you first harm yourself”, when I read this it struck a cord with me because I am a vict(or)im of abuse. I am going on three years no contact with my family, and at this point in my journey I am on a path of understanding, and discarding all the negative memories that are embedded into me. Some days are okay, but a lot of days are great they are great because I am discovering the person I was before the abuse began. If you ever met anyone who was open enough to tell you about their abusive childhood they will tell you that the abused robbed them physically, mentally, emotional, and SPIRITUALLY.

My purpose wasn’t made clear to me. My abuser didn’t have a purpose that she was aware of hell, it was stripped from her so why not strip it from someone who isn’t capable to perceive what was actually going on around them? Make your victim a dumping ground for all the anger that you refuse to acknowledge is there also make them the main source of supply, because instead of getting proper healing they will instead choose to pass the baton of wickedness known as abuse. She robbed me of years but going no contact helped me see how toxic my mother was, and how demonically controlled my family is and how she really berated me to the point that I lost sight of who I was before I even became whole.

It takes some victims of abuse years before they see the light at the end of the tunnel, and decades before they leave the tunnel. I didn’t start healing until I left completely and many victims never see results in healing until they leave the toxic situations. Some days I feel lost, and other days I feel strong one thing I have learned on this path of healing is you shouldn’t judge yourself based off of how your abuser treated you. Your not dumb, your not stupid, your not evil but you were abused and it’s not your fault you won’t be held accountable for what your abuser did to you but you will be held accountable for how you let it make you. For the longest time after I stopped associating myself with my family I was bitter, I felt lost it wasn’t until I actually separated the abused me from the real me that I seen that I am loved, I am wanted, and I am adored. I didn’t need my mothers approval because she didn’t even know how to approve herself the only approval that I need to obtain is Yahweh The Most High God.

You are a survivor of abuse. You will be a conqueror of abuse. I choose to let my past strengthen me. I choose not to let the abuse that I suffered in my childhood change me as a person. I will still love. I will still encourage. I will still push forward. I will still reach for The Most High Yahweh. And I will still receive the healing that Christ gives me. Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world. 1 John 4:4

Until Next Time

Danyah ❤