Part of my History, but not my DESTINY💎

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I believe that we all come to a point in our lives where we have to let go of certain individuals. You have to make solid decisions based off of what’s best for you. I firmly believe that everyone isn’t suppose to stay in your life some people stay for seasons, and some remain for decades. Yahweh knows who belongs in your life who needs to stay, and who needs to leave it’s just up to us to know the difference. It’s been awhile since I posted a blog I been busy sifting through my thoughts, and trying to get my emotions in check so much going on. Everything has a time, and a place whether it’s switching jobs, moving to another state, or letting go of family members that you have outgrown. As a survivor I am learning many lessons the one lesson that was hardest for me to learn is that many people are a part of my history, but not my DESTINY. At this point in my life I understand that letting go doesn’t mean that you hate someone it simply means that your are going in a different direction than them you love them enough to let them venture on their own path. Letting go can be simple, or complex depending on the level of love in a relationship.

Amos 3:3 Can two walk together, except they be agreed?

Sometimes we just love people so much that we realize they are safer in our history taking from them everything that we learned the good, the bad, and the ugly. Understanding that they simply do not fit in our lives anymore the purpose that El Shaddai had for them in your life has ran it’s course. Letting go gives you a renewed sense of self as we grow we much get rid of everything, and everyone that either weighs us down or whoever is going in an opposite direction than we are. Truth divides. Remember that high school friend that moved away? What about that ex that cheated? For me letting go involved family members some abusive, and some I just simply outgrew. I had to understand that they are part of my history, but not my destiny I cried for some, and disassociated from others. The growing process hurts sometimes, but in the end we must all realize that this is apart of The Most High God’s plan for us.

Romans 8:28 – And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

About three weeks ago I finally understood this lesson of letting go. I seen my estranged older sister (on my mother’s side) my heart raced, but I felt a sense of strength I wasn’t scared or anxious nor did I feel any hate or resentment towards her. We talked about our lives, and what all we had going on I expressed how I just needed time away from them time to see where I wanted to be she told me that she understood. I asked her about mama, and she said that she hasn’t changed (which didn’t surprise me) I even asked my sister if she talks about me, and my sister told me that my mama doesn’t bring me up (at least not to her). Upon hearing that I told my sister how I felt that mother and I both did things wrong, and the way we handled the situations that occurred could have been better it was just so hard for me to deal with her. Now that I’m older I realized that my mother was a broken woman who also suffered from trauma, and instead of her facing her demons she just dismissed them, and pushed them on me labeling me her “problem child” weighing me down with not only her problems but also problems of my own which robbed me of my sense of self.

I told her that I wasn’t ready to reach out to mama yet, and honestly I don’t think I ever will (I didn’t tell her that though).She replied that it’s okay, just don’t wait too long or you may regret it. My sister gave me her number which I took, but then I had another decision to make do I keep her number or delete it? Do I let them back into my life, or do I leave that door closed that I already closed so long ago? I decided on that day that I will leave that door close, and I deleted her number I then set out on a journey the journey of letting go of all the people who I felt that I outgrew the people who had no room in my destiny. I’m not mad at them I just understand that we are moving in two different directions. We are on two different levels. We want different things out of life. Growing can be uncomfortable, but at the same time when one grows they obtain a new level of understanding.

That day I discovered that I had changed. That I did let go not only did I let go of family members, but also others who I outgrew they are part of my history, and my history helped shaped me into the woman I am today. No one is promised to stay in our lives, but the only one who promises to remain there is El Shaddai; The God of Israel; The God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. I cut off my family, and I understand now that I finally outgrew them and the pain they gave me. There is no hate in my decision if anything I feel a sense of peace, love, and completion.

Deuteronomy 31:8 – KJV It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.

I hope you open your heart to this. Some people are just part of your history, but not your destiny. You don’t hate them you just understand that they don’t fit on the road that you are walking on, or perhaps they are walking in an opposite direction than you. Either way do you know who belongs in your life and who doesn’t? Perhaps you are holding on to dead relationships that have run their course ask Yah to reveal who belongs in your life and who needs to go.

Everyone doesn’t fit in our destiny.

P.S It’s the hardest lesson to learn.

Love,

Dedee ❤

Part 2: The Spirit of Rejection: Symptoms/ Manifestations of it

Isaiah 53:3 (kjv) – He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

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Believers of Christ will face rejection there is no way around it. The enemy works on the strongest warriors early in their childhood to ensure the spirit of rejection takes root in their soil. Rejection can make one bitter, angry, full of contempt, and shame in worst cases rage can set in making it hard for that individual to love, or trust others. I know all to well how it is to feel as though no one loves you to feel as though the Most High is so far away from you to listen to those thoughts in your head convincing you that Yah hates you.

The spirit of rejection partners with the spirit of condemnation making you feel as though Christ has abandoned you that he would never love you, and that the reason you were abused, and abandoned is because you were a bad person. The thoughts come rushing that it was all your fault that you were abused, and you will never be good enough for Yahweh so why even try. No matter the words of encouragement or how bright I shined I used to hate myself because of my past. (Thank Yah I’m divinely delivered!)

The spirit of rejection (once your in agreement) tricks you into believing you are “safe” by not venturing out and facing then conquering the demons of your past.

If left unconquered these demons will:

  • Destroy your walk with Christ
  • Ruin your life
  • Dismantle and kill all your relationships in your life
  • Make you hate yourself and others

** The end result is suicide for the person they are tormenting** Remember! (John 10:10 kjv – The thief comes to steal, kill, and DESTROY!) Spiritually, Mentally, Emotionally, and Physically

While under the influence of the spirit of rejection the symptoms I would have included:

  • I was scared to seek a REAL relationship with Christ. I felt because of my relationship with my mother He hated me because I was a “Bad Seed”. (We must stop acting based on our feelings and start knowing based on the TRUE word of YAH!)
  • I would constantly compare myself with others. (I would become envious if a person’s childhood situation were better than mines all the while blaming myself for the dysfunction in my family. I never felt that I could rise above my past.)
  • I would be scared to be myself around others. (For fear that they would find out I was not as “stable” as I appeared and that I was harboring lots of pain inside.)
  • I was hypersensitive to others’ opinions, comments, and constructive criticism. When others would make comments about me, I would shut down, and introvert into myself. (I was raised around negativity, and I had ZERO self-confidence, and ZERO self-worth I did not even know who I was in Yah.)  I just recently understood that it does not matter what people think the only thing that matters is if your in RIGHT standing with YAH!

***** We have to understand that we are all different. We all come from different backgrounds (sometimes we have similar experiences). We won’t get along with most people and that’s okay. The only one that matters is The Most High. What’s your relationship status with Him? *****

The spirit of rejection is something that you do not have to accept! Happiness is a choice in this life. You can either be positive or negative (there is no such thing as being both at the same time). Are you displaying symptoms of rejection? The best thing I have ever done for myself was ask The Most High to reveal to me something about myself that was stopping my growth with Him. I am forever grateful that He is my ABBA and that He cares about me enough to not let me be tormented by this demonic spirit. He wants true intimacy with us. It’s just up to us to let go and to let Him come into our hearts and our lives. Renounce rejection and accept ACCEPTANCE in Christ!

Hebrews 4:15- For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin.

One final thing to remember your enemies are there to refine you! They don’t DEFINE you only The Most High can define you because He created you and He loves you more than you can ever understand. Most people aren’t overcoming. Most people don’t want to know The Most High Yah. A lot of people don’t want to grow in Christ. People like me and you are on our way to overcoming or we have overcome. In this life we can chose to let go and let God, or to hold on and let the devil keep us captive in rejection. The strangest part about this is that the choice is yours, God will not force Himself on you.


Matthew 24:13- But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.

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Part 1: The Spirit of Rejection: Identifying it

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The spirit of rejection is a spirit that we can all relate to it’s oppressive, controlling, and dominates many peoples lives. It doesn’t care about race, financial status, or what gender you are. I’m sure everyone has encountered the spirit of rejection at least once or twice in their lifetime it attacks swiftly leaving you inside a shell of your former self.

Maybe your like me? I grew up in an abusive home my mother was very narcissistic, and controlling she made me feel unwanted and unloved I felt like a burden instead of a blessing. I felt rejected by my parents I might as well be honest I felt rejected by my whole family. Often I was misunderstood this led to rejection latching onto me at an early age I always felt lonely, depressed, full of fear, and uncertainty from the time I was a child all the way up my early adulthood.

At a early age I felt as though it was all my fault that my mother didn’t love me that her mistreatment was my fault. Maybe if I cleaned longer, or was more “submissive” I could win her affection. She kept me isolated, as a child punishments were always to extreme for the minor things I did. My siblings either got away with more, or directed all the tension towards me in order for them to have a means of escape (scapegoat alert!)

Once I escaped that toxic environment, and as I became older I realized that I still felt the same feelings that I felt as a child. I was living a stagnated life full of doubt, fear, and most importantly rejection. I thought I was unworthy of Yahweh’s love I believed that He is love and that He cared, but He just didn’t love or care about me why would He? My own mother didn’t love me surely I was a “problem” a bad seed that shouldn’t have been born (at least this is what the spirit of rejection would tell me). I was recently reading an article titled”, The Spirit of Rejection| Where Does it Come from and How to Battle it”.https://www.curtlandry.com/battle-the-spirit-of-rejection/#.YLwCEY2SnIU in this article it details the Seven Manifestations of the Spirit of Rejection which include:

  1. You feel despondent. There seems to be no words of encouragement that can be spoken over you to set you free from this feeling of rejection. 
  2. You feel left out of conversations as if you are an observer, unable to interact.
  3. You feel that life’s opportunities have passed you by, and it is too late to do anything about it. 
  4. You feel rejected if you are not recognized for your accomplishments by those in authority. 
  5. You feel the spirit of envy setting in as you begin comparing your situations with others. 
  6. The feeling of envy and comparison partner with rejection and tell you that you were not given a fair chance in life. 
  7. You feel the need to prove yourself while at the same time feeling you can never measure up. 

I’m hoping you understand as you read this that I am letting you know what the Holy Spirit revealed to me what was my biggest problem. I was harboring the demonic spirit of REJECTION! The only reason that this spirit was able to dominate my life was because I was in FULL agreement with it I was so in tune with this spirit that I really thought that those thoughts, feelings, and emotions were part of my personality! I didn’t even know about this spirit until the Holy Spirit spoke to me through this sermon I watched called “The Revelation of Rejection” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6GFSAyyY8gU&t=3278s

Jesus (Yeshua) tells us in John 10:10 – The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.

Christ came to end the works of the enemy to establish a new covenant (Hebrews 9:15). The new covenant is written on our hearts, and entering the new covenant is made possible by faith in Christ who shed his blood to take away the sins of the world. (Luke 22:20).

The spirit of rejection leaves you in a haze of uncertainty it robs you of your faith and joy of the Lord rendering you hopeless. The AHA moment for me was identifying that these thoughts, and feelings were not mines, but a SPIRIT and this spirit attached itself to me during childhood and followed me all the way into early adulthood I would find comfort in this spirit, and took it on as part of my personality and made it a part of my character.

After realizing how, and why this spirit got in, and what was the plan of this spirit (to kill, steal, and to destroy me). I had two choices I could: 1.) Listen to the voice of Yahweh (The Holy Spirit) or 2.) Listen to the spirit of rejection you can’t serve two masters (Matthew 6:24). In order for you to see the works of Christ manifest in your life one must believe that He is who He says He is, and that He will do what He says He will do (Philippians 1:6).

In order to gain deliverance from this spirit one must:

  • Pray and ask the Holy Spirit to reveal the open doors in your life that allowed the spirit of rejection to gain access in your life (In my case I came from an abusive childhood home that is how this demonic spirit entered my life)
  • Repent and Ask for forgiveness for listening to the lies of the enemy, instead of believing and trusting in God. (In the Word we are instructed to Cast down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God 2 Corinthians 10:5 when we give in to the spirit of rejection, we are basically calling God a liar and placing the lies of the enemy before the truth of what God’s Word says about us, and who we are to Him.)
  • RENOUNCE THIS SPIRIT AND DIVORCE IT FROM OVER YOUR LIFE IN YESHUA (JESUS) NAME. COVER YOURSELF IN THE BLOOD OF CHRIST.
  • Declare your identity in Christ. Decree His Word and Promises over your life. (Choose Faith in Christ over Fear of the enemy when you listen to the spirit of rejection you are basically giving the enemy more power and putting the enemy before Christ!!)  
  • Open up the Word of Yah and see what He says about you! Spend time with God daily and meditate, filling your mind with who He says you are and BELIEVE who He says YOU ARE!
  • Thank God for all He has done and will do as He promises to set you free! Believe it to ACHIEVE it!!

You must know that without faith it is IMPOSSIBLE to please Him, for he that comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him (Hebrews 11:6)

Part 1: Identify, Repent, & Renounce!

Have Faith in Yeshua (Jesus)! Do you believe that Christ can set you free? Or do you think He is limited? Perhaps you like being in bondage I won’t lie I used to but not anymore! Praise Yah I am DIVINELY DELIVERED!

Part 2: The Spirit of Rejection: Understanding It (Plus Live Chat) Coming Next!

Happy 2 years to my Blog 🥰🥰🎊🎊🎉🎉🎉🎉

I can’t believe it’s been 2 years on my blog! Praise The Most High God in Heaven!! When I started my blog two years ago I never thought that I would have stuck with it for so long I have grown to love blogging, and telling my story of healing from abuse as a child. It is so funny how much can be accomplished when you decide to put it in the hands of The Most High when you decide to trust Christ and move forward in His will and His Light and love.

I am more than a CONQUEROR! I don’t just say this but I believe it also. Yahweh encourages me so I will encourage you. He loves me so I love you too. Thank you for following my Blog and being apart of this journey may Yah bless you and guide you in Christ name I pray. Amen 🙏🏽

Sabbath Songs: Yahweh’s Chosen Wheat 🌾

Its been a LONG TIME since I wrote a psalm to Yahweh, since I have achieved a new milestone in my walk of faith I wanted to write a psalm to my Savior the Redeemer of my soul. 🌼🌹🌹🌹🌹

Out of everyone else why did You choose me?

Why El Shaddai, do you show us so much mercy?

I used to be broken, but now I am restored.

Yahweh-Rapha. My Healer. My Redeemer.

Only El Shaddai can make a man whole, and only Christ can save your soul.

We run from the Redeemer only to wind up into the arms of the deceiver.

The lies he whispers sound so true, the hurt he gives makes you feel so blue.

We are not our past. We are not our abusers. Children of Yahweh. Searching for His way.

Called out. Redeemed out. Chosen out of the chaos that’s roaming about.

Yahweh seen something in me that I did not see in myself. I know now that He is the source of my help.

Only from Him comes strength. Only from Him comes rest. He is the best. He is my King.

Bless Yah Oh my Soul. My Creator. My Keeper.

With Him I need not to fear because He holds me dear.

We are Light fighting against the dark. A great fire that sends a greater spark.

Chosen wheat that shall not taste defeat! satan you are beneath our feet.

I am a child of The Most High God Hallelujah! Let us all Praise Ye Yah!!

Come Let us sing psalms to The King! Let us all Praise Him for His Provisions.

Thank You Adonai for the visions. For the love that You send from Above.

Dedee “DanYah” 🌼🌼🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 I love You Abba Yah.

The Reason You feel Guilty after Abuse 😥

Isaiah 61:3 -To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.

2 Corinthians 7:10 For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death.

Ecclesiasticus 4:21-22 For there is a shame that bringeth sin; and there is a shame which is glory and grace. 21 Accept no person against thy soul, and let not the reverence of any man cause thee to fall.”

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Guilt can manifest in many different ways. Guilt is defined as a feeling of responsibility or remorse for some offense, crime, or wrongdoing whether real or imagined. In this blog post I wanted to talk about why victims of abuse feel guilty after abuse in this post I will talk about reasons based off my personal experiences with abuse and trauma. Everyone is different, and we all process life and experiences differently I believe by sharing our outlook, and testimonies we can help others heal and motivate them to seek a meaningful relationship with Yeshua who is the ULTIMATE healer and deliverer. ❤

I recall in my childhood how I always felt guilty. I felt alone. I lacked confidence. I often felt ashamed. Going on four years of no contact I understand all too well the pains, and perils of feeling guilt if a child is not raised in a household that centers around Yahweh’s love and Words then the house will quickly become a den for demons. My guilt arose every time someone asked about my mother, and when I replied that we were estranged they would rise up quickly to dish out their semantics of how “life is too short”, and that “you only get one mother” and the famous line “Honor thy mother and father” people are quick to downplay the abuse that was inflicted and are more than willing to make you feel guilty even though they do not know you, or the abuser that they are taking up for.

Guilt would always come rushing in time, and time again I would let people who didn’t even know me and the horrors that I endured at the hands of my mother dictate how I should view the abusive relationship. Because after all it wasn’t abuse it was “love” that hurt it was “love” that left me in a former shell of myself hating not only myself, but also the abuser who inflicted the pain and torment upon me. As time went on after going no contact and forming my OWN relationship with Yahweh Rapha I had to reprogram the way I saw not only Him, but how I also looked at myself I grew to understand that people are quick to speak on topics that they have little or no knowledge on. As survivors of abuse we have to not let what others say get to us, after all it’s easy to speak on something when you don’t have first hand experience on the issue at hand.

I felt guilty because I left instead of staying. My guilt arose from not sticking it out maybe things were gonna get better surely my mother loved me she just had a demonic way of showing her love for me. Guilty that I wasn’t loved properly. Guilty that I couldn’t make my mother love me. Guilty that I didn’t even have a connection to my mother was something wrong with me? My guilt arose because I didn’t live up to societies standards of family, and how you should stick by them NO MATTER WHAT. My guilt arose because I chose to walk away from all of them rather than stay and keep silent on the suffering that I was experiencing if I would have stayed no doubt I would have been a ticking time bomb waiting to explode. I felt guilty because I didn’t wanna give my abusive mother the worship, and praise that she required of me I chose to give it to Christ My Adonai I felt disconnected from my mother and I felt like I had to work for her love rather than receive it naturally. I looked at her like my enemy rather than the one who nurtured, and cared for me my guilt came when I tried but nothing ever worked I tried to repair a burned bridge, but I felt like in order for that bridge to be built I would have to DIE for it to be repaired.

Jeremiah 12:6 For even thy brethren, and the house of thy father, even they have dealt treacherously with thee; yea, they have called a multitude after thee: believe them not, though they speak fair words unto thee.

My guilt left when I began to understand that Yahweh called me out of my broken family system for a reason. My purpose is to let others know that it is okay to cry, and that Yahweh sees what they have done to you. It is not your fault that you were born into a damaged family, you were only targeted because you are the strongest one in the family system. You are the truth teller, you are the one who will shine light in the midst of the darkness. Your guilt subsides once you take acceptance towards the situation. Accept that the abuse that was afflicted upon you was unnatural. The way the abuser treats you is unnatural (parents are supposed to love children not hurt them, and patronize them). What happened to you shouldn’t have happened, we can’t stay in the past if we are trying to move towards a better future with Christ.

Luke 9:62 62Jesus replied, “No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God.”

Everyone won’t understand, and that’s okay it doesn’t mean that they are bad people they just aren’t part of your tribe. You don’t need no one to validate that harm has been done to you. The Most High KNOWS all and SEES all. It takes a strong person to acknowledge that they had abusive and unloving parents and it takes an even stronger person to bow down before Christ and ask for healing, and deliverance because a situation like this requires Divine Intervention from The Most High God in Heaven.

It’s hurtful when the ones who are supposed to love you the most hurt you the most. It’s confusing, and troubling when the ones who are supposed to nurture you abandon you. Once you let go of false guilt (that comes from the devil) you will have no problem telling your testimony, and you won’t care if people believe you or not. Did I want to leave? No, but 4 years ago I felt that it was the only choice that I had and if I would have stayed would I be the same individual now? I highly doubt it.

Don’t worry Yeshua knows our struggles, and knows what you have been through. Don’t play limitations on His abilities. There is GLORY in your STORY. So tell it, share it, and most importantly bear it.

Love,

Dedee, A Victor in Christ and of Abuse. 🌹💪🏽

The Dangers of A Toxic Childhood ✋🏽☣☢

Ecclesiastes 7:7 Surely oppression maketh a wise man mad; and a gift destroyeth the heart.

Ecclesiastes 7:7 kjv.

Unacknowledged childhood trauma leads to problems in a person’s adulthood if left unchecked and not properly healed. By the time an individual understands that they were raised in toxicity they will either keep the cycle of abuse going (they will go on to abuse their children, coworkers, friends, spouse etc.) or withdraw from themselves taking residence in the sunken place not knowing who they are, or understanding what’s going on around them.

I personally believe (I am speaking from experience) that childhood abuse/trauma damages the way a child sees The Most High God if trauma is left unresolved and not healed this can leave a person feeling inadequate and can cause them to run from God (rather than to Him) fearing that He will abandon and neglect them like their toxic family did.

The Bible says to train up a child in the way that he should go (Proverbs 22:6). What happens when a child is trained up in toxicity? Molded in resentment, and lacking healthy qualities given to them when they are nurtured in a safe environment. The effects can be very detrimental to a individuals growth spiritually, mentally, and emotionally matter of fact, it warps not only how they view themselves but how they also view God. Once the individual gets healthy healing (yes there are unhealthy ways to heal) they will start to understand that love is an action word rather than a word said to use, and abuse a person at will causing confusion and turmoil through means of manipulation, and deception.

As we get older, we need to learn to distance ourselves from those who radiate, or even entertain negativity. The Bible says that those who cause divisions manipulate those who entertain it by smooth talk (manipulation) and flattery (deception) they deceive the hearts of the simple.

Romans 16:17-18 17Now I beseech you, brethren, mark them which cause divisions and offences contrary to the doctrine which ye have learned; and avoid them. 18For they that are such serve not our LORD Jesus Christ, but their own belly; and by good words and fair speeches deceive the hearts of the simple.

A simple-minded person (in this case) is someone who rather “go along to get along”. They are the people in this type of dynamic who cannot understand or grasp the insight that they are being deceived and manipulated. They either participate willingly or they do not understand that their abuser is an ABUSER in my experience they are enablers and will turn on you in order to maintain a false sense of peace.

God is NOT the author of confusion (1 CORINTHIANS 14:33) but of peace. Just know where envying and strife is there is confusion and every evil work (James 3:16) and this can go on ANYWHERE! Toxic environments are riddled with demons and you must know that if your getting attacked or you feel shaken in this environment then The Most High has chosen to call you out of darkness and into His marvelous Light (1 Peter 2:9)

The child that was/is abused must realize that God is not like man better yet that Yahweh’s love does not come with sorrow but we must realize that any godly sorrow will come with repentance (2 CORINTHIANS 7:10) that will lead us to a closer relationship with Abba Yah. Any sorrow from this world leads to death. If someone is giving you love that comes with sorrow then this is NOT LOVE. We must not be afraid to give Yahweh our hearts He alone can heal us, He alone can deliver us, and He alone can redeem us. We must serve Him know that at the end everyone will have to give account of every idle word(Matthew 12:36), and evil deed that they have done to others.

And that is the most beautiful part of this whole story what people fail to realize is that they will give account to their actions they will have to answer to El Shaddai for EVERYTHING they have done. The pain they caused, the lives that they ruined that’s why its best to leave it in God’s hands because after all He did say “Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord. (Romans 12:19 kjv).

Just Remember Healing is a EVERYDAY THING, not a once in a lifetime event.

Love,

DedeeisDivinelyDelivered 💖🌼

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Overcoming Feelings of Inadequacy 💪🏽🙌🏽

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Feeling inadequate can be a result of a lot of factors for some it is the type of clothes they wear, the type of house they have, or maybe the type of job title they hold. During early development, a child is learning so much, and during this time a child starts to form an opinion on how they view themselves and others. In fact, feelings of inadequacy can take root during a person’s childhood when a child receives negative messages about themselves indirectly, and directly. These negative messages about themselves can be from parents, teachers, or others whom the child sees as significant.

In my case the feelings of inadequacy weren’t so complex I wish it could have been because of materialistic lack, but I knew that my feelings of lack stemmed from my childhood upbringing. Imagine my horror when I realized that the feelings of inadequacy still followed me into my early and late adult hood. I felt unworthy of God’s love, and attention I changed the image of Yah into my abusive mother and enabling family members. I would cringe at the thought of Him loving me I felt as though I was a burden, maybe I was a mistake? Getting in the way of His will. So many teachings, so many men who I perceived were closer to The Most High more than I could ever be. I could feel myself becoming a bit legalistic scared of Him not love, but a fear that made me feel unworthy to even send Him a prayer.

The Bible is full of people who felt just like me. Inadequate. Moses, Gideon, Jeremiah, Peter the list goes on, and on. I look at Peter, and some of his characteristics remind me of myself matter of fact I look at Luke 5: 8- When Simon Peter saw it, he fell down at Jesus’ knees, saying, Depart from me; for I am a sinful man, O LORD. With a display of supernatural power this gave Peter proof of the Father’s omniscience and omnipotence through The Lord Jesus the Christ. With it comes Peter’s realization of his own inadequacy, which he conveys by falling “down at Jesus’ knees, saying, ‘Depart from me, for I am a sinful man, O Lord!‘” Peter realizes that he had been faithless, and just like Peter I myself (and I’m sure you too) can relate to this verse.  

Jesus then goes on to tell His newfound disciple to Fear not; from henceforth thou shalt catch men.” (Luke 5:10 kjv) He affirms Peters and lets him know to fear not and from that moment on he will become a fisher of men, a worker of righteousness. In spite of Peter’s inadequacy God chose him. He looked past his inadequacies and seen Peter’s potential because when God sees us He doesn’t see our inadequacies, but He sees how we are adequate for His plan, and how we can be used for His PURPOSE. Despite our past, despite our failures The Most High sees the untapped potential that is trapped inside of us waiting to get out how does He know it is there? Because HE PUT IT THERE!

In my experience the first step to overcoming feelings of inadequacy is admitting that you are fearful and realizing that you are broken and that you need Yahweh’s healing touch upon your life. Yahweh Rapha the Lord who Heals you, who restores you. What was I fearful of? I was fearful of rejection not just from man but also from The Highest. Apparently, the cuts from my childhood cut me deep so deep that I developed strong feelings of inadequacy I would always feel like I wasn’t good enough condemning myself to hell for any little mistake that I made I caused a lot of pain to not only others but also myself before I realized that I was a product of childhood abuse and trauma.

This is not the last time where we see Jesus telling us to fear not matter of fact Jesus tells us in Matthew 10:31Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows.

We are of so much value to God that we cannot even fathom the things that He has in store for us once we begin this journey. He does not want us feeling inadequate that is why He gives us grace because His power is made perfect in our weaknesses (2 Corinthians 12:9). Truth is God was never looking for perfect people He is looking for those who will perfect His will, a willing vessel who will go against the grain to walk the narrow path of righteousness. So why feel inadequate? Why feel as though you are not good enough? He knows your condition that’s why you were chosen.

 He makes all things new, and when your in Christ you are a new creation besides all have sinned and come short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23). Not some, but ALL.

Besides, I am realizing that it is not my strength that I need to operate off of but Christ’s strength. I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me, and this includes overcoming my feelings of inadequacy, and throwing away the lies of my childhood and destroying the works of the enemy. I will serve God despite my insecurities and inadequacies truth be told no one is perfect, and I have come to respect the fact that I will never be, but Yahweh loves me even though I am not perfect. This is due to the mercy that He has available to me and His mercy endures forever. He cannot go against His character and I don’t expect Him to because He changes not. Everyday we are learning, and everyday we are changing some for the better and some for the worst at the end of the day it’s up to you to chose sweetness over bitterness.

Thank you for reading! Get past feeling inadequate it doesn’t get you nowhere! May God Bless, keep, and Heal You in Christ Jesus Forever ❤

Dedee

Running from the Shame of Abuse 🏃🏽‍♀️💨

  • Observe the circumstances that are happening to you (You must notice that the relationship is abusive and toxic to your health)
  • Beware of evil (Be Aware of the evil around you. Be cautious and alert of those you surround yourself with KNOW YOUR ENEMIES)
  • Do not be ashamed if something concerns your soul. (If something worries you; makes you anxious especially if you have a reasonable reason as to why you feel the way you do don’t dismiss those feelings.)
  • For these is a shame that bringeth sin; and there is a shame which is glory and grace. (A person’s shame can lead them down a path of sin which can turn into varies addictions to mask the pain of the shame that they feel. Or the shame that they feel can lead them to turn to Christ and taking up their cross shedding their old man and going against everything that they were taught.)

Someone who has been abused knows what it’s like to want to run away. Wanting to run away from the toxicity. Wanting to leave the toxic environment to escape the pain that they feel.

In the beginning an individual often runs from the shame of the abuse they suffered. I know I used to run I lived in denial, and I felt that maybe my mother did love me but just in her own “special” way. When you run from shame you will look towards other things to soothe your pain (drugs, alcohol, sex, food etc.)

But when you run towards Yahweh with your shame, He will give you beauty for your ashes. Only He can give you glory and grace working in us and making us a new creature that turns pain into praise because He will never leave us nor forsaken us.

(Isaiah 61:3 – To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.)

And once this happens you will become a living and breathing testimony of deliverance for El Shaddai. Your pain will be transformed into praise. Your pain will become power that can and will be used against your enemies.

That is where the enemy knows the real power of redemption lies in our testimonies of YAHWEHS FAITHFULLNESS AND LOVINGKINDNESS. We are the proof of His love and His healing. Therefore, the enemy aims to keep you shame-faced and downtrodden. Shame can either bring you defeat, or you can use it to your advantage to move forward to have a deeper and loving relationship with The Highest.

The more your around toxic people the less you see El Shaddai’s plan for your life. The less you see His plan for your life the more you lean on outside forces that contribute to you adding more shame to the shame you already feel. Losing sight of your true purpose in this life. What Yah has called you to do.

This is why our Savior told us in John 10:10- The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.

Yahweh wants us to have life, and to have it more abundantly. We must realize that the abuse inflicted on us was not our fault the environment we were in was sick in order for one to properly heal they must leave the environment where they first became sick. Shedding off the old man, and becoming a new creation in Christ.

Asking Christ to be your Lord and Savior takes away the shame of the abuse that was afflicted on you along with the weight and burdens of the pain you feel. Repentance plays a HUGE role in healing. The closer we get to Christ the more that we realize that He alone is our saving grace, and that nothing can separate us from His love and that when our mother and father forsaken us He will take us in. Only Yahweh can turn a broken person whole! Ask me how I know? Listen to my testimony on surviving abuse. Tell me if you can relate. 🙇🏽‍♀️

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Thank you for reading! May Christ Bless you and Keep You always

Dedee ❤