Happy 26th Birthday to Me 🥰🥰🥰👸🏽👑

Dear Yahweh,

Thank you for allowing me to see another year on this earth. I do not understand your plans for me but I do understand that if I am still here it is for a reason and for Your divine purposes. Life is hard and sometimes it is scary but I thank You Lord that I have You! You are a Good Shepherd and You look after and protects what’s Yours. Lord I pray that my life is filled with Your goodness and Your kindness and Divine Favor in Jesus Christ name I pray, Amen 🥰🥰😇👑👸🏽👰🏽

Happy 26th birthday Dedee ❤❤🥰👑👸🏽 Hallejuah 🥰🥰👰🏽

Sabbath Songs: Rest 😌🏝

I crave to rest in the Lord

I want to rest in my King

I praise You Lord for loving me

We are wayward children who really need your love

Thank you Lord for watching us from above

Thank you Christ for setting me free

Thank You Jesus for having mercy

I will give You my best

Because only You Lord give me rest

Thank You El Shaddai, for the comfort only You can provide. Selah 😌😌😌😇👸🏽

🕊️The Pain that comes with going No contact {Abuse Awareness}

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After three years of no contact I can honestly say that I feel the anointing of God’s healing power on me I can stand on my own two feet and I know it’s not my strength but Christ. Three years ago when I first went no contact I had just gotten out of a mental hospital undergoing demonic attacks I felt alone, scared, and I was tired of feeling the pain that came from me having my mother in my life. When I first cut communication it was like my mind was trying so desperately to manipulate me into believing that the abuse never happened, then I would have feelings of regret and loneliness. Instead of me acknowledging and accepting that I was abandoned, and abused by my family I would feel as though I was doing to them the very same things they had done to me. I would reverse it. It’s funny how we as humans can do that, it was like I was detoxing from a drug or coming down from a potent high.

Why do victims feel this way? How come after walking from an abusive situation, they feel the need to go back thinking things will change? The answer lies in our childhood one must acknowledge that the environment they grew up in was unnatural the only thing that would make sense is doing things that make no sense. Narcissistic parents train scapegoated children from a early age to cut ties with their original selves, they then mold them to be the physical manifestation of the pain, and anger that they feel on the inside.  When the picked party lashes out at the treatment that’s inflicted on them the whole family stares “in shock”, and amazement.  They are the only brave ones willing to fight on the battlefield this causes the narcissistic parent(abuser) to always seek out ways to keep the picked party “in their place” by using mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical abuse measures.

Things the Victim (Victor) should reflect upon while going no contact:

  • You have been brainwashed into believing that you are the reason why you are being abused and treated unfairly.
  • To not feel pain after going no contact the victor needs to understand that they need healing and to have successful healing they must leave the toxic environment completely.
  • If they cannot leave the toxic environment the victor must start renewing their minds with what the Word of God says about them, and who they are. They must also understand that the narcissistic parent is spiritually sick.
  • Realize that what the abuser says about you doesn’t define you, it just shows that the abuser is intimidated by you.

They will rise because they are HEALED BY GOD, they are victors leading other victims free! CALL ON YAHWEH RAPHA TO HEAL YOU!

FIND YOUR PASSION AFTER THE PAIN OF GOING NO CONTACT!

If the Son sets you free you will be free indeed.

John 8:36

I will give praise to You forever 🙌🏽🥰

My Lord, My God! I will give praise to You forever!

You heal my heart, I am Your work of art

A masterpiece made for the King, when I get in your presence I will always sing

I need You Jesus, can you save me from this place

Let me follow you Lord because You make me feel so safe

Keep me honest Lord. Keep me clean

I pray that I can be Your queen. I stand in awe of Your glory and Your might

Please Lord don’t let me be out of your sight. Let me not leave Your hand

I am so blessed that You have a plan. Selah

I Love You El Shaddai ♥

Unforgiveness is Rooted Bitterness 🌱🌱😞

Hebrews 12:15-17 kjv

Hebrews 12:15 KJV Looking diligently lest any man fail of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you, and thereby many be defiled;


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As a child who grew up in a abusive household I developed many unhealthy spiritual habits, and one MAJOR thing that I struggled with was unforgiveness it infected me like a cancer and I felt that I didn’t need to forgive my mother because after all she never acknowledged her wrongs. The older I got, the more I experienced hurt at the hands of my family and also others that I met I felt as though if my mother didn’t love me how can God love me? Was forgiveness necessary for me to walk with Christ? Was the hardest decision in my life actually more easier than my flesh made it feel?

I can attest that in order to have a successful relationship with Jesus Christ you MUST forgive EVERYONE even when it HURTS. Unforgiveness is actually a work of the flesh (Galatians 5:19-21 kjv) it leads to hatred and gives you a ticket straight to hell.

Our relationship with God, is built on forgiveness when we repent of our sins we are also asking for forgiveness in order to have a relationship with God. Jesus tells us in Mark 11:26: But if ye do not forgive, neither will your Father which is in heaven forgive your trespasses kjv.

In order to experience true freedom and healing from the shackles of abuse and spiritual defeat one must be willing to forgive wrongdoings that was done to them NO MATTER how much it hurts. I know it hurts but love covers a multitude of sins (1 Peter 4:8 kjv) I love Jesus Christ more than I love my pain and hurt He frees us from the bondage of bitterness.

The longer I held on to the past the more bitter I got. We have two choices in our healing process to get bitter or better.

Sit and reflect on these things:

  • Is holding in hurt and resentment worth your eternal soul in Hell? Are you justifying reasons you shouldn’t forgive someone who has wronged you, are you letting your flesh get in the way of TRUE deliverance?
  • Is your relationship with God based on an actual relationship of true love, and repentance? Are you just covering up your bitterness with empty praises and clinging to unforgiveness while slowly sinking into anger (works of the flesh)?

Bitterness is a seed that gets planted at a early age and it springs up slowly and by the time you realize that you have a problem you are in hell regretting and wishing that you would have came to Christ for healing. Most bitter people do not realize they are bitter, they are cynical they are deep rooted in the flesh and many of these people think that they are Christians. As true followers of Christ we must deny ourselves (Matthew 16:24 Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.)

Abuse is my cross and denying myself means that I put anger and resentment(bitterness) far from me. I will follow Christ because only He can give me deliverance, healing, and most of all LOVE. I choose not to walk in the flesh, but I will walk in the Spirit (Galatians 5:16 kjv This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh.)

Repent for the kingdom of God draws near! Whatever wrong that was done to you please give it to Jesus He will handle it. True freedom come from forgiveness because it allows you to place your FULL Faith (trust) in God it leaves justice to Him (Romans 12:19 Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the LORD.)

Unforgivness puts up a wall between you and Jesus a wall so high that you wont be able to experience His love, and the freedom that comes with it.

FORGIVE, REPENT, AND BE SET FREE!

Sabbath Songs: Deliver Me 📦👰🏽💞

Save me Lord. Can you please deliver me?

I beseech thee Lord for all your tender mercies.

Can You restore to me what the enemy has stolen?

Can you make free my soul and get me out of this hole and

I call on You My God, and my King.

I will always praise You because You make my heart sing.

Deliver me Jesus! Save my soul from hell

Help me Jesus, please Lord let me drink from Your well.

I long to be free. I long to be okay.

I long to be in Your arms on that faithful day.

Lord, Your blood cleanses us. Lord Your love also preserves us.

Deliver me Lord. Heal me King. I am thankful for all your mercies.

Selah [♥]

🦋Jesus Christ Changes You

We all are going through transformations. Are you going towards the Light or the Darkness? Time is running out. Seek the Lord while He can be found.

Seek ye the LORD while he may be found, call ye upon him while he is near: Isaiah 55:6 KJV

God is working on me, and He is working on you

I know it hurts, but its the truth

Always seek the Lord in your youth

With Christ I gain, when pain comes I stay sane

He holds my umbrella while I’m in the rain

I don’t get this life, how sometimes it’s not right

But you my Lord did a major sacrifice

You died for me, so that I may have mercy

Lord! I sing to thee, because I love thee

Lord, I love You. My Lord I choose You.

Life is hard. The world isn’t free

But I praise My King Jesus! Because He has SET ME FREE 🌼

Hallelujah !!!

Come! Let us praise the King for eternity 🌼

God is Healing 🕊️

I almost had a relapse today. I thought about all the things I went through in my childhood and how abuse made me feel so dissociated with reality. I knew this was an attack from the enemy I must be close to something that God has in store for me, and that’s my healing. People who grow up in abuse or those who become entangled in abuse often struggle with identity crisis, and most if not all tend to think that God has forgotten about them. Today I was honest with Jesus, and I told Him how I felt. How long does it take to heal? Is healing a everyday process? I am starting to believe it is everyday I must seek to be renewed and not conformed to the world, and also not letting my past dictate me.

I will stand on His Word, I will be unafraid. I’m tired of being flaky I understand now that my flakiness is a result of the trauma that I went through in my childhood. It causes me not to trust easily, it causes me to run from everyone including my Creator it leaves me with permanent fig leaves that I want removed. I’m tired of hiding. I’m tired of hurting. I just want You Lord to Heal me I just want to be grounded in You and Your Love. Please Lord be my Yahweh Rapha, I know you will only be if I allow you too. Remove these fig leaves from me. Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening.{♥}

I chose to stand on this, In Jesus Christ name AMEN!

Sabbath Songs: Not about Money 💰

Psalms 8:4-5 kjv

It’s not about money, it’s not about gold

It’s about praising Christ with our whole soul

What is a man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man thou visitest him?

You crown me with Your glory, You clothe me with your honour.

Even though I had some dark days, I will always give you praise.

Through the abuse, through the lies even through my hurts ,and the pains I had to disguise

You my Lord know my inner most thoughts, You even know every mans heart ❤

Who can hide from You? Who can deceive You?

My Great Mighty King! You make my heart sing

As I write these words to You I have tears coming in my eyes

Oh! How mighty is Jesus Christ, no one can ask my Lord what He’s doing, or why He has done something

It was never about the money, I want my King I want to be in His presence for all eternity

No money, no gold. I just want to praise Christ with my whole soul.

My Lord, My King, My Master ❤ I love You.

Sabbath Songs: Songs to sing on the Sabbath ❤