What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him? (Psalms 8:4 kjv)
The older I got the less I knew about myself. Abuse, life, drugs, and this world had took its toll on me I felt misunderstood and misplaced in a big world with no identity to call my own. I seen how my past affected the way I looked at Jesus (He revealed it to me in a dream) how I viewed Him as an image of a corruptible man the more I seeked the less I knew, the less I knew the more realized that I needed Jesus. Not the cookie cutter Jesus that so many referred to because it looked good on paper no I wanted the REAL thing I had to have the REAL thing.
What are we? That God loves us so much. He is so mindful of us and the thoughts He thinks towards us is good and not evil. He is our Creator, and He holds each and every one of us in the palm of His hand I am truly blessed to be chosen by God to be saved by way of Jesus Christ. How beautiful is our great God!! And how His mercy endures, how when we were still sinners Christ died for us isn’t that such a heart warming thing? We reject love a lot of times because we DON’T know love the world has conditioned us with a water down version on what love should be. Materialism, vanity, pride, lust, the list goes on and on…….
We are in the end of days. Time is drawing close for Christ to return! Don’t be left in the dark. The trumpets are starting to blow, many will be left behind and many don’t believe(just like in the days of Noah). My hope is that whoever is reading this blog post repents and seeks Jesus Christ all it takes is this:
Acknowledge that you are a sinner
Repent for your sins and Ask God for Forgiveness
Ask Jesus to be your Lord and Savior. Ask the Lord to come into your heart as Lord of your life.
Believe that He died and He rose & Get in the Word & Stay Connected to God.
I hope this Message finds you well. May God bless you and Keep you!
Philipians 5:17-19 says, ” Pray without ceasing. In everything give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. Quench not the spirit.”
I am currently in the middle of a spiritual transition. I am shedding the old, and making way for the new things that El Shaddai(God) has in store for me. Leaving behind these old thoughts that has haunted me since childhood, and replacing them with the unchanging Word of the Living Most High God in Heaven. I am scared, but isn’t being fearful a part of human life? It just depends on how rational or irrational your fear is and how you allow it to channel into your life. Stressing over what people think(that’s irrational) panicking over this coronavirus(that’s irrational) Fearing The Most High God and walking in His grace and begging for His mercy to endure upon you (that’s rational). There is so much going on in the world, so much that takes our minds off Christ that leads us to sink into the water rather than walking on the water towards Him.
We are all going through a transformation this new year. Are you striving to have a deeper relationship with Christ resulting in your moment to walk on the water with Him, or are you letting the obstacles and doubt of this world make you sink deeper into the waters of life stripping your mind of the Prince of Peace?
Maybe you don’t believe, and your looking for a sign so you can also experience Divine transformation well here it is:
May The Most High God give you strength on your journey He’s shaping you.🌼
Recovering from my childhood trauma has taught me many things, but one thing that has stuck with me is that it was better for me to go to Christ when I was broken rather than going to Him when I figured I was “whole”. For a long time I struggled, and some days I still struggle with feelings of inadequacy I often have self-hatred come in to try to take me captive the more I dealt with these feelings the more I realized that I changed God into this same image that I projected onto myself.
Why do we as humans do this? Why do we anker Christ onto feelings that we feel about ourselves? Resulting in us burning bridges before they are built. Will we ever be good enough? That depends what is your definition of “good”? Have you defined good as a state of perfection that cannot be made manifested in a fallen society? Are you willing to accept that Christ loves us unconditional no matter what, and despite the fact we weren’t good enough He still died for us. Resulting in you accepting His offer by changing how you see Him seeing His sacrifice as a reason on why you should be good rather than why you need to be good.
Everyone deserves to be loved, it’s the hallmark of a humans existence what more can a person ask for? Question is, Do you allow God to love you? Or do you push Him away with your own feelings of self-hatred? When people speak of God do you imagine hatred or do you see love manifested on the cross?
Maybe you think I’m foolish because I believe in Christ. Honestly I don’t care what you think, but I will tell you this I’m a BORN again sinner whose in a battle just like you. I’m tired of fighting with my own carnal devices I’m choosing to stick to a Savior who understands my weaknesses and that my fellow reader is where I get my strength from.
We all fall short, it just depends on what you do once you get up……
I meet a lot of people throughout my day to day routine. I have some good encounters and I have some bad encounters (but don’t we all) one question that people seem to ask me after I express my faith in El Shaddai is “What if He’s not real?”, and the most common statement “What if its all a lie, and once you die you just go back to the dirt?” Well if that is true then I wouldn’t even be “alive” to actually piece it all together I would just not exist anymore right? I normally just let people flood me with their thoughts on my Father before I take a deep breath, and allow the Holy Spirit to flood the conversation and let me tell you HE will take over the conversation in a split second. Matter of fact, it doesn’t take much for me to start speaking about The Most High because I love Him so much I tend to pull Him into every conversation that allows a seat for Him to sit in.
We live in a very agnostic society, and people are getting more and more out of touch with reality. Society is becoming more, and more demoralized while people are just shoving their heads in the sand to avoid what’s going on around them. There is a question that I tend to ask myself “Do people care, or are they so oblivious that they do not see what’s going on around them?” My question to the person who claims they don’t believe is “What’s your hope?” What is your reason for living, and what gives you motivation?” I believe in The Most High because He gives me hope I see the atrocities that are going on around me, and it pushes me further into His arms. I laugh to myself sometimes when people try to discredit The Most High God I laugh because man needs to admit that there is something more powerful at play here, there is something way more mighty calling shots. There is a force that man can’t even ascertain that is pulling the strings, can a man make a tree? What about the baby growing in the womb, or how the stars shine in the nighttime sky.
You have to ask yourself is man really that smart? Can he really create all these things? Man cannot create he can only duplicate and even that he gets from the Creator God Yahweh. I bet you believe in air, but you don’t see it. It’s a shame for people to just downplay Yahweh like He isn’t real. Man has a pride issue, and a lot of this stems from the fall in the garden of Eden among other things. I never try to sway the jury when people tell me that they don’t believe in Yahweh I just smile and I hold to what I believe in and that is Christ. Because whether man wants to believe it or not he will stand before Christ and he will have to give in account for his deeds. So, will unbelief stop that? Nope. We all die, and if your name is not in the Book of Life then your going to Hell and it doesn’t matter if you do not believe it or not I bet when your soul feels that fire you will believe then.
May Yahweh Keep you strong in the fight of faith, may He uphold you with His righteous right hand. I don’t care if people don’t believe I believe He is my hope, and my strength. That is what I will tell anyone who asks me Why. Call me crazy, call me foolish but doesn’t it say in His everlasting Word that the fool says in his heart there is no God? Ill be safe and NOT sorry. We all give an account for our actions here!
Love, Danyah ❤
P.S Get right with Christ. Time is so close for His return.❤
Healing takes time, and despite what many people would like you to believe it only up to YOU to understand and conquer your own healing process. Effects from childhood trauma/abuse stays with the recipient long after the abuse was administered. Well anyways here is my list of “Ten things I learned while healing from Childhood Abuse”. May Yahweh Bless you on your healing journey.
The best things in life are Christ. (He makes you free)
Resting on Christ’s word is the ULTIMATE therapy in gaining healing from abuse.
Being the bigger person isn’t easy but it’s worth it in the end Yahweh will only judge you based off your actions not the actions of another person.
Many people won’t understand you (don’t expect them to) Yahweh understands you and that’s the only thing that matters
It’s up to YOU to either break the cycle of abuse, or to keep the cycle going.
Don’t let abuse make you bitter, instead opt for BETTER.
Abuse makes you more aware of how truly toxic people can be and it sharpens your discernment skills as well.
What people say or think about you doesn’t even matter, people who are quick to make warped judgements DO NOT KNOW YOU they certainly don’t know the struggles you have overcome.
While they label, LAUGH you are STRONGER than you appear, and WISER than you seem.
Good days and bad days (everyone had them) it’s up to you to push through with a smile or a frown.
This is a list that I have complied of ten things that I have learned while healing from my childhood abuse. Life happens, and it happens HARD sometimes. I found that crying out to The Most High Yahweh helps me tremendously, He gives me profound strength in this hard world. I pray my list motivates you and encourage you to see the rainbow in the sky, because after all in order to see the rainbow you must first get through the rain. ❤ May Christ comfort you all. Danyah. ❤
I ran across a Chinese proverb it said,” After all, harming others means you first harm yourself”, when I read this it struck a cord with me because I am a vict(or)im of abuse. I am going on three years no contact with my family, and at this point in my journey I am on a path of understanding, and discarding all the negative memories that are embedded into me. Some days are okay, but a lot of days are great they are great because I am discovering the person I was before the abuse began. If you ever met anyone who was open enough to tell you about their abusive childhood they will tell you that the abused robbed them physically, mentally, emotional, and SPIRITUALLY.
My purpose wasn’t made clear to me. My abuser didn’t have a purpose that she was aware of hell, it was stripped from her so why not strip it from someone who isn’t capable to perceive what was actually going on around them? Make your victim a dumping ground for all the anger that you refuse to acknowledge is there also make them the main source of supply, because instead of getting proper healing they will instead choose to pass the baton of wickedness known as abuse. She robbed me of years but going no contact helped me see how toxic my mother was, and how demonically controlled my family is and how she really berated me to the point that I lost sight of who I was before I even became whole.
It takes some victims of abuse years before they see the light at the end of the tunnel, and decades before they leave the tunnel. I didn’t start healing until I left completely and many victims never see results in healing until they leave the toxic situations. Some days I feel lost, and other days I feel strong one thing I have learned on this path of healing is you shouldn’t judge yourself based off of how your abuser treated you. Your not dumb, your not stupid, your not evil but you were abused and it’s not your fault you won’t be held accountable for what your abuser did to you but you will be held accountable for how you let it make you. For the longest time after I stopped associating myself with my family I was bitter, I felt lost it wasn’t until I actually separated the abused me from the real me that I seen that I am loved, I am wanted, and I am adored. I didn’t need my mothers approval because she didn’t even know how to approve herself the only approval that I need to obtain is Yahweh The Most High God.
You are a survivor of abuse. You will be a conqueror of abuse. I choose to let my past strengthen me. I choose not to let the abuse that I suffered in my childhood change me as a person. I will still love. I will still encourage. I will still push forward. I will still reach for The Most High Yahweh. And I will still receive the healing that Christ gives me. Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world. 1 John 4:4
I’m not a big fan of New Year Resolutions, I feel that a lot of it is just regurgitated slangs that have been passed down from generation to generation. That’s just how I feel about it, and no DISRESPECT to anyone who believes DEEPLY in them that’s just how I feel.
Now, lets get to the topic at hand of which what I’m writing about. I am on a journey to “find” well actually discover myself I am excited, scared, nervous,and happy. Yes I understand that this is a lot of emotions but how can you blame me? I am in the process of eliminating a lot of useless things from my flesh the feelings of anger, bitterness, and the perpetual nonsense of “competing” with the daily gossips that happen to come up in the workplace. I am at a point in my life where I want to scream, laugh, and cry at the same damn time and if you have been on an awakening journey please reach through the screen and say, “DANYAH!!! I know EXACTLY how you FEEL”. I am at the point where I am understanding that life is more than what they have conditioned us to believe and happiness isn’t in a car, or gaining a promotion at a job where your working in an environment with people who can give a damn whether you live or die.
You don’t think it’s funny do you? Well I’ll be honest with you sweetheart I think it is, what if everything that you thought you knew was all lame lies that were passed down from generation to generation. Everyone is going in one direction, and many are running in that same direction but the question I want to ask everyone is “Who are You?”, where are you going? How do you perceive life? Are the ideologies your carrying around yours, or are they perceptions that have been spewed upon you? I find a lot of people so disconnected with what’s going on around us, a lot of people are more worried about a JOB, CAR, CLUB, and (insert lame thing here).
I feel that we limit The Most High God to a human statue, and I find that this is very ridiculous on our part. I try to talk to people, but is it just me or is the people getting more, and more vague? I mean have you talked to the people nowadays? The conversations are missing something people are lacking a soul connection to the Creator, if you ask me then again you probably wouldn’t ask me you would probably just pull out your phone and ask Google. A lot of things don’t matter anymore, everything that was presented to me bores me working a 9 to 5 terrifies me and being around people who aren’t like- mindedhorrifies me.
You should understand that The Most High didn’t intend for us to become, mindless zombies running like machines for these jobs that don’t even provide us with spiritual nourishment. By the time we get off from work we don’t even have time for Yahweh let alone our families. Isn’t life made for us to live, and to enjoy? Those people who proclaim that they are mad at El Shaddai, are they really mad at Him or the way the system is set up? Are they mad at Christ or the luciferian agenda that is plaguing mankind?
Well…. it’s not up to me to try to figure people out. I’m actually on a journey to discover who Yahweh created me to be. Thank you for reading please know that Christ loves us very much, and He loves us more than our brains can actually comprehend. Maybe you should discover who He made you to be, and not who “they” told you to be. Or maybe I’m full of it like the “they” I speak of.
Much Love Always, Dan “Discovering Myself” Yah (Danyah ♥)
I grew up in an abusive household so I don’t trust easily. I learned early on that many people aren’t who they claim to be, and many aren’t to be trusted. I look back on my life and I believe that The Most High wanted me to have the trials I endured so that from my experiences I can really reach for Him amongst the lies that this world dished out at me. The hurts I have experienced have not only made me stronger, but also wiser it has strengthen my moral and made me understand that not everyone who claims to love Yahweh really loves Him many people only love themselves, and they are very selfish. They look at your kindness as weakness, like vultures circling a dying animal in the wilderness.
I have recently come to terms with the fact that 85% of the people in this world are full of it they speak with double tongues, and they blend the holy and the unholy together all while having their hearts far from The Most High Yahweh. I trust NO ONE, many people don’t even know who they are they just go by what society tells them. A lot of these people don’t know El Shaddai, nor do they want to know Him many people claim they love him with their mouths but their hearts are extremely far from Him. They actually hate Him, they tear apart His words and worship other gods they support pagan customs and they love bathing in their ignorance.
I am starting to realize that many people are simple minded and they look to Christ as a last resort sort of like a “in case of a emergency” type of deal, rather than Christ loves me so much He died for me so let me live my life in a way that honors Him. 85% of the people rather worship idols, and turn to demons to get a quick fix happy meal rather than seeking the Most High to understand their calling and purpose here on Earth. Whether you like to believe it or not you aren’t here to worship yourself, and your life shouldn’t be fixated on selfish desires.
Coming to terms with the toxic childhood has made me equip with some of the greatest tools in being able to detect deception, and falsehood. Every now and again life throws me a whammy, but this is when I go to my Creator Yahweh, and I ask Him to refine me to change my thinking so that I can keep walking on this narrow path to Him despite the evilness I see people doing, and the blasphemy I hear them saying. I choose to not trust anything at face value, we as followers of Christ must guard not only our light, but also our truth. We must test the spirits to see if they are from Yahweh.
I’m wandering, but I’m not lost. I just choose to trust in Yahweh to guide me in all truth amongst the treachery. I thank you Yahweh Ben Yahweh for the sacrifice you have done for me, thank You for shedding Your blood for me. Thank You for making a way for me to connect to You. Its been a long time since I posted I just been busy, soaking in new revelation that Yahweh is giving me.