God is Healing 🕊️

I almost had a relapse today. I thought about all the things I went through in my childhood and how abuse made me feel so dissociated with reality. I knew this was an attack from the enemy I must be close to something that God has in store for me, and that’s my healing. People who grow up in abuse or those who become entangled in abuse often struggle with identity crisis, and most if not all tend to think that God has forgotten about them. Today I was honest with Jesus, and I told Him how I felt. How long does it take to heal? Is healing a everyday process? I am starting to believe it is everyday I must seek to be renewed and not conformed to the world, and also not letting my past dictate me.

I will stand on His Word, I will be unafraid. I’m tired of being flaky I understand now that my flakiness is a result of the trauma that I went through in my childhood. It causes me not to trust easily, it causes me to run from everyone including my Creator it leaves me with permanent fig leaves that I want removed. I’m tired of hiding. I’m tired of hurting. I just want You Lord to Heal me I just want to be grounded in You and Your Love. Please Lord be my Yahweh Rapha, I know you will only be if I allow you too. Remove these fig leaves from me. Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening.{♥}

I chose to stand on this, In Jesus Christ name AMEN!

Witness Wednesday: Faith Vs. Fear🛡

Proverbs 14:8

There is so much hype going on in the world right now with the COVID-19 many people are panicking and many people think that it’s not that serious. Grocery stores are flooded, lots of people are on edge lots of people are out of work not knowing if they have a job to go back to, after this “blows over”. So much going on it makes me wonder what has happened to man that leads them not to have faith in God? What makes them put faith in a job, or a government system? Does anybody believe that El Shaddai is bigger than a virus? Why are people so worried? Why are people panicking? Shouldn’t this be a time to build up faith rather than fear that is what the enemy wants a world full of FEAR so that he can maneuver silently without being stopped or hindered.

By faith Noah, being warned of God of things not seen as yet, moved with fear, prepared an ark to the saving of his house; by the which he condemned the world, and became heir of the righteousness which is by faith. (Hebrews 11:7 kjv)

Fear can be healthy, or it can be UNHEALTHY. Healthy fear keeps you dependent on God no matter what circumstances you face, no matter how many people are reported to have the virus. It protects believers from pride and being over self-sufficient (especially in a time like this), it causes us to not become selfish but to instead focus on others so that we can be a light amongst the darkness giving hope to those who feel as though they have no hope in a dark world plagued by COVID-19. Healthy fear makes us stand on God’s promises and His word it also causes us to know that He is in CONTROL no matter what goes on around us or what fiery darts the enemy throws at us as believers we must understand that “Greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world” (1 John 4:4 kjv).

Why panic? Why worry? Why have fear? NONE of these are of God! They are tools that come from the devil and his minions. Unhealthy fear leads into mistrust, anxiety, dread, panic, worry, and the worst of it all DISBELIEF it causes you not to believe in El Shaddai but yourself, and your own strength it causes you to put yourself in the position of God(which is impossible). “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.( 2 Timothy 1:7 kjv). Everything is beyond our control. So why not put our faith in the One who controls it all? Why not praise Him while everyone is panicking. WE ARE NOT OF THE WORLD! Children of the world have no HOPE but we have HOPE our blessed hope is in Christ Jesus who died on the cross for our sins. Fear comes from the enemy, but faith moves mountains it stops the enemy’s reign of terror and puts out the fiery darts that he throws at you instead it leads to us as believers holding up our shield of FAITH stopping the devil right in his tracks.

Stand strong my beloved, and strengthen those who feel fear with the Word of God! Instill hope in them through Jesus Christ standing on His Word, and looking to God’s promises. Rejoice not in darkness but rebel in truth take heed during these times that NO MAN or devil deceives you HOLD UP YOUR SHIELD OF FAITH AND TAKE BACK YOUR MIND. Just think for a minute my beautiful people during this time while you are home with your loved ones get a piece of paper out and write down all the blessings that God has given you, and all the vices he has DELIVERED you from the more you write the more you should let it sink in that with man it is impossible, but with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.

Have a beautiful blessed day. I love you All! God is way bigger than we can ascertain I’m sure of this. ❤

Witness Wednesday: Self Hatred

Recovering from my childhood trauma has taught me many things, but one thing that has stuck with me is that it was better for me to go to Christ when I was broken rather than going to Him when I figured I was “whole”. For a long time I struggled, and some days I still struggle with feelings of inadequacy I often have self-hatred come in to try to take me captive the more I dealt with these feelings the more I realized that I changed God into this same image that I projected onto myself.

Why do we as humans do this? Why do we anker Christ onto feelings that we feel about ourselves? Resulting in us burning bridges before they are built. Will we ever be good enough? That depends what is your definition of “good”? Have you defined good as a state of perfection that cannot be made manifested in a fallen society? Are you willing to accept that Christ loves us unconditional no matter what, and despite the fact we weren’t good enough He still died for us. Resulting in you accepting His offer by changing how you see Him seeing His sacrifice as a reason on why you should be good rather than why you need to be good.

Everyone deserves to be loved, it’s the hallmark of a humans existence what more can a person ask for? Question is, Do you allow God to love you? Or do you push Him away with your own feelings of self-hatred? When people speak of God do you imagine hatred or do you see love manifested on the cross?

Hebrews 4:15 kjv

Maybe you think I’m foolish because I believe in Christ. Honestly I don’t care what you think, but I will tell you this I’m a BORN again sinner whose in a battle just like you. I’m tired of fighting with my own carnal devices I’m choosing to stick to a Savior who understands my weaknesses and that my fellow reader is where I get my strength from.

We all fall short, it just depends on what you do once you get up……

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