Thank you for allowing me to see another year on this earth. I do not understand your plans for me but I do understand that if I am still here it is for a reason and for Your divine purposes. Life is hard and sometimes it is scary but I thank You Lord that I have You! You are a Good Shepherd and You look after and protects what’s Yours. Lord I pray that my life is filled with Your goodness and Your kindness and Divine Favor in Jesus Christ name I pray, Amen 🥰🥰😇👑👸🏽👰🏽
After three years of no contact I can honestly say that I feel the anointing of God’s healing power on me I can stand on my own two feet and I know it’s not my strength but Christ. Three years ago when I first went no contact I had just gotten out of a mental hospital undergoing demonic attacks I felt alone, scared, and I was tired of feeling the pain that came from me having my mother in my life. When I first cut communication it was like my mind was trying so desperately to manipulate me into believing that the abuse never happened, then I would have feelings of regret and loneliness. Instead of me acknowledging and accepting that I was abandoned, and abused by my family I would feel as though I was doing to them the very same things they had done to me. I would reverse it. It’s funny how we as humans can do that, it was like I was detoxing from a drug or coming down from a potent high.
Why do victims feel this way? How come after walking from an abusive situation, they feel the need to go back thinking things will change? The answer lies in our childhood one must acknowledge that the environment they grew up in was unnatural the only thing that would make sense is doing things that make no sense. Narcissistic parents train scapegoated children from a early age to cut ties with their original selves, they then mold them to be the physical manifestation of the pain, and anger that they feel on the inside. When the picked party lashes out at the treatment that’s inflicted on them the whole family stares “in shock”, and amazement. They are the only brave ones willing to fight on the battlefield this causes the narcissistic parent(abuser) to always seek out ways to keep the picked party “in their place” by using mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical abuse measures.
Things the Victim (Victor) should reflect upon while going no contact:
You have been brainwashed into believing that you are the reason why you are being abused and treated unfairly.
To not feel pain after going no contact the victor needs to understand that they need healing and to have successful healing they must leave the toxic environment completely.
If they cannot leave the toxic environment the victor must start renewing their minds with what the Word of God says about them, and who they are. They must also understand that the narcissistic parent is spiritually sick.
Realize that what the abuser says about you doesn’t define you, it just shows that the abuser is intimidated by you.
They will rise because they are HEALED BY GOD, they are victors leading other victims free! CALL ON YAHWEH RAPHA TO HEAL YOU!
FIND YOUR PASSION AFTER THE PAIN OF GOING NO CONTACT!
Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompence of reward.
God hasn’t forgotten about you. He loves you more than you know. Confidence in Christ and His sacrifice is needed in order to have strength the strength to share the Gospel with boldness (Acts 28:31 Preaching the kingdom of God, and teaching those things which concern the LORD Jesus Christ, with all confidence, no man forbidding him.) Be confident we serve a Great and POWERFUL Savior, we have the Lord on our side. We are OVERCOMERS, and the work that He started in you He will complete He is a keeper of His promises His Word will not come back void (Isaiah 55:11 So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall notreturn unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.)
We are HIS MASTERPIECE!!! If no one ever told you I’m Telling you (Ephesians 2:10 For we arehis workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.)
Today my Beloved, Have CONFIDENCE in Christ He is with you and He will never leave you nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the LORD thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.)
I pray this message blesses you as much as it has blessed me when it was told to me I love you God loves you HAVE A BEAUTIFUL DAY!!!be confident YOU HAVE CHRIST!!
As a child who grew up in a abusive household I developed many unhealthy spiritual habits, and one MAJOR thing that I struggled with was unforgiveness it infected me like a cancer and I felt that I didn’t need to forgive my mother because after all she never acknowledged her wrongs. The older I got, the more I experienced hurt at the hands of my family and also others that I met I felt as though if my mother didn’t love me how can God love me? Was forgiveness necessary for me to walk with Christ? Was the hardest decision in my life actually more easier than my flesh made it feel?
I can attest that in order to have a successful relationship with Jesus Christ you MUST forgive EVERYONE even when it HURTS. Unforgiveness is actually a work of the flesh (Galatians 5:19-21 kjv) it leads to hatred and gives you a ticket straight to hell.
Our relationship with God, is built on forgiveness when we repent of our sins we are also asking for forgiveness in order to have a relationship with God. Jesus tells us in Mark 11:26: But if ye do not forgive, neither will your Father which is in heaven forgive your trespasses kjv.
In order to experience true freedom and healing from the shackles of abuse and spiritual defeat one must be willing to forgive wrongdoings that was done to them NO MATTER how much it hurts. I know it hurts but love covers a multitude of sins (1 Peter 4:8 kjv) I love Jesus Christ more than I love my pain and hurt He frees us from the bondage of bitterness.
The longer I held on to the past the more bitter I got. We have two choices in our healing process to get bitter or better.
Sit and reflect on these things:
Is holding in hurt and resentment worth your eternal soul in Hell? Are you justifying reasons you shouldn’t forgive someone who has wronged you, are you letting your flesh get in the way of TRUE deliverance?
Is your relationship with God based on an actual relationship of true love, and repentance? Are you just covering up your bitterness with empty praises and clinging to unforgiveness while slowly sinking into anger (works of the flesh)?
Bitterness is a seed that gets planted at a early age and it springs up slowly and by the time you realize that you have a problem you are in hell regretting and wishing that you would have came to Christ for healing. Most bitter people do not realize they are bitter, they are cynical they are deep rooted in the flesh and many of these people think that they are Christians. As true followers of Christ we must deny ourselves (Matthew 16:24 Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.)
Abuse is my cross and denying myself means that I put anger and resentment(bitterness) far from me. I will follow Christ because only He can give me deliverance, healing, and most of all LOVE. I choose not to walk in the flesh, but I will walk in the Spirit (Galatians 5:16 kjv This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh.)
Repent for the kingdom of God draws near! Whatever wrong that was done to you please give it to Jesus He will handle it. True freedom come from forgiveness because it allows you to place your FULL Faith (trust) in God it leaves justice to Him (Romans 12:19 Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the LORD.)
Unforgivness puts up a wall between you and Jesus a wall so high that you wont be able to experience His love, and the freedom that comes with it.