I almost had a relapse today. I thought about all the things I went through in my childhood and how abuse made me feel so dissociated with reality. I knew this was an attack from the enemy I must be close to something that God has in store for me, and that’s my healing. People who grow up in abuse or those who become entangled in abuse often struggle with identity crisis, and most if not all tend to think that God has forgotten about them. Today I was honest with Jesus, and I told Him how I felt. How long does it take to heal? Is healing a everyday process? I am starting to believe it is everyday I must seek to be renewed and not conformed to the world, and also not letting my past dictate me.
I will stand on His Word, I will be unafraid. I’m tired of being flaky I understand now that my flakiness is a result of the trauma that I went through in my childhood. It causes me not to trust easily, it causes me to run from everyone including my Creator it leaves me with permanent fig leaves that I want removed. I’m tired of hiding. I’m tired of hurting. I just want You Lord to Heal me I just want to be grounded in You and Your Love. Please Lord be my Yahweh Rapha, I know you will only be if I allow you too. Remove these fig leaves from me. Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening.{♥}
-💌Talks with DanYah🌼🌺🌹 
AMEN! Our healing WILL COME as we take one day at a time with our Heavenly Father.
But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31KJV
HE healeth the broken heart, and bindeth up their wounds. Psalms 147:3 KJV
O Lord my God, I cried unto thee, and thou hast healed me. Psalms 30:2 KJV
Stay strong! God bless!
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Thank you for reading! And thank you for your beautiful comment I needed that reminder! It is so hard! some days are good and some days are bad… I feel whole some days and some days I feel broken, but I truly believe I have a purpose here and being a victim isn’t one of them.. Its being a survivor! Hallelujah ❤ Praise The Lord ❤
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Thank you so much! May God bless you just seen your comment! It was with the spam for some odd reason smh
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Wow that was strange. I just wrote an very long comment but after I clicked submit my comment didn’t show up. Grrrr… well I’m not writing all that over again. Anyway, just wanted to say wonderful blog!
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I just seen your comment smh. They put it with the spam for some odd reason … Thank you so much!!! may God Bless you
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