Witness Wednesday: Self Hatred

Recovering from my childhood trauma has taught me many things, but one thing that has stuck with me is that it was better for me to go to Christ when I was broken rather than going to Him when I figured I was “whole”. For a long time I struggled, and some days I still struggle with feelings of inadequacy I often have self-hatred come in to try to take me captive the more I dealt with these feelings the more I realized that I changed God into this same image that I projected onto myself.

Why do we as humans do this? Why do we anker Christ onto feelings that we feel about ourselves? Resulting in us burning bridges before they are built. Will we ever be good enough? That depends what is your definition of “good”? Have you defined good as a state of perfection that cannot be made manifested in a fallen society? Are you willing to accept that Christ loves us unconditional no matter what, and despite the fact we weren’t good enough He still died for us. Resulting in you accepting His offer by changing how you see Him seeing His sacrifice as a reason on why you should be good rather than why you need to be good.

Everyone deserves to be loved, it’s the hallmark of a humans existence what more can a person ask for? Question is, Do you allow God to love you? Or do you push Him away with your own feelings of self-hatred? When people speak of God do you imagine hatred or do you see love manifested on the cross?

Hebrews 4:15 kjv

Maybe you think I’m foolish because I believe in Christ. Honestly I don’t care what you think, but I will tell you this I’m a BORN again sinner whose in a battle just like you. I’m tired of fighting with my own carnal devices I’m choosing to stick to a Savior who understands my weaknesses and that my fellow reader is where I get my strength from.

We all fall short, it just depends on what you do once you get up……

Witness Wednesday: Volume 1

14 thoughts on “Witness Wednesday: Self Hatred

  1. riverlifepsalms1

    What a word, what a word….

    We all have a path, and although they all may be different, God ultimately has a plan and purpose for them all, even our pain. His plan and purpose goes far beyond the reality of where we reside, and I’ve learned that God desires to use all of it for His glory, even to speak into the lives of others…

    I’m reminded of this powerful story that still speaks volumes today, concerning many things that we may face and experience……

    “Now as Jesus passed by, He saw a man who was blind from birth. 2 And His disciples asked Him, saying, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?”3 Jesus answered, “Neither this man nor his parents sinned, but that the works of God should be revealed in him…John 9:1-3

    In this passage, it was puzzling for the disciples to grasp why such a thing like this could happen to an innocent child, who was now a man, yet, was still suffering. Often times when trying to figure out why we had and have to face and be subjected to certain things, questions and thoughts like this arise …

    John 9 offers us a reason for the why, and even the purpose beyond the pain, and when we embrace this, we can do JUST as you said about it, “it was better for me to go to Christ when I was broken….

    Here’s one purpose….”Neither this man nor his parents sinned, but that the works of God should be revealed in him…

    So Lord, we surrender our lives unto You, the good, the bad, and the ugly. We lay ourselves at Your feet for divine deliverance and healing. Help Your word to take root in our hearts, so that even when the wrestling match occurs in our minds, concerning our past and the pain thereof, help us to “praise You, for We are fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works (in us), And that, our soul knows very well….Psalm 139:14

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    1. This is so beautiful thank you so much my brother in Christ for this mighty word you have given not only me but all of us. The truth being that The Lord can heal ALL things, and sometimes we are broken so that His glory can be made manifested in our wholeness. I needed this word and also the confirmation May God Bless You and keep you. May He bless all of us and Keep up AMEN!
      I learned something New to day. I am ready to experience divine healing. ❤

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      1. riverlifepsalms1

        God has an amazing way from taking us from brokenness to blossoming, and from pain to planting us, so that His glory is revealed…Keep pressing Sis…

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      1. riverlifepsalms1

        You’re planted for the glory of God to be revealed….

        “The Spirit of the Lord God is upon Me,
        Because the Lord has anointed Me
        To preach good tidings to the poor;
        He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted,
        To proclaim liberty to the captives,
        And the opening of the prison to those who are bound; 2 To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord, And the day of vengeance of our God; To comfort all who mourn,
        3 To console those who mourn in Zion,
        To give them beauty for ashes, The oil of joy for mourning, The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; That they may be called trees of righteousness, The planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.”…Isaiah 61:1-3

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